Not Planning on You (Danvers #2)(67)
“You panicked,” Suzy said softly.
With tears running down her face, Reva said, “Yes, I did and thus started months of the most horrible behavior that anyone could ever fathom. Gray was a nice guy and I pursued him heavily even though I could tell that he really didn’t want to get involved with me. I think he only slept with me the one time out of pure pity. He’d probably never met a woman so desperate.” Looking over at Mark, Reva said, “I’m sorry honey, I know this is hard for you, too.”
“Yes, it is, love, but if I’d stood up to your parents, this probably wouldn’t have happened. Go ahead and finish your story and don’t worry about me.”
Reva kissed their hands where they were joined and turned back to Suzy. “Gray broke it off with me almost immediately and I took advantage of his guilt to literally stalk him for months. I was desperate to get him back. I don’t know why I didn’t just tell him I was pregnant after a few months, but something held me back. It would have probably been less painful for him than my constant stalking. In my defense, I think I really just lost it there for a while. When I finally couldn’t hide my pregnancy from my parents any longer, I told them that Gray was the father instead of the truth. Instead of looking upset, they both looked thrilled. I strung them along for a few months telling them that Gray was traveling a lot and that we would all get together when he was back home. Gray didn’t even know at that point.”
“My God Reva, you must have been about to collapse under the pressure.” Suzy gave a rueful laugh, “I can’t even be that pissed off at you when I know how much you have suffered.”
A smile lit Reva’s face as she looked at her in relief. “Suzy, it kills me that I’ve caused two such good people so much pain. When I met you for the first time in the bar that night, I could see how much you and Gray loved each other and I had probably my first attack of conscience. I had a feeling that Gray had another woman in his life, but I had no idea how serious it was. Gray stepped up after that and really tried to take care of me. He even suffered through dinner with my parents where they almost drooled with delight over me trapping such an eligible man. I still managed to go ahead with the deception. The night of my car accident was a turning point for me, though. Gray was by my side the entire time and then the next day I found out he’d missed your birthday. He was so sad after that. It took that for me to finally see all of the lives I was ruining.”
Suzy was wondering why it had taken her a month to come forward after that revelation, but held kept her silence, letting Reva finish without interruption.
“I’m not proud to say that I was still hesitant to do what I knew I had to. I’d never stood up to my parents before and the thought of doing it terrified me, but I knew that if I were ever going to be with Mark, that I couldn’t rely on him to fight my battles. Last night I told my parents the truth.” Then on the whisper, Reva admitted, “They don’t want to have anything else to do with me. I..I left there and went to Mark where I poured out the whole story. I’m going to start seeing a therapist because I know that a normal person would never have done all of the things I’ve done to Gray. I stalked him and tortured him because I was so terrified of what would happen when my parents found out about the baby. I was desperate for them to think it was Gray’s.”
“Holy crap, that’s a lot to take in. Reva, I’ll be frank and say you have put me through hell this last month and probably Gray, as well. Somehow, though, I think you have been kicked enough. It took a lot of guts to come here today and face me. How did you do that by the way?”
With a shy smile, Reva admitted, “Google Maps. Scary right?”
With a laugh, Suzy said, “You got that right. I’m sorry that your parents are being such bone heads, but it looks like Mark has your back.”
With a look of relief and gratitude, Reva reached out and took her hand. “Thank you Suzy for being so good about this. I can see why Gray loves you. I’m going to talk to him as soon as he gets home today.”
As Reva and Mark stood to leave, Suzy impulsively pulled her in for a quick hug. After a moment of hesitation, Reva returned the embrace. After she’d shut the door behind them, she fell down onto the couch and tried to process it all.
What if this made no difference? Had too much happened with Gray to start over now? Oh blah, find your backbone. That’s your man and it’s about time you stopped whining and went after him or do you need another disaster to realize how much you love him?
One fist pump in the air and Suzy had her game face on. She had a user conference tonight that she had to attend. It was the entertainment portion of the conference and consisted of drinks, dinner and live entertainment. She was going to pack a bag and when it was over, she was heading to Charleston and the man she loved. She was hitching up her big girl panties and going after what she wanted.
Chapter Twenty Six
Suzy found Beth going over the dinner menu with the caterers in the kitchen. “Is everything on schedule for tonight, sis? I don’t want any delays so let’s stay on top of things. Has the band arrived yet?”
Beth stopped to study her in surprise. This was the most animated she’d seen Suzy since her breakup with Gray. “Um, have you been drinking?”
“What? Of course not, why?”
“Well, you look kind of high or something. Are you feeling ok? Your face is all flushed, and your eyes are glassy.”