It Had to Be You (Chicago Stars #1)(31)

“Not necessarily. Besides, anybody with your IQ could probably educate herself, so what difference would it make?” She gazed at her sister with compassion and said softly, “It seems to me that making some friends and enjoying being a teenager is more important right now than jump-starting calculus.”

Molly’s protective shell clamped shut. “I have dozens of friends. Dozens of them. And I happen to enjoy mathematics. I would never subject myself to an inferior education just to go to school with some silly, adolescent boys, who, I’m certain, wouldn’t be nearly as mature as all my boyfriends in Connecticut.”

Phoebe had to hand it to her. She was willing to brazen it out right to the end.

Molly’s small lip curled. “You wouldn’t understand since you’re not gifted.”

“I hate to disillusion you, Mol, but my IQ isn’t anything to sniff at, either.”

“I don’t believe you.”

“Pull out your notepaper then. Let’s solve some integrals together.”

Molly swallowed hard. “I—I haven’t got that far yet.”

Phoebe concealed her relief. She hadn’t done that kind of math for years, and she didn’t remember a thing. “Don’t judge a book by its cover, Mol. For example, if people judged you only by appearances they might decide you were unfriendly and a little bit snobbish. Both of us know that’s not so, don’t we?” She wanted to make Molly think, not to antagonize her, and she tried to take some of the sting out of her words with a smile. It didn’t work.

“I’m not a snob! I’m a perfectly nice person with dozens of friends, and—” She gasped.

Phoebe followed the direction of her stricken gaze and saw Pooh pulling a bedraggled stuffed monkey from under Molly’s bed. She quickly disengaged the animal from the poodle’s mouth. “It’s all right. Pooh didn’t hurt your toy. See.”

Molly’s face was scarlet. “I don’t ever want that dog in my bedroom again! Never! And it’s not mine. I don’t play with toys. I don’t know how it got there. It’s stupid! Throw it away!”

Phoebe had always been a sucker for lost souls, and her sister’s rejection of the obviously well-loved stuffed monkey touched her in a way nothing else could have. At that moment, nothing could have made her send this confused, frightened young girl away.

She casually tossed the stuffed animal to the foot of the bed. “I’ve decided I’m not sending you back to Crayton. I’m going to keep you here in a public school for the fall semester.”

“What! You can’t do that!”

“I’m your guardian, and I certainly can.” Scooping up Pooh, she walked to the door. “We move into the condo next week. If school doesn’t work out, you can go back to Crayton for second semester.”

“Why are you doing this? Why are you being so hateful?”

She knew the child would never believe the truth, so she shrugged. “Misery loves company? I have to stay here. Why shouldn’t you?”

It wasn’t until she reached the bottom of the staircase that the full implications of what she’d done hit her. She was already buried under problems she didn’t know how to solve, and she had just added another one. When was she going to learn not to be so impulsive?

Trying to escape her troubled thoughts, she made her way to the French doors at the rear of the house and stepped outside. The night was quiet and fragrant with the scent of pine and roses. The floodlights on the back of the house illuminated the fringe of deeper woods at the edge of the yard, including the old maple tree that had been her refuge when she was a child. She found herself heading there. When she reached the tree, she saw that its bottom branches were too high to reach. Leaning back against the trunk, she stared toward the house.

Despite the peacefulness of the night, she couldn’t shake off her worries. She didn’t know anything about raising a teenager. How was she supposed to overcome Molly’s hostility? She slipped her fingertips into the pockets of her slacks. Her problems with her sister weren’t all that was bothering her. She missed Viktor and her friends. She felt like a freak when she walked in the door of the Stars complex. And she spent far too much time thinking about Dan Calebow. Why did he have to be so adamant in his refusal to let her rehire Ron?

She sighed. It was more than his attitude toward Ron that kept him in her thoughts. She was much too aware of him. Sometimes when he was nearby, she experienced an emotion that was very close to panic. Her heartbeat accelerated, her pulses quickened, and she had the unsettling sensation that her body was coming awake after a very long hibernation. It was a ridiculous notion. She knew too well that she was permanently damaged when it came to men.

Even though the night was warm, she removed her hands from her pockets and rubbed her arms against a sudden chill. Memories flooded her, and as the night sounds enveloped her, she could feel herself being drawn back to those early months in Paris.

When she’d arrived, she’d located a friend from Crayton and had moved into her tiny, third floor flat in Montparnasse, not far from the gaudy, bustling intersection where the Boulevard du Montparnasse meets the Boulevard Raspail. For weeks, she had seldom left her bed. Instead, she stared at the ceiling while she gradually convinced herself that she had somehow been responsible for her own rape. No one had forced her to dance with Craig. No one had forced her to laugh at his jokes and flirt with him. She had done everything she could to make him like her.