Monster Island(32)

Bodies-hundreds of bodies-in an advanced state of decay, clogging up the sidewalks and slumped at random over the abandoned cars. Putrefying flesh lay in heaps under the mid-morning sun, not all of it recognizably human anymore.

Jesus,Gary thought. Had he really done all this damage himself?

These weren’t like the undead he’d seen before. These were just… rotting meat, yellow bones pointing out of deliquescing flesh with the consistency of runny cheese.

Something stirred in the Square to the north and he dodged behind a Jeep, not wanting to get shot in the head again. He needn’t have worried, though. It was one of the dead. A dead woman in a print dress stained with old blood and darker fluids. She came closer, waddling as if she couldn’t bend at the knees and he saw she was badly damaged. Most of the skin was gone from her face and a clump of maggots perched in the hollow of her clavicles like a writhing scarf. Good god, how could she let that happen? Disgusting as they might be the maggots werealive. They could have given her the energy to repair her body. Instead they were feeding onher.

Two others appeared behind her, both of them men. They too had seen better days. The walking dead of New York tended to have a few wounds on their bodies, sure, and maybe their skin tone was a shade paler and bluer than necessary-Gary thought furthermore of the dead veins that lined his own face-but never had they let themselves go this badly. One of these newcomers had no nose at all, just a dark invertedV in the middle of his face. The other had lost his eyelids so he seemed to be constantly staring in horrified wonder.

Garyreached out across the network of death that connected him to these shambling messes. The effort made his brain wriggle in his head and a searing white pain flashed down his back but the contact was made. He could feel the dark energy fuming out of these wretches and he understood a little of what must have happened. In his desperation he had sucked the energy out of the crowd around the megastore to save his own unlife and in the process had accelerated the decay of his victims. In the new order of things the dead ate the living in a vain attempt to prop up their own sagging existence, to fuel their unlife. Gary had undone all that striving and hard work and now the rotting piles of corpses outside looked like they had been dead all along, dead and decomposing since the Epidemic began. There was no cheating death,Gary realized, only delaying it-and when it finally caught up it did so with a vengeance.

The noseless one reached out and touchedGary ’s face with an unfeeling hand. The fingers draped lifelessly across his cheek.Gary didn’t flinch. How could he? There was no malice in the gesture. It had all the emotional resonance of a muscular twitch.

Most of the undead had lost the battle with death whenGary stole their essence. Those few strong enough to survive were left with only the barest tatters of energy remaining. Hence the broken and rigid undead he saw before him. Perhaps worse than their physical condition was their mental state. He had stolen from them the remnant of intellect that kept them hunting for food. Their hunger remained-he could feel it yawning inside of them, burning more fiercely than ever-but he had stolen from them the knowledge (no matter how vestigial) of how to slake it. He had taken what little mind they had so now they no longer remembered how toeat. They could only wander aimlessly as their bodies fell to pieces.

Garyfelt no guilt. It had been necessary. He had been dying for a second and final time and only their stolen energy had been able to keep his consciousness going. Why, then, did he identify so strongly with them, why did he feel so much empathy? He was tied to them, he realized. He was one of them. He was part of the network of death. His ability to reach out and steal their energy defined him. There was no real line of division, no watershed between himself and these near-lifeless hulks that wobbled without purpose up and downFourteenth street. If he missed a few meals, if he didn’t keep feeding himself he would become just like them.

He sank to his knees with the realization of his true nature. The ravaged dead came, drawn by some flickering instinct to gather together, and stood around him until their corrupted faces swam in his vision. They did not frighten him anymore.

He was undead. He was one of them. As their hands reached for him he knew they weren’t attacking him-they no longer possessed the brainpower necessary for aggression. They were reaching for him as a gesture of solidarity. They knew what he was.

Garywas a monster, too.

The dead man with no eyelids stared at him with an openness, an innocence thatGary was astounded he'd never seen before. There was no evil there, no horror. Just simple need. Their faces were no more than inches away from each other.Gary leaned his head forward and touched his forehead to the slack, papery skin of the other’s cheek.