Heaven and Hell (Heaven and Hell #1)(137)
“Why?” I whispered.
She tipped her head to the side and I knew she was thinking.
Then she stated, “It is odd…” She trailed off then quickly went on, “You and I, we have discussed it. I sense your anxiety. And Maris’s, Hap’s, Sam’s… but, ma chérie, since our return yesterday, something has changed.”
I twisted my torso to her and leaned in. “What?”
She twisted to me and also leaned in. “You and Sam.”
I blinked. Then I repeated, “What?”
“She watches you both when you’re focused on each other. At first, I thought this was wistful, as it would be. Then the pain started to be more visible. I think watching your relationship blossom with Sam reminds her even more acutely of what she has lost.”
“That’s not good,” I muttered, not wanting to be the cause of even deeper pain for Luci.
“No it isn’t,” Celeste agreed. “But it’s more.”
Oh man!
“What?” I prompted, leaning deeper into her.
“Our flight, our travel from the airport, getting settled in her home she shared with her husband and also I noticed a time this morning… she retreats. But this morning, it was different. Kia, ma belle, it alarmed me.”
Shit!
“Why?”
She shook her head but answered, “Such despair. Not hidden. I do not think her being in the house she shared with Travis is a good thing. She was much livelier in Italy. She was, of course, hiding grief but now…” she trailed off again.
“Do you know if her father spoke to her?” I asked.
“She mentioned several times since you and Sam departed Italy that she’s had lunch or dinner with her mother and father. But she did not share much about it.”
Hmm.
I looked through my sunglasses directly into Celeste’s and asked quietly, “Do you have any ideas?”
Celeste nodded. “I think the time has come that the ones she loves stop dancing around this and confront her directly. You and I spoke briefly about your friend Missy and yes, I do agree with your assessment, it is much the same. However, it is also very different. Missy found something to turn her attention to, her fitness and her career. Luciana does not even have these types of anchors. Our Luci is drifting.”
Drifting.
Drifting.
That was what Maris said Sam was doing.
Travis Gordon was gone and the two people closest to him that he left behind were drifting.
Oh God.
“Kia?” Celeste called and I looked at her. “What are you thinking?”
I had a decision to make and I had very little time.
So I made it.
Celeste wasn’t going to blab what I said to anyone but Thomas who I instinctively knew would share it no further. Celeste was safe to share with and Celeste was worldly wise.
Celeste could help.
“I’m in love with Sam,” I blurted and watched her lips curve up.
“This is not news, ma chérie,” she told me.
It wasn’t?
Oh God.
Was I that obvious?
I felt my brows go up. “It isn’t?”
“If you’re trying to hide it then I must admit I am very surprised and therefore, I hate to tell you this, my darling Kia, you are failing at your endeavor.”
Great.
She smiled big at me and finished, “Spectacularly.”
Fabulous.
“Well, um… I don’t know if I’m actually trying to hide it so much as…” I hesitated, not knowing how to explain it then I decided to tell her just that. “I don’t know what to say, how to explain it. I’m in love with him and I know he cares a lot about me. He’s great. It’s great, what we have, but something is missing.”
“And what do you think is missing?”
“He’s keeping something from me.”
Even with her sunglasses on, she didn’t hide her surprise.
“You’re surprised,” I noted.
“Indeed,” she murmured. “That is not to say that I do not think Sampson Cooper is a man who has secrets. This is obvious, ma chérie. It is to say that I’m surprised that, like you have with him, he has not shared his with you.”
“I am too,” I muttered.
“This is causing problems,” she deduced.
“Not exactly,” I replied. “Like I said, things are great, he’s great and I’m in love with him. I told you what was happening with me and he sorted that. It’s all done. It’s all good. Except it’s, well… not.”
She reached out a hand and curled her fingers around my forearm, whispering, “Patience, my Kia.”
“But –” I started, she shook her head so I stopped.
“Always,” she whispered then leaned in even further, “always, when you earn the secrets of someone worth knowing that deeply, you will feel rewarded when he eventually offers you these treasures. So, my darling, patience. You will earn them, I have no fear. He will give them to you and when he does, they will feel like the gift they are.”
Right. That was good advice.
I was on the right track.
I just needed to be patient.
I nodded.
Celeste squeezed my arm, let me go and leaned back, continuing with her advice, “Just keep doing what you’re doing. I will say that it is obvious that you are in love with him and, my Kia, it is equally obvious that he is the same with you.”