A Place of Hiding (Inspector Lynley, #12)(25)

“Winklewater, Frankie. ’At’s what we called it. Never mentioned that, did I? Never talked much of how bad things got round the subject of food, did I, lad? Don’t much like to think about those times. Bloody Krauts...What they did to this island...”



Frank Ouseley slipped his hands gently through his father’s armpits as the old man maundered on. He eased him off the plastic chair in the bath and guided his left foot onto the tattered mat that covered the cold linoleum. He’d turned the radiator up as far as it would go this morning, but it still seemed frigid in the bathroom to him. So, one hand on his father’s arm to keep him steady, he grabbed the towel from its rail and shook it out. He tucked it snugly round his father’s shoulders, which were wizened as was the rest of him. Graham Ouseley’s flesh was ninetytwo years old, and it hung upon his frame like stringy bread dough.

“Threw everything into the pot in those days,” Graham went on, leaning his whippet’s frame against Frank’s own somewhat rounded shoulder. “Shredded up parsnips, we did, boy, when we could get ’em. Baked

’em first, o’ course. Camellia leaves too, lime blossoms and lemon balm, lad. And then we threw bicarb in the pot to make the leaves go longer. Winklewater was what we called it. Well, we couldn’t rightly call it tea.”

He chuckled and his fragile shoulders shook. The chuckle segued into a cough. The cough turned into a wrestle for air. Frank grabbed his father to keep him upright.

“Steady on, Dad.” He grasped Graham’s fragile body firmly, despite his own fear that one day clutching on to him to keep him from falling was going to do worse damage than any fall he might actually take, snapping his bones like a dunlin’s legs. “Here. Let’s get you onto the toilet.”

“Don’t have to pee, boy,” Graham protested, trying to shake himself free. “Wha’s the matter with you? Mind going, or something? Peed before we got into the bath.”

“Right. I know that. I just want you to sit.”

“Nothing wrong with my legs. I c’n stand with the best of them. Had to do that when the Krauts were here. Stand still and look like you’re queuing for meat. Not passing ’long the news, no sir. No radio receiver in your dung hill, son. Look like you’d just a’soon heil Mr. Dirty Moustache as say God save the King, and they didn’t bother you. So you could do what you liked. If you were careful.”

“I remember that, Dad,” Frank said patiently. “I remember your telling me about it.” Despite his father’s protest, he lowered him onto the toilet seat, where he began to pat his body dry. As he did so, he listened with some concern to Graham’s breathing, waiting for it to return to normal. Congestive heart failure, his doctor had said. There’s medication, naturally, and we’ll put him on it. But truth to tell, at his advanced age, it’s only a matter of time. It’s an act of God, Frank, that he’s lived this long. When he’d first received the news, Frank had thought, No. Not now. Not yet and not until. But now he was ready to let his father go. He’d long ago realised how lucky he was to have had him around well into his own sixth decade, and while he’d hoped to have Graham Ouseley alive some eighteen months longer, he’d come to understand—with a grief that felt like a net from which he could never escape—that it was just as well this was not to be.

“Did I?” Graham asked, and he screwed up his face as he sorted through his memory. “Did I tell you all that afore, laddie? When?”

Two or three hundred times, Frank thought. He’d been listening to his father’s World War II stories since his childhood, and most of them he could repeat by heart. The Germans had occupied Guernsey for five years, preparatory to their foiled plan to invade England, and the deprivations the populace had endured—not to mention the myriad ways they had attempted to thwart German aims on the island—had long been the stuff of his father’s conversation. While most children nursed from their mother’s breasts, Frank had long suckled at the teat of Graham’s reminiscence. Never forget this, Frankie. Whatever else happens in your life, my boy, you must never forget.

He hadn’t, and unlike so many children who might have grown weary of the tales their parents told them on Remembrance Sunday, Frank Ouseley had hung upon his father’s words and had wished he’d managed to get himself born a decade earlier so that even as a child he could have been part of that troubled and heroic time.

They had nothing to match it now. Not the Falklands or the Gulf— those abbreviated, nasty little conflicts that were fought about next to nothing and geared to stimulate the populace into flag-waving patriotism—and certainly not Northern Ireland, where he himself had served, ducking sniper fire in Belfast and wondering what the hell he was doing in the middle of a sectarian struggle promoted by thugs who’d been taking murderous pot shots at each other since the turn of the last century. There was no heroism in any of that because there was no single enemy who could be identified and against whose image one could fling himself and die. They weren’t like World War II.

He steadied his father on the toilet seat and reached for his clothes, which lay in a neatly folded stack on the edge of the basin. He did the laundry himself, so the undershorts and the vest weren’t as white as they might have been but, as his father’s eyesight was growing steadily worse, Frank was fairly certain Graham wouldn’t notice.