Absolutely Unforgivable(72)

“Kiss me again,” I purred and within an instant his lips were back on mine.

I ached for his body, his sensual touch. I wanted him inside of me so desperately. All of the troubles of earlier that day were no longer on my mind. The only thing I could focus on is how good it felt to be in Billy’s arms.

There were no regrets, no second-guessing. I was confident about what I wanted and that was Billy, deep inside of me. He ran his hands down my thighs and then growled.

I had pretended our flirting was nothing more than innocent banter between friends. But it had never been innocent. I wanted him and he wanted me and it had been that way for a long time now.

He pushed me down on the bed and my thoughts scattered. I pulled his shirt over his head and ran my hands over his firm chest. I moaned in pleasure as he put his hands on my stomach and started to remove my shirt.

I licked my lips with anticipation as Billy ran his hands down my thighs and then back up to my hips. He pushed my skirt up to my waist and then ran his fingers under the waistband as he gently pulled it down my now quivering legs.

There was a fire burning inside of me that only he could quench. “I need you, Billy, right now.”

He stood up and pulled off his pants. His beautiful naked body now stood before me. My eyes immediately darted to the bulge that had been growing in his pants. I didn’t realize how well-endowed he was before. I had seen him naked but it was only for a second and not fully erect.

My lust for him took over my every thought and body movement. I crawled to him and sat up on my knees and pulled him into me as we kissed -- a deep and mind-blowing kiss that took my breath away. It was if we had connected on a level that truly transcended our physical bodies. My breath grew heavy, my vision clouded and my entire body began to shake. He felt so good.

His smile deepened, and he leaned in closer. Then he pushed me back on the bed and climbed on top of me. I closed my eyes and let out a soft moan as he rocked himself gently against my body.

After, I looked up at him. His face contorted with pleasure and he said, “You are incredible.” He kissed me passionately and then laid down beside me, holding me tightly as I fell asleep in the safety of his loving arms.

When I woke up for some reason I started to think about all of the women Billy had been with before and winced at the thought. I can’t believe we had unprotected sex. I had never done that before in my entire life. What was I thinking?

“What’s wrong? Do you regret what happened?” I could feel his body tense up when he asked me that.

“Oh no, no way. Not at all. How could you think something like that?”

“You just have this look on your face like you are unhappy about something.”

“Not unhappy. Just worried I guess. You’ve been with a lot of girls and we were so caught up in the moment, we didn’t exactly play it safe.”

“No Stacy, I never.”

“Oh my God. Don’t try that with me. I know I’m not your first. I’ve seen you with other girls before!”

“No, I mean I have never been with anyone else without protection before you.”

“Seriously? Never in your entire life?”

“I’m serious. And you?”

“Never. I have always been safe. I have only been with one other guy besides Jeromy but still always, always, always. I’m so safe I am even on the pill and still use condoms.”

Billy laughed but I was serious. I had never been so irresponsible before. Still, it worried me. But then again what’s done is done. I can’t exactly go back and change the past so no point in obsessing about it. We’ll just have to be more careful in the future.

Billy kissed me on the forehead and headed to the bathroom to get ready for the show. I looked into the mirror at my black eye and told him that I didn’t think it was a good idea that I went with him tonight.

He pulled me in to give me a hug and sighed. “Okay. I want you to stay near Vin tonight, though. Promise me you won’t be out of his sight for even a moment.” I hated how overprotective everyone was sometimes, but considering all that had gone on lately I knew it was probably for the best.

After Billy left I lay on the couch staring at the television, but not really watching what was on. I couldn’t get my mind off of what had happened earlier that day. I was still upset that Jeromy had cheated on me, but happy that I had finally given in to my desire for Billy. I loved Jeromy, I truly did and what he had done hurt, but being with Billy just felt right. Just thinking of him made me blush.