Dear Aaron(45)

RubyMars: I’m sorry, Aaron.

RubyMars: If there’s something I can do or say, tell me.

AHall80: I will.

AHall80: Tell me something AHall80: Anything RubyMars: That’s not broad. :) RubyMars: I gave my sister her dress.

AHall80: Send a picture.

AHall80: What’d she say or do?

RubyMars: I took it to her room when we were home alone and gave it to her. She stared at it for a long time, and I really thought she was going to cry, but then she hugged me and told me thank you.

RubyMars: Today I walked by her room and found her sitting on the edge of her bed, kind of staring off into space. Hopefully she’s thinking about going to skate, but who knows.

RubyMars: I’ll send you a picture right now. I think it’s my best one yet.

RubyMars: But…

RubyMars: I don’t know if she’ll actually fit into it if she tries putting it on. I used her measurements from when she was training regularly.

AHall80: Maybe it’ll motivate her to get back into it.

AHall80: Wow. I just opened the attachment. Did you do a rainbow pattern?

RubyMars: Yes :). I thought about doing more of a red theme, like a phoenix coming back from its ashes, but the rainbow just popped out at me. It’s not as depressing either. She lost, she didn’t die. I wanted it to look like she was rising up, or evolving. Like it’s more about living your life than death.

RubyMars: I don’t know if that makes sense, but… maybe I overthought it.

AHall80: I get it. A phoenix is more about the rebirth. You were thinking more of the life afterward.

RubyMars: Yes! Exactly!

AHall80: I can see the little wing-like things you did. Wow. Really, Ruby. Wow.

AHall80: If she doesn’t wear that, you should give it to someone who will. That doesn’t deserve to go into a closet.

RubyMars: Thank you.

AHall80: Have you heard from that guy?

RubyMars: Which one?

RubyMars: ^^ the first and only time I’ve ever sounded like a player.

AHall80: The younger one

RubyMars: He sent me a message a few weeks ago, but I’d already kind of snuck in that I didn’t want to waste his time anymore.

AHall80: Good girl

RubyMars: :) AHall80: I need to go. I’ll msg you soon.

RubyMars: Okay. Bye bye. Be safe.

AHall80: You too, RC.



April 21, 2009

AHall80: Tell me something good that happened to you.

RubyMars: Hello to you.

RubyMars: I quit my job today.

AHall80: ….

AHall80: For real?

RubyMars: For real.

AHall80: What happened?

RubyMars: I snapped. I went into the shop to talk to my aunt about a change she wanted to make to a dress, and she started saying some really mean things to me…. I stood there wanting to cry. I didn’t, which I deserve an award for, but I wanted to. Then she said something about how she could find someone as good as me for less money and it got me thinking about you, and I just told her I quit.

AHall80: What did she say?

RubyMars: She said I was lucky I was related to her or she would’ve fired me a long time ago, how my work was substandard, that my family had babied me for too long, and that I wasn’t sixteen anymore and I needed to grow up… just a bunch of crap.

AHall80: ….

RubyMars: No one has ever talked to me like that before. It really hurt my feelings.

RubyMars: I probably sound like a baby saying that, but who cares. I don’t want to lie to you and make it seem like I laughed in her face or anything. I wish I would have.

AHall80: You don’t sound like a baby, Rubes. Your aunt sounds like a witch, and I don’t mean that with a W. She sounds like an unhappy person.

RubyMars: She is mean and unhappy. Her husband cheats on her all the time. I feel bad for her, but I don’t get why she takes it out on me and everyone else.

AHall80: Cheating on her or not, that pisses me off.

AHall80: A lot

AHall80: You quit for sure?

RubyMars: Yeah. My hands started getting sweaty and I wanted to throw up and my heart started beating really fast, but I quit. That’s how I told her, “I quit.”

RubyMars: Part of me regrets not making more of a spectacle of it. Like flicking her off or saying something really good like “You’ll never find someone better than me” or “You’ll regret this” or shoving a mannequin over when I walked out.

RubyMars: Oh well.

RubyMars: I’m trying to make a joke about this so I don’t throw up.

RubyMars: It’s not helping that much.

AHall80: Oh Ruby.

AHall80: I’m laughing at you and I feel for you at the same time.

AHall80: Don’t throw up.

RubyMars: I don’t have a job anymore, Aaron.

AHall80: You have a job. Your stuff you do on your own.

AHall80: You had to quit. You know that.

RubyMars: I know.

AHall80: You couldn’t work there forever. You didn’t even like making those dresses, did you?

RubyMars: No…

AHall80: And she paid you shitty, didn’t she?

RubyMars: Yes…

AHall80: Then what’s the problem?

RubyMars: I’m just scared. I’ve never not had a job, and now in less than two months, I’ve lost both of them.