Devoured: A Novel(6)

But in another time, I’d seen Lucas’s ink up close. I’d gotten to trace my lips along the intricate patterns that ran along his muscled body as he wound his fingertips into my hair and whispered for me to kiss, to taste. I shiver. I wish I could say it was from the 33 degree weather.

Lucas finally answers me, untangling me from the memories. I hate myself for being disappointed. “Because being around you is—” He stops speaking so that the waitress can put my lunch on the table. He grants her his trademark buy-my-album-and-vibe-off-to-it grin. She fumbles, blushing as she asks him if there’s anything she can get him. I frown. If he orders, that means he’ll stick around and really, I just want to hurry this along so Lucas and I can go back to being . . . well, nothing to one another.

Luckily for me, he declines.

“Being around me is what?” I demand the moment we’re alone again.

Twirling a spoon around in my coffee, he flicks the tip of his tongue over his top teeth. I can’t tell whether he’s smiling or grimacing. And I have no idea why I should give two shits either way.

My cell phone plays the ringtone I’ve assigned it for calls and messages from Tori—a Britney Spears song that she swear she loathes but sings in the shower every morning. I reach for it, but Lucas captures my hand in his, threading his fingertips between mine. “You could be bad for music,” he whispers, bringing my fingers to his lips. “And that’s what I’m here to do—make music.”

My stomach ravels into hundreds of knots as he kisses each of my fingers slowly, his eyes never leaving my own. We’re in public, and there are people all around us. But for a good minute, Lucas Wolfe and I are the only people in the world.

“Lucas—” I start, my voice threadbare. Staring down at the sugar packet disaster on the table, I take a deep breath and then rake my teeth over my top lip. I don’t know what to say to him so I don’t appear weak. When I glance up in time to see his beautiful face breaks into a smile that makes my chest clench, I realize it doesn’t matter what I say. He’s already realized he’s my Kryptonite.

“The second I saw you, I promised myself I wouldn’t do this with you again, Sienna,” he growls.

Do what—lead me on? Boot me out of his life without so much as a proper goodbye? I’m about to demand an explanation, but then I see the door to Nielson’s office swing open and Gram walks out. I immediately feel like the worse granddaughter in history because at some point during my exchange with Lucas, I managed to forget she’s the reason I’m in this café to begin with.

Pulling my hand away from Lucas, I toss my phone into my bag with a little too much force. “I’m here because some douchebag musician from California bought my grandmother’s house.”

I can’t mistake his sharp intake of breath or the way his long legs go stiff beneath the table, squeezing my own. “I see.”

“So you’ll understand why I’m saying this: Go f*ck yourself, Lucas.”

Our eyes meet. His are mocking and angry and something else. Something that I’d seen two years ago, the night I went home with him. Something I’ll pretend I don’t see. “I’ve only heard you that forceful once, so I’ve got to ask: Was that for your grandma or for what happened with us?”

I untangle my legs from his, stand, and put money under the untouched platter of Cheshire pie. “Both,” I say.

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I’m so flustered—emotionally, mentally, and dammit, physically—by my encounter with Lucas that I’m only half-tuned in to my conversation with my grandmother on the ride to her house. I hear her ask if my flight was comfortable, how long I’ll be staying in Nashville. I listen to myself respond like a robot. “It was great, Gram. . . . I’ll be here as long as it takes. . . .” Then Gram starts asking me a new series of questions, and I give her more mechanical answers. Our entire exchange sounds like a hazy dream to me, but Lucas’s voice plays loud and static-free in my head. It’s teasing me, warning me that I’m bad for music.

Whatever that’s supposed to mean. Maybe I inspire him to write angsty music where the rocker doesn’t get to screw the girl, or something. When I think of it that way, I guess that is a career drainer.

The only thing I’m entirely sure of is that I wish the person snatching away the home my grandparents loved so much was anyone else in the world but Lucas.

Navigating the Land Rover up the narrow hill leading to the house where I spent most of my childhood, I draw my brain away from Lucas Wolfe and back to the most important dilemma.