Everland by Wendy Spinale
Outside my window, plumes of gray smoke and steam rise from the decimated city into the polluted midnight sky. There they linger like ghosts of those who once walked the streets of London before the arrival of the Marauders. I briefly wonder what life was like before the German monarch’s reign began and the world was without steam power.
In the distance, the faint glow of kerosene lanterns illuminates the remains of the city I once called home, daring me to venture beyond the safety of our dusty hideout above an old furniture warehouse. My heart aches to return to the house in which all of my childhood memories were made, but there is nothing left of it. Taking in a breath, I swing my legs through the broken window and onto the rusty fire escape, answering the city’s quiet call.
“Where do you think you’re going?” Her accusing whisper startles me.
Looking over my shoulder, I find my twelve-year-old sister, Joanna. She stares at me with reproachful eyes, her arms folded across her chest. Her small face scowls, reminding me of the look my mother used to give me after I had been caught doing something wrong. Now all that remains of my mother is my sister’s uncanny resemblance to her: corkscrew curls, a turned-up nose, and high cheekbones.
“We’re almost out of rice and are down to a few liters of water,” I say, adjusting the leather straps on my rucksack. “I’m heading out to scavenge. I won’t be gone long.”
“Gwen, the Marauders are patrolling closer,” she says, pointing out the window. A zeppelin flies low, skirting the rooftops of the mangled buildings in the distance. The city’s lamplight casts a golden glow on its wooden hull. Even from here I can hear the whir of its engines and propellers. “It’s too dangerous.”
“I know,” I say with a sigh. “It’s time to move again. We should probably head north toward Cambridge. There is not much left this far outside of the city anyway. We’ll pack up and leave in the morning, but I have to find something for us to eat.”
Joanna reaches toward a shelf. She grabs an aluminum pot, turns it over, and places it on her head. Under the window’s ledge, she pulls out her chest armor, made of two cookie sheets held together with copper wire. My sister slips the armor over her head. “I’m coming with you.”
“Not this time, Joanna.” I place her makeshift helmet back on the shelf. Tilting her chin, our eyes meet. “You need to look after Mikey. He’s been having night terrors again.”
Joanna squints. “You know Mum and Dad wouldn’t approve of this.”
This again? I’ve lost count how many times Joanna has used our parents to try to stop me from venturing out alone. “We’re not going to discuss this.”
“You know I’m right,” she says with defiance.
Impatience wells up inside me and my words spill out harsher than I intend. “Mum and Dad are gone. I’m the oldest. I’m in charge now. We’ve been through this a hundred times.”
Joanna jerks her chin from my grip. “You don’t know that for sure. They could still be out there waiting for us,” she says, waving a hand toward the window.
“It’s been a year since the invasion. If they were alive, they would have come for us. They are not waiting, nor are they coming back,” I say, trying to keep my voice calm but not succeeding. “Our parents are dead.”
Joanna is quiet, the sting of my words evident as her bottom lip quivers. She stares at her small bare feet and twirls the copper-button bracelet on her wrist. The military insignia on each button is worn. They once lined the lapel of one of our father’s uniforms. It is the only token my sister has left of him. Instinctively, I reach for my father’s military tags around my neck, comforted by the keepsake he left me.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean …,” I say, silently berating myself. After a year of caring for my siblings, my temper has become increasingly short. It seems to take so little to set me off lately. I try to pull her into a hug, but she recoils, unwilling to meet my gaze.
“You’ve changed,” Joanna says, her words hot and bitter. “You’re not the same. You promised, Gwen. What happened to our Sister Pact?”
Visions of our early childhood wash over me like an unexpected storm on a clear day. Dozens of stinging raindrops, each carrying a memory, invade my thoughts. Nights of sneaking from my bed and into hers to tell her stories of fairies, pirates, and mermaids. Pinkie-sworn promises to never grow up. Promises I couldn’t keep.
“That was then, this is now.” My voice is too loud, I warn myself, but I cannot contain the frustration bubbling inside me like an unattended pot of water over an open fire. “Do you think I like this any better than you do? Do you think I enjoy being the responsible one taking care of you and Mikey? I would give anything, anything at all, to have my life back, to have just one more day being a child and not your guardian. Look!” I point toward the city’s blackened remains, a boneyard landscape of fragmented buildings. “London is gone! And by the fact that no one has come to England’s aid, I think it’s safe to assume the aftermath of the invasion has extended beyond the country’s borders. It’s time to face reality: There are no more private schools or fancy parties.” My words spill too quick and harsh from my lips, but I can’t stop them. “No more ballet or equestrian lessons. Our parents are gone. We are trying to survive, and this is not a childhood game or make-believe. This is real life. It’s time to grow up.”