Bender (The Core Four #1)(79)

I flexed my hand, pain running up my arm. “You should have told me.”

“I know.”

“No, I don’t think you do. You should have told me.” I tried my hardest to emphasize that statement.

“Keegan,” He tipped my chin up. “I know,” he said looking me straight in the eyes.

My vision clouded over and tears welled up. His face softened, and he could see that I was about to break down. Instead of me doing it in front of Bree and Dodger, he gently picked me up and carried me upstairs. Taking me into the bathroom he set me down on the counter and went to the faucet to start the shower. Coming back over to me, he lifted the hem of my shirt, raising it over my head and tossing it aside. He tugged off my shoes and socks and gasped when he saw my swollen ankle. His eyes shifted to mine, and I simply shrugged.

Shaking his head he said, “When you kick ass you don’t just beat up what’s in front of you, you do a number on yourself too. Jesus, look at your toes, they’re red.”

Sniffling I told him, “I was imagining it was your face.”

He smirked. “Nice, but seriously, I’m going to have to teach you how to throw a punch. You could have broken your hand hitting the way that you were. And so you know, we’re going to have to talk about my car too. I’m not going to just forget about it or sweep it under the rug.”

Sighing I told him, “Whatever. I’ll give you money to fix it when you find out how much it costs.”

Camden mashed his teeth together. “No, you won’t. But that’s not what I’m concerned about. Blue, I’ve never seen you so worked up over something, and I’m not sure how I feel that you went haywire on my vehicle instead of approaching me at the restaurant.”

I closed my mouth, refusing to give him an answer when I didn’t even have one myself. Helping me down from the counter, he quickly stripped his clothes off, and we climbed into the shower. The heat on my skin made me hiss. The pain was overwhelming and my head wouldn’t let go of the fact that he hid something that was important from me.

“I looked at your phone,” I announced.

“What?”

I met the brown of his eyes. “Earlier, I saw the texts while you were in the shower. That’s how I knew where you’d be.”

He regarded me for a moment before he said, “I’d like to say I’m upset about that but, I’m not.”

“You should be.”

“Why?”

“Because Camden, it was an invasion of your privacy, and I had no right going through your things. If I had a question, I should have come to you, and talked to you about it.”

“I’m not saying I appreciate you doing it, but I’m not angry with you for it. I should have told you about Bree right from the start.”

“Yes, you should have, but stop giving me the easy out, it’s pissing me off!”

He ran his hands through his damp hair causing it to stick up every which way. “What do you what me to do, huh? Yell at you, scream at you, tell you that you obviously don’t trust me? Because I’m not going to do that. Keegan, what was your gut telling you?” I looked down. “No, you don’t get to close up on me. What did your gut tell you?”

My breathing had picked up, and I clenched my fists despite the pain. “It told me that you were hiding something, okay? That’s why I looked.”

“And is that something that you normally would’ve done?”

“No.”

“Then I’m not mad at you for it.”

“Argh!” I threw my hands up in the air. “That’s partially why this is all so fucked up.” I turned away from him and faced the showerhead. The spray was beating down on me, and I closed my eyes while I let the water wash over my body. He remained quiet, letting me work out whatever was in my head on my own. “I lost it today, completely lost it. I’ve never felt so out of control before in my life. Do you know what that feels like?” My words came out as barely a whisper.

I heard him breathing behind me. “Yes.”

“I don’t even know how to make sense of what’s going on in my head. Camden, until today, I didn’t realize how much you have come to mean to me, how much I really care for you.”

“Keegan, believe me I know.”

I shook my head again, turning around to face him and wiped away the water that was mixing with my tears. “No, I don’t think you do. Until today I’d pushed aside any feelings that were more than just ‘like’. I thought that if I didn’t allow myself to feel how I really do, it wouldn’t affect me. Ignorance is bliss, right? But then I saw you. I thought I was seeing you with another girl, and it broke me. I couldn’t stomach the idea of it but that’s when it happened.”

His eyebrows etched together and he was solely focused on me. “What happened?”

Swallowing hard and threw my cards on the table. “I realized that I am head over heels in love with you, Camden. I know I shouldn’t be. And that you’re not the type to have a serious relationship like that. To tell you truthfully, I don’t even know how long I’ve actually been feeling like this, but now I’m aware, and I don’t think I can ignore it. I’ve let you put yourself in every little crevice of my heart, and I couldn’t stop this even if I tried.”