Wild Horses (Sadie's Montana #1)
Linda Byler
Chapter 1
IT WAS EASIER TO love a horse than it was to love people. Horses understood. Oh, Sadie knew her sisters rolled their eyes about that philosophy, but that was all right. It meant they didn’t understand, same as Mam and Dat. Especially Dat.
He was the one who made her finally part with Paris, her old, beloved, palomino riding horse. Paris wasn’t really her own horse. Her uncle had kind of loaned her to Sadie to see if she could do anything with the unruly monster who bit, bucked, and even attacked men—especially small men who were assertive in their way of handling her.
Sadie understood Paris. Underneath all that bucking and kicking was a timid spirit—perhaps too timid—and that’s why she bucked and kicked. It was hard to explain, but Paris was afraid of being controlled by someone she could not trust completely.
Paris was beautiful, but she hadn’t always been that way. When Uncle Emanuel brought her in a silver horse trailer, Sadie was shocked at the sight of the pathetic creature that was coaxed out of the trailer’s squeaking door.
The truck driver, a tall, skinny youth with a wad of snuff as large as a walnut stuck in his lower lip, refused to help at all. Paris terrified him, there was no doubt about that.
Sadie crossed her arms tightly across her stomach, watching every move Uncle Emanuel made, urging, talking, threatening, and pulling on the dirty halter. First she heard an awful commotion—dull, thudding clicks against the side of the trailer and yelling from Uncle Emanuel. Then he came skidding down the manure-encrusted ramp, his eyes rolling behind his thick glasses, his straw hat clumped down on his head of riotous red curls.
“Yikes!” he shouted, grinning at Sadie.
Sadie smiled and said nothing. Her stomach hurt so badly, she couldn’t utter a word. She was afraid, too. She didn’t have much experience with horses, other than with their fat, black, little Shetland pony named Chocolate that they had when she was barely six years old.
She had always wanted a horse of her own—one she could name and brush, a horse whose mane and tail she could braid. She’d give the horse its very own saddle and bridle and pretty saddle blanket with a zebra design on it, and she’d put pretty pink ribbons at the end of the braids.
She was almost 15-years-old when she heard Mam tell her sister Leah about being at sisters’ day. Uncle Emanuel’s wife, Hannah, had related the story of this palomino horse he bought, saying, “She was a pure danger, that one. Emanuel was scared of her, that was all there was to it.” Mam was laughing, thinking of her brother and his quick, funny ways.
Sadie had been standing at the refrigerator, peering inside for a stalk of celery to load up with peanut butter. She was so hungry after having spent the afternoon with her cousin, Eva, who lived down the road.
Slowly, as if in a dream, she closed the refrigerator door, completely forgetting about her hunger, the celery, and the peanut butter.
“What?” she uttered dreamily.
“Oh, my brother Emanuel. Can you imagine him with a horse he can’t handle?”
Mam laughed again and plopped another peeled potato into her stainless steel pot.
“What kind of horse? I mean, did he buy her or him? Is it a driving horse for the buggy or a riding horse?”
“I think a rider. He bought her for his son, who I’m sure is not old enough to ride a full-grown horse.”
“Mam!”
Mam’s knife stopped slicing through the potato as she turned, giving her full attention to Sadie, her oldest daughter.
“What, Sadie? My, you are serious!”
“Mam, listen to me. Could I… Would I be able to… Do you suppose Dat would let me try to…?”
Sadie swiped nervously at the stray brown hair coming loose from behind the dichly she wore for everyday work. A dichly is a triangle of cotton fabric, usually a men’s handkerchief cut in half and hemmed, worn by Amish women and girls when they do yard work or anything strenuous.
Sadie’s coverings were always a disaster, Mam said, so she only wore one to go away on Sundays, or to quiltings, or sisters’ day, or to go to town.
“Ach, now, Sadie.”
That was all Mam said, and the way she said it was not promising in the least.
Her hope of ever having a horse of her own stood before her again like an insurmountable cliff. There was no getting over it or around it. It was just there, looming high and large, giving her a huge lump in her throat. No one understood. No one knew about this huge, gray and brown cliff ahead of her which had no handholds or any steps or easy ways to climb up and over. And if she told anyone, they would think there was something seriously wrong with her.
She wanted a horse. That was all.
Dat didn’t particularly like horses. He was a bit different in this area than other Amish men. He hitched up his big, brown, standard-bred road horse to the freshly washed and sparkling carriage every two weeks to go to church and on the rare occasion they went visiting someone on the in-between Sundays. But mostly, Jacob Miller’s horse had a life of leisure.
Sadie had knelt by her bed every evening for weeks, folded her hands, bent her head, closed her eyes, and prayed to God to somehow, some way soften her father’s heart. As she prayed, she could feel some little crevices in her cliff—just tiny little cracks you could stick one foot in.