The Loneliest Girl in the Universe(4)
I know this is a huge change, and it might take time for you to come to terms with the news. I hope eventually you will be as excited about The Eternity as we are. Take today to process the idea, and tomorrow I’ll send some exercises that will help you to work through your feelings in more detail. I want to make sure that you don’t let this affect the excellent emotional progress you’ve been making recently.
What? What?
A new what?
A second ship is coming. Fast. I’m not—
I’m not going to be alone any more? I’m going to have someone?
There’s another ship coming in a year! I only need to wait twelve months.
I break out into giggles, leaning back in my seat and smiling at the ceiling. I’m not going to be on my own any more.
And the ships will reach Earth II much more quickly! I’ve gained back years of my life – time that I thought was lost in transit. I’ll only be – I count it out on my fingers – twenty … well, nearly twenty-one when we arrive on Earth II. I was supposed to be in my forties!
I can’t believe it. I actually check to make sure I’m awake, because I’m sure I’ve had this dream before.
Another ship. It’s the best news I could ever have imagined.
Who are they going to send? Who’s coming?
I stare out of the helm window, straining my eyes against the infinite blackness, pressing my fingernails into my palms so hard they sting. I can’t see anything except the silver pinprick stars.
How long until I’ll be able to see The Eternity?
How long until it will be able to see me?
DAYS UNTIL THE ETERNITY ARRIVES:
365
The next day, when I listen to Molly’s latest message, I brace myself for news that The Eternity has crashed, or that it was all a joke and there’s not another ship at all; that it was some kind of test to see how I’d respond mentally.
I can’t quite make myself believe it. Another ship. After all this time!
From: NASA Earth Sent: 22/06/2065
To: The Infinity Received: 25/02/2067
Attachment: The-Eternity-Mission-Outline.pdf [1.3 GB]
Audio transcript: Hi Romy. I really hope you’re happy to hear about The Eternity, sweetie. The scientists here at NASA have been working tirelessly to ensure it’s a successful mission, and to get the ship launched as fast as possible.
I think that knowing you aren’t so isolated will help you to manage your anxiety. I know it’s a lot to take in right now, so I’d like you to write a list of emotions that you felt when you heard the news. Everything you are going through is completely valid: anger, joy, fear – it’s all normal and reasonable. If you want, send back a voice message telling me how you’re feeling.
I’ve attached a full document with details of the mission and The Eternity’s timeline, so when you’re ready, you can read up on everything about it.
I can’t stop smiling long enough to eat my breakfast – a packet of beige goo that supposedly resembles porridge.
Will they send another couple like my parents? Or have they decided to send someone alone, since that went so disastrously wrong last time? They probably can’t risk another pregnancy. One person is safer.
I let myself get caught up imagining they’re sending me a handsome young man, but that seems too fantastical. Whoever it is, at least I won’t be on my own any more. I’m not going to be on my own ever again!
I’m going to have to share my space with someone else. That’s going to be so strange. What if I hate it?
I feel restless, thoughts jumping back and forth until I can scarcely focus on anything but the new ship.
As a distraction, I decide to write a fic.
I know Molly wants me to write my bad feelings down properly in a diary, rather than writing fiction, but that would be too real. I’d rather escape into the world of Loch & Ness, where there’s Jayden Ness – my favourite person, even if he’s only fictional. There’s kissing in fics too. Lots of kissing, in every Alternative Universe.
I always send my fics to Earth, but I don’t think anyone reads them except Molly. Back when The Infinity was new, before I was born, there was a lot of excitement and curiosity about the launch of such a long-duration mission. Dad used to say that he and my mother were treated like celebrities, but it’s been so long since we launched, everyone must have lost interest by now.
DAMSEL IN DISTRESS
by TheLoneliestGirl
Fandom: Loch & Ness (2042)
Relationship: Lyra Loch/Jayden Ness
Tags: Modern-day AU
Summary: Jayden is Lyra’s knight in shining armour.
Author’s note:
I had a bit of a catastrophe recently. An asteroid nearly hit the ship, but I managed to stop it at the last second. It was … stressful.
Anyway, here’s what could have happened, instead of me trying to fix the problem on my own. Where’s my handsome rescuer, please?
Lyra was texting when she first became aware of the shouting. She looked up to see a car swerving across the street, slipping on the wet tarmac. It was heading straight towards where she was walking.
She froze in her tracks, knowing she should dive out of the way, but unable to make her muscles react. The car was getting closer.