Lover Revealed (Black Dagger Brotherhood #4)(95)

Something warm tingled in Butch’s chest. Something like hope. “And what if I have a vampire relative?”

“Then we might…” V took a very deep drag on the hand-rolled. “We might be able to turn you.”

Holy. Shit. “I thought you couldn’t do that.”

V nodded over at a thigh-high stack of leather volumes by the computers. “There is something in the Chronicles. If you’ve got some of our blood in you, we can give it a shot. It’s very risky, but we could try.”

Man, Butch was so on board with that plan. “Let’s do the regression. Now.”

“Can’t. Even if you have the DNA, we need to get clearance from the Scribe Virgin before we even think about jumpstarting any kind of change. That kind of shit is not to be done lightly, and there’s the added complication of what the lessers did to you. If she won’t allow us to proceed, it won’t matter whether you’ve got relatives with fangs, and I don’t want to put you through an ancestor regression if there’s nothing we can do about it.”

“How long until we know?”

“Wrath said he’d talk to her tonight.”

“Jesus, V. I hope—”

“I want you to take some time and think about this. The regression is a bitch to go through. Your brain’s going to stroke out on us and I understand the pain’s no party. And you might want to talk to Marissa about it, also.”

Butch thought of her. “Oh, I’ll get through it. You don’t worry about that.”

“Don’t get cocky—”

“I’m not. This has to work.”

“Might well not, though.” V stared at the lit tip of his hand-rolled. “Assuming you come out the other side of the regression okay, and we can find a living relative of yours to use to jumpstart the change, you could die in the middle of the transition. There’s only a small chance you’ll survive.”

“I’ll do it.”

V laughed in a short burst. “I can’t decide whether you have serious balls or a death wish.”

“Never underestimate the power of self-hatred, V. It’s a hell of a motivator. Besides, we both know what the only other option is.”

As their stares met, Butch knew V was thinking the same thing he was: No matter what the risks were, anything was better than Vishous having to kill him outright because he had to leave.

“I’m going to Marissa now.”

Butch paused on his way out the door to the tunnel. “You sure there isn’t something we can do about these dreams of yours?”

“You got enough on your plate.”

“I’m an excellent multitasker, buddy.”

“Go to your female, cop. Don’t worry about me.”

“You’re such a pain in the ass.”

“Said the SIG to the Glock.”

Butch cursed and hit the tunnel, trying not to be totally pumped. When he got to the big house, he went up to the second floor and passed by Wrath’s study. On impulse, he knocked on the jamb. After the king called out, Butch was in there maybe ten minutes tops before he went on to Marissa’s room.

He was about to knock when someone said, “She’s not there.”

He pivoted around and saw Beth coming out of the sitting room at the end of the hall, a vase of flowers in her hands.

“Where is Marissa?” he asked.

“She went with Rhage to check out her new place.”

“What new place?”

“She’s rented a house for herself. About seven miles from here.”

Shit. She was moving out. And she hadn’t even told him. “Exactly where is it?”

After Beth gave him the address and assured him the rental was safe, his first instinct was to race over there, but he canned that idea. Wrath was going to the Scribe Virgin right now. Maybe they could get the regression over with and there’d be good news to share on the other side.

“She’s coming back tonight, right?” Man, he wished she’d told him about the move out.

“Definitely. And Wrath is going to ask Vishous to work on the security system, so she’ll stay here until that’s done.” Beth frowned. “Hey…you don’t look so good. Why don’t you come down and get some food with me?”

He nodded, even though he had no idea what she’d said to him. “You know I love her, right?” he blurted, not sure why he was going there.

“Yes, I do. And she loves you.”

Then why didn’t she talk to him?

Yeah, and just how easy had he made that for her lately? He’d freaked out about the feeding. Taken her virginity while he was drunk. Hurt her in the process. Christ.

“I’m not hungry,” he said. “But I’ll watch while you eat.”



Back at the Pit, Vishous stepped out of the shower and yelped like a nancy, slamming back against the marble wall. Wrath was standing in the bathroom, a big leather-clad male the size of the goddamned Escalade.

“Christ, my lord. Scare a brother, why don’t you.”

“Little jumpy there, V, huh?” Wrath handed over a towel. “So I just came back from the Scribe Virgin.”

V paused with the terry cloth under an arm. “What did she say?”