See How She Awakens (The Chronicles of Izzy #4)
MIchelle Graves
Echoes pulsed in my mind. Disembodied voices threatening the world’s demise pressed against me, but just as they came, they began to fade. In their place a new demon appeared, threatening my tenuous grasp on reality. Taunts of a life unlived filled my mind; a grave remembrance of an unattainable future left to ruin. His voice calls out to me, begging me to leave the void. Why would I go? He was here. If I left, I would lose him again. But then the others appeared anew, washing him away with their promises of the horrors yet to come. I stopped the darkness; the demon is gone. Why won’t they leave?
“Izzy!” another voice—one I know, but don’t wish to hear—calls to me. The voice of betrayal. “Let me in!”
Aberto. The one man that knew my world would be ripped from me. He’d done nothing to warn me. He could’ve stopped Kennan from being taken from me. Now what was I? I wasn’t human, not anymore. So what remained? Like a video reel playing out on a loop, the moment repeated itself. The moment everything was ripped from my grasp. Powerless to look away, I watched as Kennan was eviscerated.
The horror of the moment shifted, becoming reality. Agony lanced through me, igniting every nerve in its trajectory, culminating in a fire that scorched everything daring to stand in its path.
My soul still felt the echoes of that fire as it burned away all that was left of my humanity. What was I?
“Izzy!” That voice shouldn’t be here. She should be safe with Ian. No, it was another lie; the echoes trying to trick me. They had to be pushed back. No more! I couldn’t survive the torment. I wanted to be alone, to rest in my isolation.
“You are not REAL!” I shouted, throwing all of my energy into the dense fog. A shockwave pulsed outward, pushing back all that would threaten to harm me or take me away from him. He was my solace. At least in the void we could still be together.
“You know that can’t be,” Kennan’s disembodied voice whispered.
“Why? You are here now. That is enough.”
“Would you live the rest of eternity in this place while those you love suffer?” The determination and sorrow in his voice pulled at me, begging me to act.
His words were a lie. I’d taken the demon with me, absorbed every ounce of darkness into myself. It writhed inside of me, seeking a way out. If I stayed here, everyone was safe.
“I won’t leave.” A promise I intended to keep.
“Darkness is on the rise.”
“The world will burn.”
“Act now, or all is lost.”
The blackened figures pressed through my barrier, calling out to me. Blood trails cascaded from every orifice. They were so familiar, the faces of those I’d left behind. But they were all safe; I’d taken the darkness. I’d made them safe. Now I could rest.
“Think, Izzy! REMEMBER!” Kennan’s voice shouted over the figures.
“All I remember is you, and you are gone.” Again I pressed outward, shoving the figures back for a time. They would come again; they always did.
“IZZY!” Aberto’s strained voice pleaded through the fog, sounding further away than ever before. “Please. Allow. Me. To. Help.” Each word was a clipped strain as he pressed against the barrier I’d created to protect myself. He would not reach me.
The part of his soul that resided within me churned, begging to be reunited with its other half. That would never happen. He’d lied to me, betrayed my trust.
“LEAVE!” my shout sent a rush of energy that reverberated against the barrier. I could feel him slip further away, and suddenly, I felt very alone.
“Darkness is on the rise.”
“More will come.”
“The world will burn.”
Madness had begun to sneak in; slowly at first, but it came all the same. What was real? Were these voices from now? Or were they just sent to torment me? Was I in hell? Had the demon drug me down with him?
“Izzy, don’t stay here! You must leave before it is too late.” Kennan’s voice again. I must be going mad; he was gone. No more would we be together.
But if it was only madness, wasn’t there a sense of joy to be gained? No more would I feel the weight of the world upon my shoulders. I’d fulfilled the prophecy; I’d fallen. What more could I do?
“Remember, Izzy! You need to remember! Molly is going to die if you don’t!” Kennan’s anger rose around me, turning the fog a deep crimson.
“Molly is safe in Chicago.” Simple. I’d made sure of it.
“No, she has been trying to reach you. Izzy, what must I do to make you understand? If you stay, everything will be lost.”
“Why can’t Uriel do it? Or one of the Old Ones? I did what was asked! I fell, taking you with me in the process.”
“Izzy, no more. I’m gone. You can’t remain here. How can I make you understand? I was sent here to help you, but it seems I can’t.” Kennan’s frustration rubbed against my frayed nerves, causing me to sink into myself.
As the feelings began to fade, the tide of the void swept against me, sending me back to the start. Why do I feel so lost? The void was supposed to be my sanctuary, a respite from the world I’d lost, but the voices leave me alone. Kennan won’t leave me alone. He wasn’t real. He died. Don’t forget, he’s gone. Forever.