There Is No Devil (Sinners Duet, #2)(21)

Seeing how she treated him with open contempt, deliberately angering him, and then how she would crawl back to him whenever she needed something, sitting on his lap and talking in a baby voice, feeding him sips of her drink, destroyed my last shreds of respect for her.

Randall hates her, but he’s also obsessed with her. He says he’ll kill her before he ever lets her leave him.

I don’t know whether it’s worse when they’re fighting or when they gang up on me.

They’re both home all the time. Randall retired right before he met my mother, and she’s never held down a job unless she absolutely had to. Her only piano students were those who would put up with our succession of shitty apartments and her constant canceling of lessons.

Her real work has always been leeching off men. Randall has lasted the longest, because he was the first one stupid enough to marry her.

Even my father didn’t marry her. Whoever he might be.

When I can’t stay outside any longer, I slip my key in the lock and open the door as silently as possible.

I hate the smell of Randall’s house. It stinks of dirt from his back garden—in which he is always laboring without ever managing to make it actually pretty—and of the brand of cheap boxed wine my mother likes to drink, and Randall’s pine-scented aftershave.

The only part of the house I like at all is my own room. My goal is to get there as quickly as possible without being seen.

I creep down the hall, forced to cross the open doorway leading into the living room. I can see the back of Randall’s head as he sits in his favorite recliner. I hate the blocky shape of his skull, the buzzed gray hair, and the fold of fat between his hairline and his plaid button-down.

I’m tip-toeing across that opening when Randall says, “Get in here.”

My stomach sinks down to my loafers.

I creep into the living room, my hands already clammy.

He expects me to come stand in front of his recliner. I take a quick glance at his face, trying to gauge how bad his mood is today.

Three empty beer bottles sit on the side table next to him. Three isn’t too bad.

However, the ruddy flush on his face makes me think those aren’t the first three of the day.

“You’re late,” he grumbles.

Randall’s voice sounds even older than he is. It sounds like a bag of rocks tumbling around in the back of a truck.

“I didn’t have detention,” I say swiftly. “I was walking home with some girls. Mandy Patterson and some others.”

I’m hoping this will appease him. Mandy’s father is a real estate agent so successful that his handsome grin is plastered across every billboard and bus bench in our town.

“I don’t give a fuck if you’re walking home with the pope. You get here on time,” Randall snarls.

There’s no actual reason I need to be home by 3:50. Other than Tuesdays and Thursdays at Mrs. Belchick’s house, I have no appointments. But Randall decreed it, and that means I have to obey or suffer the consequences.

Of course I’m not going to bring up that rational and reasonable point. That would be suicide.

Instead, I swallow my sense of injustice, humbly saying, “I’m sorry. It won’t happen again.”

It will happen again, because something always happens to make me late. The universe wants Randall angry at me just as badly as Randall wants it himself.

I’m hoping this is the end of it. I can go up and hide in my room until it’s time to set the table for dinner.

Instead, Randall says, “Change your clothes and come down here to do your homework.”

Shit.

I don’t bother asking him if I can do it in my room. I simply set my book bag down by the edge of the fireplace, before trudging upstairs to change out of my uniform.

Changing clothes is my mother’s requirement. She says it’s so I don’t wear out my uniforms so fast, but I suspect it’s really because she’s noticed how much Randall prefers the plaid skirts. In fact, I’m starting to suspect that’s the whole reason he insisted I switch schools.

In response, my mother has been forcing me to wear more and more modest clothing. First, it was no tank tops, then no shorts. Last week she screamed at me over a scoop-neck t-shirt. I’ll be wearing turtlenecks in July by the time she’s satisfied.

I loathe the way everyone fixates on my clothing—the teachers at school, my classmates, Randall, and my mother. The taller I grow and the more my tits come in, the worse it gets.

I don’t get it. It’s not like I have some massive rack like Ella Fitz, who started growing them even before we left elementary school. Still, every sign of puberty seems to inflame my mother. She was furious when I got my period last year, and refused to buy me tampons, even though we have swim class as part of PE, and even though every other girl uses them. Mandy Patterson was delighted to tell the whole class the moment she spotted a pad in my bag.

I pull on my baggiest hoodie and jeans, so my mother won’t pitch a fit when she gets back from wherever she’s gone.

When I return to the living room, Randall has turned up the volume on the television. Either he turned it down so he could catch me sneaking in the door, or he’s blaring it now to irritate me.

I take my book bag to the dining room table, which is in his sight range. I hate how he watches me.

I angle my chair away from him, spreading out my textbooks and notes. Windsor Academy makes us do a lot more homework than I’m used to. The other kids have been there since Kindergarten. I’ve been struggling so bad that my mother hauled me to the doctor for some stupid medication that’s supposed to help me focus.