Fear the Darkness (Guardians of Eternity #9)(93)

His angel.

The mating bond pulsed through him, as potent and intoxicating as any drug he’d created in his former life.

“Why aren’t you here?” he questioned, patting the mattress in invitation.

She blinked, as always taking his words quite literally. “I was going to take a shower while you slept.”

“Can it wait?”

She smiled, and Caine felt as if the sun had settled in his heart. Then, with a natural grace, she was moving across the polished floor to perch on the mattress next to him.

He lowered his head to brush his lips over her cheek, his muscles tensing as he caught an unmistakable scent clinging to her skin. A low growl trickled from his throat. “Why do you smell of another man?”

She pulled back with a startled laugh. “After everything we’ve been through your first thought is that you can smell another man?”

He nipped the tip of her ear. “You’re mine.”

“Yeah, I was there when it happened,” she said, her voice husky.

His annoyance was abruptly replaced by a jagged burst of guilt. What should have been the most beautiful moment in Cassie’s life had instead been a stark necessity performed in the cramped cell of a vampire’s lair. And, oh yeah, he’d been crazed out of his freaking mind.

He brushed an unsteady finger over her cheek in a soft caress. “Cassie, I—”

“No,” she snapped.

He arched a brow at her uncharacteristic outburst. “No?”

She stabbed her finger to the center of his chest. “You’re about to make a big production out of your lack of control despite the fact you were under the influence of magic.”

Lack of control? He’d become a monster. And if Cassie hadn’t managed to stop him, he would have killed her.

“It wasn’t a spell that made me attack you,” he said gruffly, his voice thick with self-disgust.

“You’re right.” Her expression was grim. “It was entirely my fault. I led you directly into a trap.”

He shook his head. “Cassie.”

“You can’t use your guilt to alter the truth.” She gave him another poke. “I have put you into danger over and over and even when I knew you were going to be hurt I allowed you to remain with me. I put my dependence on you above your own life.”

He grasped her finger and lifted it to his lips, nibbling at the tip. “I don’t remember giving you a choice.”

Her eyes darkened with an aching remorse. “The choice has always been mine, but I was so selfish I was willing to risk your life just so I could have you with me.” Caine felt her violent shudder. “Gods, I came so close to losing you.”

With one motion, Caine tugged his mate into his lap and wrapped his arms around her trembling body. “Shh.” He buried his face in the fragrant silk of her hair. “I’m not so easy to get rid of.”

She snuggled into his chest, but she wasn’t done with her self-flagellation. “And then I forced a mating on you when you were in no condition to make such a decision.”

“Forced?” Had she lost her mind? With a frown he wrapped his hand around her throat, then pressed his thumb to the underside of her chin, tilting back her head to study her pale face. “Why would you even suggest something so idiotic? A mating can’t be forced.”

She met his outraged glare without flinching. “You were in no state of mind to decide whether or not you wanted to complete the bond, but I didn’t know any other way to give Salvatore the connection to reach you.” She gave a small squeak as he abruptly tossed her to the center of the mattress, using his larger body to pin her in place. “Caine.”

He ruthlessly arranged her slender body beneath him, settling between her legs and propping himself on his elbows to gaze down at her startled expression. “Let’s get two things straight,” he growled.

She remained silent a long minute, no doubt trying to decide whether she wanted to hear what he had to say or punch him in the nose for behaving like a caveman.

At last, curiosity won out. “What?”

“I was born to become your mate.” He placed a hand over her mouth when she would have protested. “Just listen.”

She rolled her eyes, waiting for him to remove his hand before muttering her opinion of males and their deficient DNA. But thankfully she made no effort to escape. “Fine, I’m listening,” she at last conceded.

“My destiny has always been to protect you. Always.” He caught and held her gaze, laying bare his heart without hesitation. “And if you ever try to take that away it will destroy me.” He heard her breath catch at his blunt honesty, a startled tenderness flowing through their mating bond.

But, lifting a hand to brush his hair from his forehead, she managed a faux chiding expression. “Okay, but if I’m not allowed to feel guilty, then neither are you.”

“Touché,” he muttered dryly, well aware that he’d been outmaneuvered.

He’d intended to spend hours, if not days, wallowing in his self-reproach. Instead, his mate had cleverly snatched the rug from beneath his feet.

Clever, dangerous wolf.

He leaned down to nuzzle the curve of her neck, a smile touching his lips as she shivered in ready response.

“You said there were two things,” she said in a breathy voice.