There Is No Devil (Sinners Duet, #2)(26)

Her laptop sits on the dining room table. It’s a piece of shit Lenovo—yet another thing I should replace for her. I hate when Mara touches anything shitty or cheap.

I open the lid, letting out an irritated tsking sound when I see that she has no password protection. It only takes me a moment to open her email.

She told me that she has her mother blocked on every social media platform, and she hasn’t shared her phone number in years. But Tori Eldritch still emails her, the messages piling up in a folder Mara never reads.

I knew the messages were here. The volume still surprises me.

There are hundreds of emails. Thousands, even. The blue dots show that Mara hasn’t opened a single one.

I start to read through them.

Thousands of messages, but each basically the same: threats, insults, and above all, guilt trips.

How could you? I’m your mother. What kind of daughter abandons her family? After everything I did for you. You’re ungrateful. You’re selfish. You’re so dramatic. You think you had it hard? It’s your own fault. Who do you think you are? You think you’re an artist? Don’t make me laugh. Everything you do is for attention. You have no talent, no brains. You’re lazy. You’re the reason I’m divorced. You’re the reason your father left. You were a mistake. Everything bad that ever happened in my life is because of you. I should have aborted you. I was driving to the clinic to do it, do you know that? God I wish I could go back to that day. I’d be doing the world a favor. I’m so ashamed of you. You should be ashamed of yourself. The way you dress, the way you behave. You’re a slut, a whore. No wonder men use you and throw you away. No one will ever love you. No one will ever want you. You’re immature. Worthless. You don’t deserve happiness, and you’ll never get it. You’re disgusting. You repulse me. This is why you’ve never had friends. This is why everyone hates you. You think you’re pretty? With that face and that body? You’re a scarecrow. A fucking mutant. You’ll never be beautiful like me. You take after your father and he was hideous. You’re disgusting just like him. I’ll never understand how you came out of me. I carried you for nine months. You destroyed my figure, my tits have never been the same. You were a massive baby, they had to tear you out of me. You almost killed me. You owe me. You fucking owe me.





On and on, page after page. Sometimes rambling and misspelled, (particularly the emails sent late at night), sometimes long, eloquent paragraphs recounting mistakes Mara made, times she embarrassed herself. The piano recital is mentioned several times, how she humiliated her mother in front of everyone, how she did it on purpose.

This woman’s pettiness could fuel a dictatorship. She’s Lenin and Stalin and Mussolini all rolled into one. Nothing is her fault. Mara is the architect of all evil in the world.

Her hatred for her own daughter baffles me.

I assume some of it is jealousy. Like Snow White and the Wicked Queen, Mara grew in beauty and vitality while Tori was fading by the day.

And some of it is pure rage that Mara refused to be crushed, refused to be destroyed. Mara was the insect Tori stomped on over and over and over again, only to turn into a butterfly and fly far away.

I’m so distracted by the emails that I fail to see the motion alert on my phone. Mara rises and dresses, padding down the stairs while I’m still deeply absorbed in reading.

“What are you doing?” she asks.

I look up from the laptop. I must have an awful expression on my face, because Mara takes a step back, eyes widening.

It’s hard for me to speak.

“I was reading your mother’s emails.”

“Oh,” Mara says.

She isn’t angry.

We each have our own brand of relentless curiosity. She knows me too well to expect privacy or reasonable behavior.

“They’re all the same,” Mara says. “She can’t stop insulting me even when she’s trying to get me to come visit.”

“She wants you to visit?” I scoff.

“When she found out where I lived, she showed up at my apartment. I wouldn’t let her in and she broke in the next day when I was at work. Went through all my things. Read my journal.”

“You have a journal?”

I’m just as nosy as her mother. Worse, probably.

Mara snorts. “Not anymore. And I moved the next week. She can’t stand not knowing where I am. Not having control over me. Not having the power to fuck up my life. She used to show up at my job, trying to get me fired …” she trails off, laughing softly to herself. “Actually, you two have a lot in common. You might really get along.”

“Oh, fuck off. First of all, I’m way better at finding people than she is. She wishes she had my skills. And second, I don’t fuck up your life, I fix it.”

“I know,” Mara says, her expression serious. “I’m grateful to you Cole, do you know that?”

“You better be. I’m taking you to Betsy’s party tonight.”

“Are you really?” she squeaks. Then, her excitement fading, “What about Shaw?”

“He’ll probably be there.”

“What does that mean? What will we do?”

“Nothing in the middle of a gallery. And neither will he. It’s safe.”

“I don’t want to see him, though.” Mara shudders.