Adrenaline (Speed Series Book 2)(75)

He went to talk, but I kept going.

“Let’s not forget to mention that you’re also going to own racecars with the same man you couldn’t even stand a few years ago. What if you disagree on something and none of this works out? You bought a damn house with him! You’ll be traveling to races, and what about North Carolina? You sold your house there, but now you’re talking about owning a team. Call me stupid, but aren’t all the teams located there?”

Again he opened his mouth to talk, but I stopped him. “I think it’s wonderful Adaline found something she’s passionate about, but to expect me to just jump right on into someone else’s dreams seems rather selfish on your part.”

“I guess I didn’t think about it like that.”

“No, you didn’t. I need to be alone for a bit to get my thoughts together. Please, will you take me home?”

Sophie came running out, calling my name. When I turned to look over my shoulder, Emmit, Adaline, and Autumn were all standing on the porch.

Shit. How much of that did they all just hear?

“Here’s your water,” Sophie said as she forced it into my hand. Lifting it up to my lips, I took a drink and handed it back to her. Adaline was looking at me like she wanted to say something but wasn’t sure what she should say.

“Congratulations on the engagement!” Autumn called out as she bolted down the stairs and pulled me into her arms.

“I’ve never seen Malcolm as happy as he has been with you,” she whispered into my ear. When Adaline and Emmit stood before me, Adaline gave me a sympathetic smile. “It took a little while for me to get used to the idea as well. Would you like to tour the whole house so you can see how the two separate living areas are laid out?”

Oh. My. God. I’m the last person to even see the whole house.

I shook my head and barely said, “Not right now. I really need to get back to the house. I’m not feeling well.”

With that I turned away from everyone and forced myself not to run but to walk.

By the time I got to the truck, I jumped in and tried to get my breathing under control. It felt as if I was having a panic attack.

Malcolm got in the truck and silently we drove back to his house. Not saying a word, I made my way to the guest bedroom I had stayed in a few months back. Malcolm didn’t even follow me.

Shutting the door, I leaned against it and slid to the ground as I dropped my forehead onto my knees and cried.

The different emotions running through my mind were confusing. The idea of being married to Malcolm thrilled me, yet at the same time I knew my life would be so different. Mansions, vineyards, assistants, cooks, and whatever else Malcolm decided to throw into the mix. The one thing I would not allow him to do to me is let me lose my independence or my voice. I wasn’t sure how long I sat there on the floor before I finally got up and hit Elizabeth’s number.

After she answered, I launched into a full on explanation of everything that just happened.

“So, what exactly are you confused about, Paislie?”

My eyes widened in shock. “Elizabeth, he planned all of this without talking to me!”

“Okay, so I get that the idea of the bed and breakfast thing makes you angry because it wasn’t originally your idea, but have you not talked for years about doing something like that?”

I chewed the corner of my lips. “Well, yeah but that’s beside the point.”

“Why? Do you like Adaline?”

My heart jumped to my throat. “Yes. Very much.”

“Do you not think Malcolm saw that and took that into consideration before he made this move?”

I shrugged even though she couldn’t see me. “I guess so.”

“Paislie, I get you’re feeling like Malcolm made some serious decisions without consulting you, but stop for a few moments and ask yourself this. If he had asked you to marry him, then asked you about buying the house and vineyards with Emmit and his family, then mentioned the possibility of the bed and breakfast, what would you have said?”

I thought for a moment. “I would have said yes to all of it. I love that he and Emmit are reaching outside the box and trying something totally different, but it’s also a little scary for me to think he’s doing this with someone else. What if they have a fight? I mean they bought a damn house together!”

Elizabeth chuckled. “I see your point, but I also don’t think of Malcolm as someone who would make such a decision without really thinking it through.”

I nodded as I sat down on the bed. “I honestly think I’m more upset by the fact that I was the last to know any of this. Did he not tell me because he was worried I would say no to his proposal?”

“Maybe, or maybe he really thought he was surprising you.”

My lip tingled as I realized I was biting it. Letting out a frustrated sigh, I asked, “Do you think I overreacted?”

“Yes and no. I would probably have a talk with him about future decisions and that you want to be a part of them.”

“Totally,” I barely said as I stood back up and paced the floor. “It all just seems so fast, Elizabeth.”

“And there we are to the root of the issue.”

My head dropped back. I knew she was right. One second I was engaged and the next, I discovered I had a house bigger than the one I was currently in, another family living there with us, a vineyard, olive trees, and possibly going into business with a person I hardly knew. Plus add in a wedding, my own career and the idea that as each day went on, I longed for a child more and more.