Mouthful of Birds(49)
“Perhaps he loses his memory intermittently,” says Corrales as he shines the bright beam of a small flashlight into the center of a restless pupil.
“Are you feeling well, Benavides?”
Benavides screams, “I killed my wife, of my own volition and by myself!” and without taking his eyes from the men, he clutches the sweaty sheets.
Corrales makes an admonishing gesture, and his eyes meet Donorio’s. Both men’s thoughts hold unfocused doubts and the beginnings of disillusionment.
* * *
The finished installation galvanizes the media to announce the event. People form expectations and clamor for advance tickets. The air grows polluted with an anxious public’s murmurings and rises to the ears of Benavides, who—for the fifth day in a row—wakes up in this house. What is a man like him doing in this room, so far from his home and his wife? Can a doctor like Corrales enter with a formal suit folded over his right arm and a set of clean underwear in his left, and say, “The socks will be a bit baggy, but the suit is just right for a man like you”? Corrales sits at the foot of the bed and gives the patient’s legs a few pats, perhaps out of an affection that developed a while ago but of which Benavides has no memory, and finally he smiles and says things like “How well you’re looking, Benavides,” or “How I envy you, Benavides, an artist like yourself, on a day like today, with an eager public and the press on fire,” or “Don’t be nervous, there’s every indication the opening will be a success.” But Benavides is not happy: a night watchman, perhaps even Donorio himself, is monitoring the entrance to the garage, where his wife is waiting. It’s an inaccessible zone for a body as prone to being beaten as his, and it’s lit up, even in the shadows of night, with two potent spotlights at either side of the door, and, above them, bright signs that shamelessly pay homage to this kidnapping. It’s gotten to the point that Benavides cannot distinguish evil intentions from good ones, or evaluate his doctor’s postures with any certainty. He watches Corrales stretch the socks, and he sinks into a sudden unease.
Some hours later, doctor and patient study their suited-up bodies before the mirror.
“You see that it’s your size, Benavides?”
Benavides stands motionless while Corrales adjusts his tie for him.
“Perfect.” He points to their bodies in the mirror. “Just wait till the girls see you like this.”
After some respectful knocks at the door they hear the voice of one of the women:
“Mr. Donorio sent me to tell you that everything is ready, but if the artist needs, he can wait.”
“Not at all, let him know we’ll be right down.”
The room is large, but small compared with the crowd that has gathered. Many people didn’t get in and are waiting in the front yard, peering through the living room windows or standing in line at the door guarded by the men in blue. Inside, with the work still hidden behind a red velvet curtain, the public’s fervor grows.
Donorio takes the microphone.
“Ladies, gentlemen . . .”
The audience listens to the speaker.
“Today is a very special day, for me and for all of you . . .”
A few timid comments float up from the crowd and are lost in the thickness of a growing silence.
“Art is memorious, dear audience, and from the least likely molecules of this, our society, true artists majestically emerge. Ladies, gentlemen, scholars, I wish to introduce you to a dreamer, a friend, but above all else an artist on whom the world cannot turn its back . . . Benavides, if you would . . .”
Amid the crowd’s thundering applause, pushed forward by Corrales, Benavides makes his way toward Donorio, who has accompanied his words with a gesture of welcome. When the artist ascends to the stage and discovers the audience, the audience discovers in him the candid, humble features of pure and sincere creation. An excited ovation grows. It calms, or pauses briefly, when Donorio returns to the microphone. The monologue continues, but the audience does not take their eyes from the artist, who studies the ceiling and the walls. One hundred pairs of eyes expectantly follow the creative movement of the artist, so removed from their gazes and their praise.
“. . . something of the past remains in our collective memory, in the brilliant minds of our artists. Horror, hatred, death, all throb intensely in their persecuted minds . . .”
The artist discovers the large red velvet curtain to one side of the stage, behind which, one presumes, the work awaits. But what is it that so disturbs the artist? Why, in his simple, genius face, do pale glimmers of fear suddenly emerge?
“Gentlemen, ladies, what you are about to see goes beyond the superfluous emotions of common art. The work, this work, is the answer. Benavides, we’re listening,” says Donorio, and finally he leaves the microphone and cedes his place to the artist.
The audience waits. A man in blue runs to the microphone and lowers it to Benavides’s height. Benavides looks at the microphone like someone studying the weight of a crime, its punishment. He takes three steps forward. It seems he is going to speak.
Donorio looks for the complicit gaze of Corrales, who keeps his eyes on the artist, proud, as though looking at a child who has finally become a man. Benavides turns toward the curtain, and then back toward the audience. There is a thrilling silence. Then Benavides takes the microphone and says: