Pucked Off (Pucked #5)(96)

“Sure. Yeah. Thanks.”

She rounds the table, takes the used sheets out of my hands, and grabs a fresh set. “Just call him.”

“I’m not ready.” It’s been eleven days. Lance hasn’t so much as texted me. As I asked. I should be happy about this.

I’m not.

The silence is painful, even though it was requested.

I’ve kept myself occupied by spending time with April, going to yoga, having tea with Mr. Goldberg; I even went to see my parents last weekend. It amazes me that in such a short span of time, one person could have filled so much of my life that even the busy-ness doesn’t take away the ache of his absence.

“You’re not ready, or you’re too scared?” April prods.

“I don’t know. Both maybe.”

“Do you know what you want yet?”

I absolutely do. I want him. I want him to want me as his girlfriend. I want to have more sleepovers. I want to find him naked in my kitchen, rummaging around in my cupboards for gummy bears. More than that, I want him to let me into the rest of his life. I want to be invited to games, to meet his friends, to see him as a whole, and not just a series of puzzle pieces I can’t fit together because so many are missing.

But I’m terrified of how that plays out for me. I think I can deal with the media exposure; I even think I can handle a bitch ex-girlfriend. And I’m not afraid to love someone who’s been broken. But that’s the extent of what I can control. I worry about being separated from the rest of his life, and that he’s keeping me away for a reason.

“I don’t know,” is the answer I give April, though.

She throws up her hands. “Why can’t you admit that you’re into this guy and call?”

“He hasn’t contacted me in almost two weeks.”

“Because you asked him not to.”

Now it’s my turn with the hand gestures. “Why are boys so complicated?”

“Because they have penises. Or peni. What is the plural of penis?” She’s trying to be funny, and most of the time it would work.

“You’re not helping.”

“Why don’t we go out tonight?” she suggests. “It’s Saturday! We’ll get dressed up and go dancing. You can cut loose and have one drink. I’ll have six or seven. We can flirt with dumb boys.”

“There’s a game on.”

This gets me another look. “It’ll be over by ten unless they go into overtime. Neither of us works tomorrow. You need something to take your mind off your boy problems, not feed into them.”

“And you think being rubbed on by random strangers is the answer to that?”

“It’s far better than waiting for a phone call you asked not to receive.”

She’s right, even though I hate to admit it. I still have that stupid picture on my phone. I know I need to delete the evidence, but I can’t bring myself to do it. And like an idiot I’ve checked that Natasha girl’s profile.

She’s been posting old pictures of her and Lance—not just the two of them, but her with the whole team, or shots of them all working out. It’s another reminder that I’m only on the fringe of his world, and makes me wonder all over again how much I can trust him, whether what he shows me about himself is real.

“I’ll think about it.” I tuck the sheets in and throw the heating pad on. My next client gets cold.

A brief knock is followed by Bernadette’s disembodied head appearing around the doorjamb. She rarely leaves the comfort of her desk, so it must be important.

“What’s up?” I ask nervously.

“Um…there are two women here to see you.”

“About treatment?”

“Uh, no. They said they’re friends of Lance.”

April and I exchange a look.

“Oh. Ah, I guess I’ll be right out?” It’s more question than answer.

“They’re right here. They were quite insistent,” she whispers.

“Oh.” My stomach flips. If it’s a couple of Lance’s former conquests, I might throw up for real—hopefully directly on them.

“Do you want me to stay?” April asks.

“Please. Yes.”

Bernadette opens the door, and two women appear. Two gorgeous women. I try not to imagine them naked. Or Lance naked with them. One has short dark hair, almost black, cut in a bob. She’s tiny and lean, with stunning almond-shaped eyes. The other one is a little taller, with long, wavy auburn hair, huge boobs, and a narrow little waist. I can’t tell if they’re real or fake—her boobs.

They both smile and look from me to April and back again.

“You must be Poppy,” Boobs says to me. Then she turns to her friend. “Oh my God! She is so cute! Can you even imagine how adorable their little ginger babies would be?”

April cough-chokes.

“Ohh...” Boobs makes a face. “Is that politically correct? Can a non-ginger use the word ginger when referencing another ginger? Is that offensive?” She looks to me for some kind of response. “I mean, my hair is auburn, so I guess it’s kind of reddish, but I don’t know if it’s red enough to qualify me for the use of the word ginger.”

I’m so confused right now.

“Violet, tone down your crazy a notch,” says the other one. She gives me a sympathetic smile. “I’m sorry. I’d like to tell you she’s not always like this, but that would be a complete lie. I’m Lily, and this is Violet. We’re friends of Lance.”