Head On (Strength And Love)(15)
And at that I break away. I’m not gentle. My whole current career is built around me absolutely not being gentle. She needs some sweet young kid. Someone near her own age. Even though the thought of anyone else getting their hands on her makes me want to do violence, I know it’s what’s right for her.
She’s panting as she stares up at me. She moves forward and I see in her eyes she’s coming back for more. I muster every single bit of willpower I possess and step to the side.
“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done that.”
“Why not? I enjoyed it.” Her mouth is swollen and shiny and I want to nibble on her full bottom lip.
“We’re a million miles apart in what we want and need.” I put my hands on her hips and move her to one side.
“Oh. I see. You prefer those older women you shag for money.”
Her words shock me. Every time I see that flash of fire in her I like it. But I stomp that down, too, and sneer at her. “You got it in one. I don’t have time to teach a virgin the ropes. I do have a friend who specialises in that sort of thing, though. I can give you his number?”
I hate myself. Fucking hate myself. Her face drops in disappointment. She’s no longer looking at me as if I’m someone she wants to jump in the sack with. Instead she’s looking at me with disdain. I expected hurt, maybe tears, but this is worse. Because this makes me feel like shit on her shoe.
“You are a disgusting pig of a man.” She pokes me in the chest, turns, and marches defiantly down the corridor. When she gets to the end, near the kitchen, she turns around. “I’ll take your friend’s number later. I’ve been deciding for a while this whole virginity thing is a burden I want rid of. He’s bound to be better at it than you are. You suck.”
What the fuck? I hope she’s only saying she’ll take Nate’s number out of some need to rile me. It’s irrelevant anyway because I’m not fucking giving it her. He’ll ruin her, and only I get to do that.
I stalk out of the room and upstairs, heading for the en-suite in my bedroom. I stink and want to wash the sweat off. I also want to wash the scent of roses from me. Otherwise I’m going to be spending the whole day as hard as nails.
I shove the door to the shower stall shut with an angry thwump, and turn the water to hot. I let the water warm up before standing under the scalding jets letting them pummel my tight and aching muscles. My traps are screaming from my workout and the heat soon loosens them up.
After a few minutes, I turn the heat down to lukewarm and soap up, using the stupidly expensive Aqua di Parma shower gel I bought. One thing I found out about women, they like you to smell nice. Most of my clients don’t give a shit what I wear when I go around to their houses, which is good as I’m no fashion victim. But smelling good, that matters. As do other things like short, groomed nails, and moisturised skin. I can’t believe how many guys in my age group do fuck-all about stuff like that. They expect their women to primp and preen, and wear half of Harrods’ beauty counter, but the lazy fuckers can’t even be bothered to go get a regular wax. They walk around the place with their beer guts, and their hairy toes and arses, and then I get to screw their wives for a lot of money.
As I reach for my cock, it stirs at the thought of Isla and I resent her for it. She’s stirred me up in ways I didn’t think were possible anymore. One kiss from her got me more turned on than the filthiest shit I’ve done with any client in the last year. I want her. Badly.
I’ll take the next best thing. I close my eyes as I wrap my hand around my throbbing cock and stroke up. I sigh and let my head fall back. It feels good, and I let myself imagine it’s her small hands on me. Her feeling her first dick. Learning how to touch a guy and what a man likes. I wonder if she’s seen a guy come before? Just because she’s a virgin doesn’t mean she hasn’t done other stuff. Has she sucked a guy before?
Christ, the thought of those pouty lips wrapped around me makes my dick jump in my hand. I take a firm hold of myself and stop messing around. With my head back and my eyes shut, I pump myself hard and fast.
It only takes a few moments before I’m blowing my load all over the tiles opposite me. I sag against the wall, and give a couple of last pulls, getting the last of it out of me. Wringing every last drop of pleasure from my dick.
I want to fuck her. I want to be in her bad, I feel like a drug addict jonesing for his next fix. I’ve known her mere hours and somehow, she’s already wormed her way under my skin.
Someone wants to hurt her. In the worst way possible. To try and get to her daddy is my guess. He might be a good father, but he’s no angel in his business dealings, or his personal life. He’s crossed a fair few people, and ruined one. It’s that lead I’m going to follow first, and I’m also going to consider his business partner. Tonight, I need to see Luka. I’ve arranged to meet him in Josephine’s Bar. It’s somewhere we sometimes meet for a drink. A few of my clients go there, and I like to network a bit there. Luka likes to pick up women to screw, so despite him not liking crowds in general, he’ll sometimes brave the place mid week.
Luka has two ways of dealing with his issues—running until he can’t think about them, or screwing them away. He used to drink, but he’s stopped that now and sees a shrink, but he still gets fucked up now and again.
He’ll be a good person to get to investigate Rick Smythe, the guy Isla’s dad fucked over. Luka can make himself invisible, which with his looks is a truly weird talent. But he pulls a ball cap down low, kind of shuffles along, hunches up a little, and he’s gone from movie star handsome to nobody. My plan is to get him into Rick’s office as a delivery guy and see if he can snoop about a bit. Maybe even lift Rick’s phone. Luka’s other talent is being a light-fingered fucker. He once took fifty quid out of my back pocket and I had no idea until I tried to pay for my cab home. Shithead thought it hilarious. He gave me it back the next day, but I’d nearly ended up in a fight with the cabbie.