Dear Aaron(44)

RubyMars: Yeah. I’ve known that guy for a while. They were roommates before he moved in with his boyfriend. He’s nice.

AHall80: You said the other guy was nice

RubyMars: I think you’re nice, too.

AHall80: You know what I mean

RubyMars: I do. But this guy really is nice. Like you. He was always pretty sweet to me but never said or did anything about it. I was over at my brother’s place for his boyfriend’s birthday and that guy asked me out.

RubyMars: He’s really hot and that makes me nervous, but if I wait around to meet someone who doesn’t make me feel awkward, I’m going to be in adult diapers.

RubyMars: I don’t know why I told you he’s hot. I’m sorry. Like you care or want to hear that.

AHall80: You can tell me whatever AHall80: Where’s he taking you?

RubyMars: I don’t know. He said he’d call me on Thursday so we can go out Friday.

AHall80: Why is he waiting to call you all week?

RubyMars: ….

RubyMars: He’s going on dates with other people, isn’t he?

AHall80: I don’t know, but…

RubyMars: It’s fine. I don’t have any expectations. It’s not like I’m in love with him or anything. I’m just trying to get out there and get some experience.

AHall80: I shouldn’t have said that, Ruby. I’m sorry. Maybe he’s busy.

RubyMars: Maybe.

AHall80: Look, I got to go, but I’m sorry for saying that.

RubyMars: You didn’t do anything. It’s okay. Be safe.





April 18, 2009

AHall80: Hey

RubyMars: Hey stalker.

AHall80: How was your date?

RubyMars: Awful.

AHall80: Awful how?

AHall80: Did he do something?

RubyMars: No. He brought up the other guy.

AHall80: The one who led you on?

RubyMars: Yes. We were in the middle of eating at this place that was way too fancy and made me uncomfortable when he said, “I was waiting to ask you out.” No biggie, right? I said, “Really?” He goes, “Yes. I wanted to give you some time to get over Hunter.”

RubyMars: I wanted to throw up, Aaron. I lost my appetite, and I don’t ever lose my appetite unless I’m dying from pneumonia.

AHall80: Hunter is the guy?

RubyMars: Yes.

AHall80: Shit

RubyMars: Yeah. My thoughts exactly.

RubyMars: Everyone knew! Everyone!

RubyMars: It was one thing to know my family was aware of it, but for my brother’s friends to know too… I’m such an idiot. I could tell he knew I wanted to throw up because he immediately started backpedaling. I told him it was fine, but I wasn’t fine. I was mad at myself.

RubyMars: I’m so stupid.

AHall80: You didn’t do anything wrong.

RubyMars: I did. I could’ve handled that different. I could’ve gotten over him years ago and moved on with my life, but no… not me.

RubyMars: I’m an idiot.

AHall80: You’re not an idiot AHall80: Everyone has liked someone who didn’t like them back at some point, Ruby.

AHall80: You know that. Everybody.

RubyMars: But not for years like a complete moron.

RubyMars: I…

RubyMars: UGH

RubyMars: Here was this guy who liked me and I had no idea because I’d been goo goo gaa gaa for someone who wasn’t interested in me for half my life like a jackass.

AHall80: You’re not a jackass.

AHall80: You like this guy?

RubyMars: I wouldn’t say I “like” him. I’ve never really thought about it much. He’s nice and he’s not hard to look at.

RubyMars: I tried not to act different the rest of the date, but I know he could tell I was pissed off and embarrassed.

AHall80: You didn’t do anything wrong, remember that.

RubyMars: I’ll try…

RubyMars: Still. Did everyone in the entire world know I was hung up on him? I wanted to crawl into a hole of pathetic and never come out.

AHall80: You aren’t pathetic.

AHall80: You’re over him now and you can move on, right?

RubyMars: Right.

AHall80: Chill.

RubyMars: Easier said than done. I never really thought I was this prideful, but I guess I am.

AHall80: You’re good. It’s one guy.

AHall80: Relax RubyMars: Fine.

AHall80: I thought your sister was the sore loser in the family?

RubyMars: Har har har

RubyMars: I don’t want to talk about it anymore.

RubyMars: Anyway, how are you?

AHall80: Fine

AHall80: I’m dropping it too

AHall80: The stress is high. Everyone’s itching to get out of here. Same old shit.

RubyMars: :) RubyMars: That’s better than crazy stuff happening, right?

AHall80: Yes and no.

AHall80: I don’t need to be complaining.

RubyMars: I’ll change the subject.

RubyMars: Have you heard anything else about your sister and that piece of crap?

AHall80: My dad e-mailed me and said Paige is fine and acting more like herself than she had been. He said he hadn’t noticed she’d been acting strange until now that she’s not.

AHall80: Knowing my dad, he feels like he failed her, but he won’t say anything about it.