FIRE (Elite Forces #2)(37)
“Stop acting like a damn idiot and I will.”
“I won’t ever apologize for trying to protect you, but the last thing you’ll ever need is protection from me. I’d never f*cking hurt you and you goddamn know it.” She lowers down from the height of her tip toes to her normal stance. I watch her as she takes in what I just said.
“You’re f*cking scaring me. You’re keeping shit from me and you think you can just act like an insane lunatic when I say something that doesn’t hit you just right. Have you ever thought you might need to listen to what I’m saying?” I don’t listen to another word from her, because she can’t speak through the connection of my mouth on hers. I pull her against me with a desire to both shut her up and apologize for acting like I have. She pushes against me, so I stop instantly.
We both stare into each other’s eyes for a few seconds, our breathing continues to be heavily weighted and I know my mind is all over the place wondering where hers is.
She finally wraps her hands around my neck, pulls me in and aggressively kisses me. It ignites a fire within me that has been stale for far too long. I need her right now. Leaning down just slightly, I lift her so that she’s in my arms with her legs around my waist. She continues to kiss me with a hunger and passion that I’ve missed so much from her. This is my Jade. The woman I first fell for in the desert.
“I’m going to f*ck you Jade. I’m not going to think about one f*cking thing until I’m done with you.” I lean her against the front of my Jeep and sit her on the bull bar before I lift her shirt off of her. This bar makes her perfectly aligned with me and I moan in anticipation of burying myself deep inside of her.
“I’ve told you once before not to f*cking walk away from me. We stand together and f*cking face the issue head on.” I speak close to her lips and watch her take me in. I’ve got to her, just like she’s got to me. I’ve never had the intensity I have with her.
She doesn’t say another word as she slides her pants off and welcomes my hold on her body as I enter her swiftly. We both adjust with the forcefulness of my thrusts and she grips tight to my body while I hold her close. Two people couldn’t be closer than we are right now. This position allows for me to be incredibly deep and it helps that she’s practically climbing my body trying to get closer.
I feel her nails scrape across my back while I continue to f*ck her in ways I’ve missed more than I knew. This is the fire I’ve missed between us. Her passionate kiss causes so many emotions to explode as I transform from a man who’s f*cking because he’s pissed, to a man who can’t get enough of the woman in his arms.
“Fuck, Jade. I love how you feel.” I stop moving to cherish her in this moment. The night sky is dark all around us, and the sound of cars in the distance. The warmth of the engine making this all even hotter than it usually is between us. I’m sweating my ass off while I continue to fulfill my need of her.
“Please. Don’t stop.” She moves into my arms and holds herself up with hers around my neck. I grab her hips and slide her easily on and off of me at a fast pace until I’m releasing into her. She follows shortly after. “It’s so hot inside.” Her words are interrupted as she finishes her orgasm in my arms.
She’s so f*cking beautiful and I know right now in this moment, I can’t let anything happen to her. She’s too important for me to risk in any way.
The road leading to her apartment approaches quickly, I’m glad we didn’t continue to drive while I was pissed off. These corners would’ve been a bitch.
“Kaleb.” Jade whispers as she meets me in the front of the Jeep once I get out. We didn’t actually accomplish anything before we f*cked on that dirt road. I know there’s still a conversation to be had and I dread every second of it.
She splays her hands wide across my chest while I feel the beating of my heart in my head. I knew she was going to be pissed and act all crazy before. I knew she’d start demanding information wanting to know what the hell is going on, but never in my life did I think she would say something to hurt me. My only focus is keeping her safe, why the f*ck would she need protection from me?
“Let's go inside, Jade.” She lifts her hands off my chest and moves to the side. I pass her by, stepping into her house. I drop the bags to the floor and hit the light in a robot motion before I run my hands over my face in frustration, trying to decide how to handle this conversation. I’m still so damned pissed I can hardly form a sentence, and somehow I need this stubborn, gorgeous woman to know I love her with everything in me, but I will not sacrifice her safety on a mission like this. My brother is a monster and would love nothing more than use ammunition like her against me.
I look into her eyes and try like everything to say something that could possibly touch the surface of explaining my love for her. She has me completely choked and I can’t speak around the chaos going through my mind. I grab my bag and start walking to the bathroom, hoping a f*cking shower will calm me enough to talk to her.
Her voice stops me in my tracks when what she says crashes up against my chest like a roaring wave slamming into you out of nowhere. She’s speaking incredibly softly, talking so tenderly through her own restricted voice, and just knowing she’s struggling hits my heart instantly.
“I’m sorry. It’s just… do you have any idea what ran through my mind when I saw them drag you away from me? I crumbled, Kaleb. I told you one of the days at the hospital how I went ballistic and held a gun to Harris’ head. I wasn’t in the right state of mind. All I could think about was you and how much I’ve fallen in love with you. I thought my life was going according to plan when all along my plan was you. I was waiting for you. I used to be as hard on the inside as I am on the outside, and in ways I still am, but not with you. I’m weak when it comes to you, Kaleb. I’m weak because you make me crazy and the thought of ever losing you terrifies me. You make me happy and I don’t ever want to lose… “