Toxic: Logan's Story (Torn #4)(58)

Chloe’s mouth dropped open in shock. I’d never spoken to her like that.

“Logan—”

“Save it, Chloe. I’m going to go lie down. My head is killing me.” I stood and walked out of the room. “Have fun tonight, guys.”

I walked back to my room and closed the door behind me. I sat down at my desk and stared out the window. I couldn’t help but feel a sick sense of satisfaction over saying those things to Chloe. Yes, we’d talked about everything, but she’d had no clue how I really felt. She’d had no idea how long it took me to get over her. And I really was over her now—whether I’d realized it or not. Jade had helped me move on…only to f*ck me over the exact same way Chloe had. The two of them with their lies were enough to turn a straight man gay. Women weren’t worth the time or effort.

My door swung open. I turned to see Chloe walking in before she closed the door behind her. I knew from the determined look on her face that I was in for the biggest ass-chewing of my life.

“We need to talk,” she said flatly.

“Nah, we’re good. I said what I had to say.”

“Bullshit. Talk to me, Logan. I want to know what’s going on with you. You always keep your thoughts locked away, and I’m tired of it! Tell me what you’re thinking!”

“What do you want me to say? That you ripped out my f*cking heart when you cheated on me? Okay, yeah, you did. You changed me. I stopped being the nice guy. Instead, I turned into a tamer version of Drake. I became an *, and I started sleeping with anything that looked at me. I used women the way you used me. There. Happy?”

“I didn’t use you, Logan,” Chloe whispered.

“Yes, you did. You wanted Drake, but you stayed with me. You lied to me about how you felt when it came to him, and then you cheated on me.”

“I never meant to hurt you. I know what I did to you was wrong, and I’ll regret it for the rest of my life. I was so confused, and I didn’t want to hurt you when I realized that I thought of you only as a friend.”

“So, you thought cheating on me wouldn’t hurt me? Are you f*cking dense? I would have rather listened to you tell me that you didn’t love me rather than hear how you f*cked Drake repeatedly behind my back! Who does that to someone they love?”

“I’m so sorry. You have no idea how sorry I am.” Her voice cracked as tears ran down her cheeks.

For the first time ever, I didn’t feel sorry for her. She’d done this to me, not the other way around.

“Sorry doesn’t fix how bad you f*cked me over, Chloe. Sorry doesn’t fix anything.”

“I know,” she whispered as she leaned against the wall. “I should have told you. The moment I realized that I loved Drake, I should have told you.”

“Why him? What was it about Drake that made you love him instead of me? What did I do wrong? Answer me because I need to know. Whatever it is, I f*cked up the same way with Jade.”

“You didn’t f*ck up, Logan, I swear. Drake is just…I clicked with him instantly.”

“And you didn’t click with me? I’m your best friend.”

“It was different with him. I don’t know how to explain it. I cared about him from the very beginning.”

“Is it because he’s in a band? I know how much you like music.” I really had wondered if that was what had drawn her to him in the beginning.

She gave me a disgusted look. “God, no. I mean, it was cool that he was in a band, but that had nothing to do with it. Truthfully, it made things harder. The groupies still get to me from time to time.”

I ran my hand through my hair. “Look, I’m sorry for saying what I did. Let’s just forget everything, okay?”

She shook her head. “No, not okay. I messed up, and you were the one who got hurt. I don’t want you to look at all women and assume that they’ll do the same thing that I did. It isn’t fair to them, and it certainly isn’t fair to you. You don’t deserve to be so jaded. You did nothing wrong.”

“I can’t just forget, Chloe. It isn’t that easy.”

“I know. I wish it were though. Will you tell me what happened with Jade?”

“I thought things were going great with her. I was happy, really happy, for the first time since…well, you. Jade made me forget how pissed-off I was. She made me care about her. Just like with you, I thought things were going great. Then, we ran into her ex, Mikey. He reminded me so much of Drake. I hated him instantly. We went to watch his band perform. Jade went backstage after the show, and I followed her. I found her with him. He had her pressed up against the wall, kissing her, and she seemed to be enjoying herself. I should have known that things were too perfect. Nothing ever works out for me.”

“Oh, Logan. What did she say to you? Did she try to explain?”

I shook my head. “I didn’t give her the chance. I left. I went back to our apartment to grab my stuff, and then I drove home. She’s been calling me ever since, but I’ve ignored all her calls. I don’t want to hear her excuses. I know what I saw. Nothing can fix that.”

Chloe bit her lip. “I know you don’t want to hear this, but maybe you should talk to her. I mean, it might not be what it looked like. At least give her a chance to explain.”

“Nope, not happening. I’m done, Chloe. I’m done with you, with her, and with every other female out there. I’ve had it with the lying and the cheating.”