Standing in the Shadows (McClouds & Friends #2)(108)

He opened his clothing and availed himself of her body again. He wished to get past all of Tamara's layers, all the way to her tender, shrinking center before he added her to his legions of angels. She must be punished, for thinking she could hide her secrets behind a smile.

Punishment exalted. His angels knew this, and so would she. The Riggs family would learn it, the McCloud brothers would learn it.

Just as he had learned it. The day was always with him, frozen in his memory. The day that his father had strangled his mother. She had betrayed him. He had been five years old, too young to understand the nature of her betrayal, but not too young to understand empty eyes, slack limbs. He understood death. He understood punishment.

His father had not been a heartless man. He had wept, had cradled his dead wife's body in his arms and sobbed.

"Never betray me," he had begged his small son. "Never."

"Never," the little boy had whispered. "Never."

Someone was clutching, clawing at his hands. Wild-eyed. Red hair, green eyes, gasping mouth wide open. Tamara. He realized, with a start of surprise, that his hands were clamped around her slender neck.

He let go of her, and got to his feet. These odd fugue states occurred when he was under stress. But after all, he had died only six hours ago. That was a stressful event.

Tamara lay curled and gasping on the floor, clutching her throat.

He fastened his trousers. "Be ready for Georg when he returns," he said as he left the room.



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Chapter Twenty





Connor sat on the porch and watched the sunrise turn the clouds a rosy pink. He was so happy, it terrified him. Anything that made him feel so open and soft had to be suspect.

Morning advanced, people came out of their houses dressed for work, herding their kids into car seats. It was a normal working day for the rest of the world. None of them knew that the universe had just shifted on its axis. Erin, the most beautiful girl in the world, was his future bride. He could barely breathe, he was so switched on.

The door opened behind him. He leaped up and turned. His foolish smile slipped a notch when he found himself face-to-face with Barbara Riggs's suspicious glare. He thought about the squeaky bed, and made sure she wasn't holding any blunt objects that could be utilized to bash his head in.

She looked different today. Nicely dressed, hair styled, made up. She looked like the old Barbara he remembered from before the fall.

"Uh, good morning," he ventured.

She gave him a curt nod. He wondered if he was supposed to make small talk. If so, too bad. He didn't have any to offer.

Finally she took pity on him and opened the door wider. "There's fresh coffee in the kitchen. You may have some, if you'd like."

Her tone implied that he didn't deserve a cup of fresh coffee, but he still forced himself to nod and smile. "Thanks, I would."

This, of course, meant following her into the kitchen, sitting down with a cup of coffee and confronting another screaming silence. All those years of deadly quiet meals with Eamon McCloud had not prepared him for the frigid quality of Barbara Riggs's silence.

Finally, he couldn't take it anymore. "Uh, how's Cindy?" he asked.

"Still sleeping," she said. "So is Erin."

"That's good," he said. "You all needed your rest."

"Yes," she agreed. "Are you hungry?"

Actually, he was ravenous, but her cool gaze made him feel self-conscious about it. As if being hungry were some sort of moral failing. "I'm fine," he said. "Don't worry about it."

She got up, with a martyred look. "I'll make you some breakfast."

Erin came downstairs some minutes later, dewy and fresh from a shower, and found him digging into his third stack of pancakes and link sausages. Her face colored a deep rose pink. "Good morning," she said.

There was no bra under that skimpy tank top, he noticed. His glance switched her brights on. They went hard and tight against the stretchy fabric. He could feel those raspberry-textured nubs against his face, his lips fastened around them, tongue swirling, suckling.

He looked down at his pancakes. "Uh, great breakfast, Barbara."

She shot him a narrow glance and turned to Erin. "Want some pancakes, hon?"

"Sure," Erin said. She poured herself some coffee and dosed it with milk. "What's on your agenda for the day, Connor?"

"I need to track down Billy Vega," he told her. "I don't like leaving you alone, but I'd rather do it on my own." She didn't need to know the rest of his plans. Which included planting microwave beacons in her stuff so he could keep tabs on her.

"You really think Novak might have hired him to control Cindy?" Barbara asked.

He gave her a noncommittal shrug. "Just ruling out possibilities. I want you all to stay right here with the doors locked. And I want you to keep that revolver while I'm not with you, Erin."

Erin winced. He braced himself for Barbara's disapproval, but Barbara nodded, a martial glint in her eye. "I have a gun, too," she said. "A Beretta 8000 Cougar. And I know how to use it, too. Eddie taught me. Anyone tries to touch my girls, and I will blow their heads right off."

Erin coughed and set her coffee down. "Good Lord, Mom."