Broken Love (Broken #4)(21)

I frantically began rubbing my hands together as I barely said, “I’m scared.”

His face was so beautiful in the light; I felt tears beginning to pool in my eyes. “Why are you scared, Ava?”

With a quick shrug, I shook my head. “What if I’m not any good? Like, I really suck in the sex department and you’re so disgusted you have to leave in the middle of it all.”

Ryder pulled his T-shirt over his head and tossed to the side. “Nonsense. There is nothing about you I don’t love.”

Oh. My. God. He said the L word. Do I panic?

No.

Do I say it back?

Hell no! He didn’t tell you he loved you, Ava. He said he loved everything about you.

Isn’t that the same thing?

No. Totally not the same thing. He’s thinking with his little man and that’s all. It was a slip of the tongue.

As my mind argued with itself, I watched Ryder remove his boots, and then his belt. One quick push down of his pants and I was gasping for air.

Holy living shit balls. He was for sure not thinking with his little man, because he was far from little.

“I don’t think you’re going to fit inside of me!” I blurted out without thinking.

Ryder laughed as he took himself in his hand and I had a mini orgasm right there on the spot. “Okay well … you have successfully caused my panties to go wet.”

Lifting his eyebrow, he stroked himself slowly as he walked up to me. “Do you want me to undress you, Ava, or do you want to undress yourself?”

This was getting embarrassing. I couldn’t pull my eyes from his hand stroking himself. It was the hottest thing I’d ever seen. Forcing myself to move, I quickly undressed myself except for the tan lace panties and matching bra I had on.

“My God, you’re the most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on.”

Swallowing hard, I moved my hand down to his and moaned as my fingers wrapped around his hard dick.

Ryder shook his head and grabbed my hand and pulled it over my head. “Stop. I won’t last two minutes with you touching me.”

With a wicked smile, I locked onto my lip with my teeth and batted my eyes up at him. “What will you do when you’re buried deep inside of me?”

His eyes turned dark and before I knew it, I was on the bed and Ryder was slipping my panties off and burying his face between my legs.

“Oh God!” I screamed out as he did things with his tongue I never knew possible. My orgasm hit me hard as I grabbed his hair and pushed him closer to my body while I called out his name.

His lips covered what felt like every inch of my body before he pushed my bra up and exposed my breasts. His mouth was gentle as he took each nipple in and gave them the attention they had been longing for the last few weeks.

My body twisted around on the bed as Ryder’s hands and lips took me to a place I never wanted to leave.

“What about birth control?”

What was he asking me? I was in a euphoria like I’d never known.

“Ava, baby, are you listening to me?”

My eyes opened as I pulled myself together and leaned up on my elbows. “Three step method.”

Ryder gave me a confused look. “What?”

“Birth control, condom, pull out.”

“You’re on birth control?”

I nodded my head as my eyes moved down to his hard throbbing dick. God, I wanted to feel him inside of me. “Please tell me you have a condom.”

The look on his face told me did. “Yeah, hold on. Nate hid a box up here a few months ago.”

I wanted to ask how many girls he’d brought here to have sex with, but I decided it was best if I didn’t know. It only took Ryder about thirty seconds to find the box and grab a handful and throw them on the bed.

“Feeling lucky?” I asked with a wink.

“I haven’t had sex in forever and I’m pretty sure making love to you is going to be like nothing I’ve ever experienced before, so yes … I’m feeling very lucky.”

Okay, now he just put the pressure of best experience ever onto my shoulders. “How long is forever?” I asked.

Ugh. Oh my God, Ava! You broke the number one rule. Never ask a guy when the last time he had sex was.

Ryder’s eyes met mine. “Over nine months.”

“Nine months! Why?”

Giving me a smile that made my insides quiver, he said, “I haven’t met anyone I wanted to be with until the day I damn near knocked you over.”

Ryder ripped the condom open and slipped it on as he motioned for me to lie back down. He didn’t jump right to it, though, like most guys would. He took his sweet time.

Ryder moved his hands over my body like he was worshipping it. I was on fire just from his touch. When his hand moved between my legs, his lips pressed against mine. Our tongues danced in rhythm as Ryder readied my body for him.

Pulling his lips from mine, he kissed softly along my neck and over to my ear where he whispered, “Ava, my sweet Ava,” as he pushed himself ever so slowly inside of me. Inch by holy-freaking-hell-he’s-huge inch.

My body lifted as I greedily took him in. The feeling was beyond amazing as Ryder buried himself all the way into me and didn't move. Bracing his elbows on the bed, he placed both hands on my face and kissed me ever so softly. Each time, he whispered words against my lips. My body felt like I was on a journey that I prayed would never end. Each dip of my stomach or flutter of my heart was another piece of myself I gave to him.