The Ascent(45)

It was dark when we crested the incline and continued down the other side of the passage. The stars were countless and dazzling, the line of mountains a blackened series of waves against an inky backdrop of sky.

The flicker of a campfire trembled in the narrow, cupped valley below.

Two hours ago, Shotsky might have sighed with relief and commented in some quasi-humorous fashion about how glad he was to see the campsite. But that was two hours ago. Now all his strength was reserved for propelling one foot in front of the other. The night had cooled the atmosphere considerably, yet Shotsky’s round face was glistening with sweat, his cheeks flushed and quivering, his exaggerated breaths volleying his lower lip back and forth, back and forth, back and forth. It would have been comical had I not been concerned about his heart giving out.

The rest of the crew was uncharacteristically quiet upon our arrival. Instinct told me they were thinking the same thing I was—namely, that there was no way in hell Shotsky was going to be able to complete this journey. Wordlessly, Hollinger handed a cup of hot cocoa to Shotsky, who accepted the cup equally as silent.

“You’re f*cking kidding me,” Chad commented under his breath, coming up beside me. “What’d you do, carry the son of a bitch on your shoulders the whole way?”

There was nothing I could say.

“Seriously,” Chad went on, his voice rising, “where’s the hidden f*cking cameras? Because this has got to be a joke—”

“Cool it. I don’t need a goddamn recap.” I glanced around. “Where’s Andrew?”

“Where do you think? He’s praying like a goddamn monk up there.” He pointed to a silhouetted outline of jagged rock.

I could just barely make out Andrew’s form crouched atop one of the peaks, his face in profile.

“Is it just me,” Chad said, “or is everyone losing their f*cking minds?”

An hour later, Andrew came down from the peaks. Shotsky was snoring against a stone outcropping, while Curtis, Chad, and Hollinger played cards. Petras had taken my book on George Mallory closer to the fire to read by the light. I’d spent the past hour thinking aboutthe situation with Shotsky but mostly thinking about the bourbon in my canteen. I’d come to the decision that I’d take another swig—just one more—after everyone had gone to bed. Either that, or do push-ups till morning.

“We need to talk,” I said to Andrew as he took off his shirt and sniffed his armpits.

“I’m ripe,” he said, pulling a face. He tossed the shirt atop his pack and bent to rifle for a fresh one. “What’s up?”

“I think you know.”

“Do I? Because there are so many things going on at the moment.”

“What are you talking about?”

“Well,” he began, his voice level, “for one thing, I noticed how collected you were this morning and well into the afternoon. Up until early evening, really, when you started lagging behind. And your hands started shaking again.”

I wasn’t going to mention the liquor to Andrew—though he’d supplied it, I didn’t have to let him know that I’d discovered it—but he was already onto me. This angered me. I guess Andrew could see that it angered me because he looked me up and down and asked if I was going to punch him in the face again.

“Thinking about it,” I said.

He selected a fresh T-shirt and pulled it over his head, tucking it into the waistband of his camouflage pants.

“He’s going to drop dead out here,” I said. “And I’m sure as hell not going to be his babysitter for the rest of the trip.”

“You didn’t have to be his babysitter today, either.”

“We had a deal,” I reminded him.

“The deal was if he feels like he can’t finish. Not you.”

“He won’t quit because he needs the money.”

“He’ll quit,” Andrew said. His eyes were like twin orbs of obsidian reflecting the nearby firelight. “That’s the problem with him. He’s a quitter. I wish it were different, but that’s not the case. You’ll see—

you’ll come out on top, and you’ll get your way.”

“I just hope it’s not too late. We’ve got a long day tomorrow.”

“Yes,” Andrew said, squatting down with his back against his pack and lacing his hands behind his head, “we do. Good night.”

Speechless, I climbed into fresh socks and had Chad deal me in for a few hands of poker.

“You suck, Shakes,” Chad said after I’d lost my tenth hand in a row.

“Just deal,” I told him. Truth was, I couldn’t concentrate on the game; I was too busy watching Andrew sleep. Whether it had been subconscious or not, he’d removed himself from the rest of us, setting up his sleeping bag on the other side of the bonfire where, in the flicker of the flames, he was nothing but a dance of alternating shadows.

“You got it,” said Chad. “Money on the wood makes the game go good. Ante up, boys.”

After everyone had gone to sleep, I crawled over to where Shotsky lay, half petrified against the side of the stone outcropping. His snores were like the buzz of a chain saw. I poked his chest lightly and whispered his name into his ear over and over until his snoring broke up and his eyelids fluttered.

“Wha—?”