Avoiding Commitment (Avoiding #1)(46)

Lexi hated admitting all of that stuff, but the girl had asked for the truth. She might as well be frank with her. Some people were good at sports. Some people were good at school. Some people were good at working. While some people were good at commitment, Jack was good at avoiding commitment. Honestly, Jack had always best at lying.

"So, you're saying that you guys have spoken or...done more than speak since we've been together?" Bekah asked suddenly, getting choked up at the thought.

"Uh...no," Lexi said awkwardly. She hadn't really meant to imply that. "I honestly haven't spoken with Jack since he left New York. Well, up until he called me about you."

"Well then, what kind of point were you making?" Bekah asked angrily.

Lexi shook her head a couple times, and then pushed her hair behind her ears before continuing. "I wasn't making a point about your relationship. You wanted to know about the type of relationship I had with Jack. So, I was telling you. It was one filled with lies."

"Lies?" Bekah's blue eyes were glittering with wonder. Lexi was pretty certain that her interviews with Danielle and Kate had been exceedingly dull compared to the dirt Lexi was sending her way. Then again, Danielle and Kate had had perfectly normal...ish...relationships with Jack. They had flirted, dated, and broken up like normal couples. They had had normal emotional responses to situations, and had gone through relatively normal cycles of development. Nothing about Jack and Lexi had ever been normal.

"He lied to me about Danielle. Then, swore he would never lie to me again. And to this day, I don't think he ever has," Lexi said wistfully.

"But I thought you said your relationship was full of lies."

This time Lexi did look Bekah directly into her naively, innocent eyes to answer her, "It was. We just lied to everyone else."

Lexi was pretty sure that after that last statement, she would never meet the personable Bekah again. The two stared stonily at each other for a few moments before breaking eye contact and uneasily sipping on their beverages.

Finally, Bekah broke the silence. "So what happened next?"

"Uh…when?" Lexi asked surprised that the girl was even still talking to her.

"After he lied to you about Danielle."

"I refused to talk to him again for some time. But after he broke up with Danielle, he came looking for me hoping that I would forgive him. And I didn't at first."

Bekah nodded. "He'd lied to you. That must have been hard. He's never done that to me."

Lexi blushed not really wanting to correct the girl. She had been in town less than a day and already Jack had lied to Bekah because of her. Wow, things weren't that different. "Well…yeah. It's just this time around I had a boyfriend. When I told Jack about him, he didn't care. He pretty much persuaded me to come to his house and seduced me." Lexi heard the faint gasp that escaped Bekah's mouth, but she continued on. "I broke up with my boyfriend shortly after that. Mostly out of guilt."

"But you said you and Jack weren't together?" Bekah asked her stony gaze still not wavering. Lexi could tell she was getting more and more reserved and withdrawn. She wasn't sure how much she should actually reveal to this girl, and Bekah looked to be having the same idea.

"No. We weren't. I just couldn't talk to him after that. I had really strong feelings for Jack, and they scared me. Made me do things that I normally wouldn't. Made me act in ways that I…couldn't control." Lexi glanced up at Bekah to see her nodding along.

"I know what you mean," Bekah whispered.

Lexi hardly believed her. Bekah was another Danielle…another Kate. Everything they had was normal and expected. There was no way that she could have even a semblance of understanding as to what she had gone through. "The lying really got to me. I was terrible at it. Jack wasn't." Lexi knew she was reminding her about the lying just to be cruel. She wanted Bekah to ask Jack questions about it. She wanted to make her uncomfortable. She just couldn't stand the idea of sharing a feeling with this girl. It just felt wrong. Left her idea of Jack tainted and she wouldn't stand for it. "He didn't understand why I wasn't okay with lying to my boyfriend, when he thought we were so perfect for each other. When he thought that there would never be another girl as amazing as me," Lexi added spitefully.

Bekah's blue eyes met Lexi's, and the understanding that had been there only seconds before was replaced by the deep loathing Lexi had seen the last time lying had been brought up.

"Well if isn't my two favorite girls," Jack said coming up to them seemingly out of nowhere. He could tell that in his absence things hadn't exactly gone over so well. Bekah looked more pissed than he had ever seen her. Actually, this might be the first time he had ever really seen Bekah angry. He knew Lexi had a strange effect on people, but he hadn't considered what kind of toll that would take on Bekah. Lexi looked like she would rather be anywhere else right then. The tension in the atmosphere could be cut with a dull butter knife. He wasn't sure what he had just walked into, but it couldn't be good.

Bekah glared up at him as the last words left his tongue. Lexi just smiled weakly not entirely sure how to take that statement.

"Uh…I brought your suitcase," he told Lexi off-hand, attempting to make conversation. "I thought we could just go to Bekah's before the party tonight, and you could change there. Her place is just right around the corner."