The Gamble (Colorado Mountain #1)(122)

“Nina –”

I pushed against his chest. “Max, let me go.”

His tight arms gave me a shake and he clipped, “Nina.”

I calmed and tried to look at him without glaring at him.

“Jesus,” he muttered.

“You had something to say?” I prompted.

“Yeah,” he bit off. “I was gonna say that I know we’ve only known each other a week and I know you’re scared outta your f**kin’ skull because I got you after all those ass**les chewed you up but what happened today and what happened tonight even you can’t ignore.”

I managed to stare at him without glaring at him mainly because my mouth had dropped open and my mind had gone blank.

Then I whispered, “What?”

“We’re connected now.”

It was breathy this time when I repeated, “What?”

“Very connected.”

“Max –”

“You think you can walk outta Mindy’s life, Brody’s life, my life after what happened today, what happened between us tonight –”

I broke in, saying, “I thought you were going to send me away.”

His head jerked and it was his turn to ask, “What?”

“I thought you were done with me.”

Max stared at me a second and I watched in budding, yet weirdly rapt terror as a dark, ominous shadow drifted over his face.

“I’m not those f**kin’ guys,” he growled so low I barely heard him.

My stomach pitched and I whispered, “Max –”

“Don’t ever f**kin’ mistake me for one of those f**kin’ guys.”

“I –”

“I don’t know all they did, I just know what it did to you and, Nina, I’m not one of those f**kin’ guys.”

“Okay,” I said softly.

“And I cannot f**kin’ believe, after I took care of you when you were sick, after this week, after today, after tonight, you’d f**kin’ think that of me.”

Even in the face of his obvious anger, I felt steel sheath my spine and I told him, “You don’t understand.”

“Explain it to me.”

“It always starts good.”

“Yeah?”

“Then it goes bad.”

“And?”

“Sometimes very bad.”

“You think I’m gonna cheat on you, lie to you, beat you?”

“I don’t know.”

That shadow darkened and his eyes again narrowed just as his arms grew tight.

“You don’t know?” he asked.

“I didn’t know with them either.”

“Jesus, Nina, I give you any indication I’d f**kin’ do that to you, to anyone?”

Actually, he hadn’t.

Of course, there was the small matter of his dead wife that he still hadn’t shared with me. Along with a lot of his life. Whereas I’d shared a good deal of mine. Or it had walked in his front door, spilled out in phone conversations he was privy to or came out when I was in a snit.

To explain this concept, I told him, “I don’t even know how old you are.”

“Yeah, that’s because you haven’t f**kin’ asked. I don’t know how old you are either but I’ve actually f**kin’ asked.”

Unfortunately, I had to admit, he had me there.

“What’s your point?” he asked when I fell silent.

“Sorry?”

“What’s my age got to do with it?”

“I’m just pointing out we barely know each other and, further, you’re not exactly forthcoming.”

“Not hidin’ anything, Duchess, unlike you who’s secretive as hell and when you aren’t, you’re guarded.”

I felt my own eyes narrow and I snapped, “I am not,” even though I knew I kind of was.

“Yeah, how old are you?”

“Thirty-six,” I replied immediately and his face suddenly cleared.

“What?” he asked.

“I’m thirty-six years old.”

“Jesus,” he muttered, that shadow drifting back.

“What?”

“You’re not thirty-six.”

I stared at him for a second speechless, in shock not only at his words but the firm, knowing way he said them.

“I am,” I told him.

“You think that’ll turn me off, you tellin’ me you’re thirty-six?”

What did he mean by that?

“I am thirty-six!” I snapped somewhat loudly.

He scowled at me, his eyes moving over my face as he did it then he asked, “Seriously?”

“Yes!” I snapped again and then pushed at his chest to get away.

His arms got tighter. “Nina.”

I stopped pushing and glared at him. “Obviously, since my age is such a turn off, right about now I should be leaving.”

His arms got even tighter but his head tipped back, his eyes rolled up and he looked at the ceiling of the sauna.

“Grant me patience,” he muttered his prayer to the ceiling and I started pushing again so he looked back at me. “Stop pushin’, Duchess.”

“Let me go.”