Wanting Winter(67)

“I don’t think so. It would be like kissing my brother if I had a brother.” She shivers. “Anyway, what is the plan for the talent show?”

“We’ll go last, I think. I want the others to do their bit and then we go on.”

“But if we go last people may lose interest by then.”

“We are good, Karen, and once we start playing, we are going to rock the whole thing. I wouldn’t do this if I didn’t think it was okay.” She nods, trusting my judgment. I have been put in charge of the whole talent show. I mean, I have to oversee everyone’s talents and make sure it’s all top notch and then take care of all preparations and make sure the equipment is all in order.

We are dismissed from class and when I get to the door, I accidentally bang into someone in front of me and notice it’s none other than Colin Baxter. He turns around and grabs my upper arm, and I can’t explain it, but my whole body shivers at the contact. His light green eyes go to his hand and I swear I feel his thumb rub against my skin.

“Are you okay?” he asks me, his voice vibrating through my entire body. I pull my arm away and shrug.

“I’m good.” I walk around him and head down the hallway.

“What was that?” Karen asks as she runs to my side.

“What was what?” I ask.

“You two staring at his hand on your arm. I swear that boy likes you.” We both turn around and see Colin and Aaron talking not that far behind us and, like he knows I’m looking at him, his eyes connect with mine and something I didn’t expect shines from them.

Heat.

I quickly look away, staring directly in front of me. “You’re crazy.” I laugh it off then bite my lip as I wonder if what I just saw was real. I take my seat in my next class with Karen next to me and I grab my notebook and pen and once again starting to jot down some lyrics that have started running through my head.

Your eyes burn into mine.

The heat that soon spreads inside.

Trust me, that part of me is hard to find.

This is something I never felt or knew.

It had to be you that makes me want this.

A guy who looks at me once.

Daring me to give him one teasing kiss.

But I know it will never be.

As he will never truly want me.





I sigh as I look at the paper. I’ll admit, I did have a crush on Colin when I was younger but as we got older, the cliques of this school separated us into two groups. The popular and the unpopular and I am okay with that. You don’t always get with your crush and I’ve moved on from it.

At least I thought I did.

I’m looking back over the words I just wrote, trying to hum a tune for the lyrics when Nicole and her best friend Sissy sits down in front of us giggling and looking to the back of the room. I saw Nicole and Colin leaving before the last class started and it doesn’t take a genius to know what the two of them were doing.

“So, you fucked him?” Sissy asks. Sissy, just like Nicole, has blonde hair, blue eyes, big boobs, and long legs. Just two of the Goddesses who walk the halls.

“Yeah, and fucking hell Sissy, that boy can fuck. I swear my vagina felt so full of his cock that I have no idea how he got the whole thing in.” Sissy giggles and I roll my eyes.

“He’s that big?” Nicole nods.

“My toes curled when I got off and, trust me, I saw stars. Best fuck ever.” She annunciates each word, making sure they are clearly heard.

“Wow, you lucky bitch.”

“I know.”

“Okay, I know the two bimbo-queens just said he fucked bimbo queen number one but I still go by what I said,” Karen whispers in my ear.

“So, you think Colin is crushing on me but fucking other girls?” I can’t help but smile at her; it makes no sense.

“Men are weird. The only time they aren’t going to fuck another girl is when they are in a relationship, but I guess some still fuck other girls when they do have a girlfriend but those guys are just assholes.”

“And you are saying Colin isn’t one?”

“Maybe,” she says, lost in thought.

“Yeah, I’m convinced now that you explained it all to me. Colin and I are going to fall madly in love and live happily ever after now that you convinced me he likes me even though he fucks around.”

“Do you know how many times we’ve said fuck in the last five minutes?”

“Probably a lot.” I lean back in my seat.

“We do like saying it.”

“Or maybe it’s our self-conscious telling us we need to get fucked.”

“Probably.” We both laugh. “We need to lose our V-cards before college or I swear I will feel like a total loser.”

“You saying you don’t feel like one already?” She nudges my shoulder with hers.

“Ha, ha, ha. Just because we are classified as nerds doesn’t make us ones. I think we’re hot, just not in an obvious way. We need to expand our horizons and fuck someone and soon,” Karen says, completely serious.

“What about…”

“If you say Phillip, I will hurt you,” she interrupts me and I pretend to zip my lips and throw away the key. “They say the first time is always shit so I may just find someone with no strings attached. Like…” She looks around the room. “Aaron.” My mouth hangs open.