The Saint (Highland Guard #5)(74)

“How?”

“Dance with me.”

Her heart swelled. She’d dreamed of having him swing her around a crowded Hall, holding her, touching her, for all the world to see.

And a short while later, when he led her in a reel across the crowded stone floor of the Great Hall of Dingwall Castle before her scowling brother, an amused king, and a furious Donald, it was a dream come true.

For the first time in years, the happiness she sought, the elusive “more” she wanted, seemed a little closer.

The euphoria of the dance sustained Helen through the rest of the day and into the following morning. It was working!

In the days since they’d left Dunrobin, she’d felt a subtle shift in Magnus’s attitude toward her. Rather than avoiding her as he’d done before, he seemed to be seeking ways of being closer to her. She’d felt him watching her. And now, after the conversation yesterday and the dance, she was sure that he was softening toward her.

Their conversation had done something else. It made her realize that part of what had held her back from accepting his proposal all those years ago was fear that she would let him down. Fear that she would never be the kind of lady of the keep that his mother was. That she would never fit into the life that was demanded of her.

So, after breaking her fast, Helen made a concerted effort to spend more time with the other women. But after three hours of sitting around a tapestry in the Countess of Ross’s small solar, sewing and discussing every nuance and angle of the betrothal while trying not to say the wrong thing (she’d barely caught herself from remarking that the only time she enjoyed sewing was when it was necessary to close a wound), the thick stone walls of the small room seemed to be closing in on her again.

The midday meal was a welcome escape, although she was disappointed not to see Magnus in the Hall.

Unfortunately, she was seated on the dais beside the Countess of Ross. The austere Englishwoman was said to have been a beauty thirty years ago when she’d captured the heart of the Scottish earl, but any signs of that beauty had faded into the gray, colorless woman who looked at her with sharp-eyed condescension, as if she could see every one of Helen’s faults. Even without her penchant for saying the wrong thing, Helen doubted she could ever say the right thing around the formidable countess. She hated to so much as open her mouth.

She felt the countess’s gaze on her. “Will you be joining my daughters’ falconing this afternoon, Lady Helen?”

She blanched. In yet another oddity, Helen did not enjoy the popular pursuit of noblemen and women alike. She liked watching the predatory birds dip and soar from afar, but up close …

She shivered. The birds terrified her.

She tried to cover her reaction, but feared the other woman could see through it. “I’m afraid not.”

Before she could add an excuse, the countess said, “Good. Then I shall look forward to more of your help with the tapestry after the meal. You’re obviously out of practice, but your stitches are competent when you concentrate.” Helen supposed that was high praise coming from her. “You can tell me how it is that a daughter of Sutherland came to be a loyal attendant of King Hoo—” She stopped herself, realizing the man she’d been about to call King Hood was seated five feet away. “King Robert,” she smiled thinly, unable to fully conceal her aversion.

Some thought the Earl of Ross’s ongoing resistance to Robert Bruce had stemmed from his English wife’s sympathies. There was undoubtedly some truth to the rumor.

Helen swallowed hard. The sharp-eyed birds or hours alone with the sharp-eyed countess—she didn’t know which was more terrifying.

She opened her mouth, trying to think of an excuse to get out of this predicament, but slammed it shut again when she realized she was stammering.

Suddenly, she felt someone behind her. She turned, surprised to see Magnus. Their eyes caught, and from the flicker of sympathy she realized he must have heard enough to understand the nature of her predicament.

“Lady Helen, I’m sorry to interrupt your meal, but your assistance is required in the barracks.”

The Countess of Ross’s eyes narrowed. “What’s the matter? Why is Lady Helen—”

“I’m afraid the matter is of some delicacy, my lady,” he said, implying that it was a matter for the king. “Lady Helen?”

He held out his hand, which she readily slipped hers into. Big and warm, his strong, callused palm swallowed her tiny fingers in a protective hold as he helped her from the table and led her out of the boisterous Hall.

She looked behind her, half-expecting her brother or Donald to come racing after them demanding an explanation, but realized that Gregor MacGregor had both men locked in conversation with their gazes drawn away from the door.

“Your doing?” she said with a glance in their direction.

He grinned and shrugged, a devilish look in his eye. “Might be.”

She laughed with a sense of joy and freedom that she hadn’t experienced in a long time, feeling so much like the naughty girl who’d snuck away at the Highland Games to meet her secret love.

She slowed her step as soon as they exited the Hall into the bright and sunny courtyard. Drawing a deep breath, she said, “Thank you for rescuing me. I fear I was not relishing the thought of a long afternoon with Lady Euphemia.”

He made a face. “I don’t blame you. The woman terrifies me. But come, we need to hurry.”