Beyond Control(52)

"I know," she said as she slipped out the door.

It was what she was afraid of.





Bren



She was trying to be sneaky, but she was watching the show.

The door behind the unofficial VIP section led to the back staircase, and stood mostly in shadows. Bren doubted anyone else had noticed her there, braced against the jamb with the fingers of one hand on the doorknob, as if she needed her escape route ready to go.

Out on the stage, beneath the garish lights, Ace was flogging a woman. He had her bent over a low table, completely naked and tied so that all he had to do was turn his wrist to flick the leather tails against her exposed *.

And Six was watching every quick slap.

Bren studied her profile in the low light. "Do you like the idea?"

She started at his voice and jerked her gaze from the stage, as if she'd gotten caught doing something far more incriminating than watching. "What idea? Getting whipped?"

"That," he agreed easily, "or being on the stage. Not all the shows involve pain."

She folded her arms across her chest, under her breasts. Defensive and wary, and he knew the answer before she spoke. "No, not really. I've never liked being the entertainment."

He stopped beside the curtain and listened to the woman onstage moan and plead. "Is that what you see out there?"

"Maybe. I don't know." She shivered and glanced at him, her expression torn by honest confusion. "Is she acting?"

"Nope." He vaguely recognized the woman as one of Ace's regulars. "She likes it like this. Sometimes he stops when she's ready to f*ck, and other times he keeps on whipping her."

"Oh." She seemed flustered, maybe more so when she realized how close she'd drifted to him. No matter how many careful feet he put between them, Six always seemed to cover the distance in a dozen shifts of position or tiny shuffling steps, and she never really relaxed until they stood shoulder to shoulder.

So shy--not about sex, necessarily, but pleasure. Bren held her gaze but tilted his head. "Tell me what you see when you look at that."

She hesitated. "You're not gonna like it."

"Probably not." But he couldn't counter it with his own point of view if she never said it.

Wetting her lips, she glanced at the stage again, just in time to watch Ace drive a choked plea from his lover's lips with a skillful application of leather. Six flinched at the woman's throaty cries and looked away. "A man whipping a woman. And a bunch of other men getting off on it."

"Abso-f*cking-lutely. What else?"

Her expression tightened. "That's it. I didn't even see that she liked the pain. You told me that."

"What if I told you that was part of the fantasy for her? Being watched?"

She didn't say anything at first. She took his words and digested them, then turned back to the stage and studied it again, a tiny furrow of concentration appearing between her brows. "So she's using the men to get her fantasy?"

So careful, too, those little leaps in logic. "In a way. She isn't making the best of being on the stage, Six. It's what she wants."

"I don't think I could want that," she admitted after a moment, and there was apology in the glance she threw him. "The people watching, I mean. That was always the part I hated most."

A tiny slip, the kind of glimpse into her former life that made him want to dig up Wilson Trent and kill him some more. Instead, he smiled. "No shows for you, then."

Her slight exhale of relief sounded almost sad. But her gaze swung back to the stage with renewed curiosity, as if the words had freed her from a sense of foreboding. "The pain... Does it feel good because she always likes it, or because Ace is doing something special?"

"To hear Ace tell it, everything he does is special." Bren leaned closer. "Have you ever had an itch, one of those crazy ones that you can't stop thinking about? On your back or your arm, wherever, but all you could f*cking think about was scratching it?"

Still watching the stage, she nodded.

"That's just pain. You scratch your skin and it confuses all the nerves, scrambles them so they can't feel the itch anymore."

"I didn't know that." She shivered, tickling where her arm brushed his, and changed the subject so abruptly he wasn't sure he'd heard her right at first. "You can f*ck me if you want to."

Bren blinked at her. Instead of an invitation, it felt more like paying the executioner before laying your head on his chopping block. "Don't take this the wrong way, but if you really wanted to f*ck me, you wouldn't need to tell me it was okay."

She winced and looked away. "I don't know if I want to f*ck," she admitted after an awkward moment. "But I don't mind it. And the f*cking comes with other stuff here. Everyone's always touching."

Comfort. Connection. "If that's what you want, ask for that. I'll give it to you."

It took her two deep breaths and a wary glance at him to form the words, and they came in a whisper. "Do you mind? If you don't want to..."

He pulled her close with one arm, wrapping it around her body as he moved her in front of him. Her body nestled against his, curvy and strong. He stroked his other hand down her arm and whispered in her ear. "Watch."

Ace had moved on to f*cking the blonde on stage. She moaned and thrashed fitfully against her bindings, more so every time Ace slammed deep and paused to work her reddened shoulders with the flogger. He had a sense of theatrics suited to the stage, and a finely tuned understanding of the woman beneath him.

Six squirmed, goose bumps rising beneath Bren's fingers. "I believe you now. She's...definitely not faking."

"Not even a little."

"And you like watching?"

"I like pleasure." Her skin heated, and he slowed his strokes. "Everything about it."

"Oh." A sound, caught somewhere between a gasp and a moan. On the stage, Ace's blonde tipped over the edge into a screaming orgasm, and Six turned her cheek toward Bren's shoulder and closed her eyes.

As if she couldn't watch.

But that was okay. He soothed her with a soft noise and whispered the promise he'd made himself, the one he kept giving her over and over. "Plenty of time."





Chapter Twenty



No one had ever really understood Dallas's reluctance to screw one of the women in the gang. Oh, they pretended to, nodded and smiled, but most of them thought he was f*cking crazy for not riding every willing girl who crawled into his lap. God knew there were some smoking hot ladies sporting his ink, but aside from Lex, he'd never been all that tempted.

The guys didn't think he was crazy anymore.

Word spread. He didn't know how, but it always did. The first whispers had popped up the moment Lex set foot outside his room without the collar, and they'd swelled from there. By the next morning, everyone in the gang knew that Lex and Dallas were fighting, and not in their usual way.

Dallas had expected the girls to turn on him. He hadn't anticipated how cold they could get, but their disapproval didn't shock him. The number of men who'd joined them in expressing protective anger did.

Maybe it shouldn't have. Lex championed the women, to be sure, but she was just as prominent a presence in the men's lives. She was the one who dealt with all the details that made life comfortable, the one who kept everyone happy and healthy and harmoniously f*cking at frequent parties.

In retrospect, he probably should have expected the men to turn on him first.

The worst part was agreeing with them. He had f*cked up. He'd told Lex all the wrong things at exactly the wrong time. Trying to keep his plan from her had been a fool's game. It might have worked before, when they'd lived parallel lives, but not now that they were all tangled up in each other day and night.

Well. They had been.

The knock on his door startled him so much he clenched his fist and snapped a pencil in half. No one had willingly gotten within ten damn feet of him all day--the ones that weren't pissed at him were wary of his temper--which made him wonder what the hell could drive someone into his domain. "Come in!"

The door popped open, and Dylan Jordan strolled into his office. "Good evening to you too, O'Kane."

"Doc." A chill shivered down Dallas's spine as he studied the doctor--whose presence usually meant bad shit had gone down. "You here on business?"

"Sort of." The man dropped into a chair on the other side of the desk and tried to smooth his dark hair into some semblance of order. It didn't work. "I came by to see what the hell's going on around here."

Christ. If the whispers had turned to grumbles that were rippling beyond the gang already, he really was in deep shit. "Who's been shooting off their mouth?"