Yolk(79)

“They remade it here,” says Mom, unblinking. June shoots me a look. We’re always surprised when Mom actually listens. “Masked singer,” she says in English, without tearing her eyes from the screen. She does this sometimes. Defies the version of her in our minds. Like senior year when I discovered she had strong opinions of the Spurs starting lineup.

A cat face sings “Memory” with its head hitched at an unnerving angle, as if its neck is broken. It’s made only more creepy by the rich male voice and the slim-cut red suit on the body below.

The camera cuts to a close-up of a young woman in the audience swooning.

“This is why you never got into K-dramas,” June says to me. “You’ve been watching boomer TV. Your Korean would be so much better if you got into it. It’s passive learning.” She turns her pillow longway, as if there’s a more comfortable angle on a literal block of wood on your skull.

“Um, excuse me, you only ever watch Gilmore Girls,” I retort.

“First of all, it’s because my Korean compared to yours is incredible. Second of all…” She sits up for this part. “Two words: Lane Kim.” Satisfaction lands on her face like a gavel thwack. “And don’t you talk about Lorelai and Rory like that. Pull it together. And Sookie. Also, Jess.”

“Lane’s Mom is sus, though.”

“That Mom had a lot of disappointments in her life,” she says, lying back down. “You can tell she’s seen shit. Show some respect.”

Dad changes the channel again. Now it’s a supercut of sons returning home from the military and bursting into tears as their mothers alternately leap and collapse into their arms. The classical piano music swells without release.

That gets us both right in our feelings.

I think about the YouTube video of Danny Song’s return to the states after he did his two years. I wept openly. That one hit different since he was Korean American. Still, I hear my sister clear her throat discreetly as Mom switches the channel over to the CCTV that monitors the restaurant.

“How many times do I have to ask Cherry not to wear white sneakers?” Mom tsks to the screen at the unsuspecting waitress, who can’t hear her.

She scans the grid of images and enlarges selectively.

The aerial view of the front of the restaurant by the hostess stand is full of people waiting. Dad straightens up, alert. Mom quickly clicks through to the main floor of the restaurant. Then the view of the booths to the side.

“It’s building,” says Mom.

Dad’s already on his feet and pulling on his puffer vest.

Quick as a flash Mom starts brushing her teeth, kicking off her house shoes, and returning to the TV as if anything’s changed in the last fifteen seconds.

Honestly, you’d think they were firefighters.

June’s sat up to watch them.

They’re ready in less than two minutes. “Don’t wait up,” says Mom, not even looking back at us. Dad’s already in the car because I can hear the garage door opening.

I don’t believe them. I look over at my sister to see if she’s disappointed that they’ve abandoned us on our last night.

She takes the remote and shuts off the TV.

The silence bears down on my shoulders.

Other families would have a special activity planned. They’d watch a movie together with a big bowl of popcorn. They’d talk to each other. “Why are they like this?”

“Like what?” She gets up on the leather couch, lies down, and stretches out extravagantly.

“They just left.”

June yawns. Irritation charges through my spine. She only doesn’t care because I care.

I get up and sit right on her legs. “Aren’t you mad?” She squirms beneath me. “They could have done this any other night,” I continue. “Like, any night that we’re not here.”

Instead of shoving me off, June pats my back. “People aren’t abandoning you just because they go.”

“Whatever.”

I stomp upstairs, washing my face to go to bed. The room’s stifling. It feels as though the carpeting’s heating up the memory foam of the fold-out mattress. I can’t tell if it’s hotter down here or cooler since heat rises. I’m fuming. Livid at June’s patronizing tone, pissed that our parents are so insensitive that they can’t tell when something is so obviously amiss.

There’s a glow-in-the-dark plastic Virgin Mary, a holdover from the eighties, about the size of a G.I. Joe action figure, presiding over us from the bureau. A dim, judgy night-light.

“Hey.” June pushes the door open.

I ignore her.

“You literally went to bed a second ago,” she says.

I still don’t open my eyes.

“Jayne.”

“Jesus, what?” I kick the covers off.

“I’m sorry, are you busy?” I can hear the amusement in her voice.

Finally, I sit up. “What do you want?”

June stands in the doorway, backed by the hall light, and I can’t see her face. She turns and walks away.

“June?”

I hear the stairs creak. It reminds me of when she used to run ahead, hide, and jump out to scare me as revenge for following her around the house. And how, later, when she was in high school and I was in eighth grade, she’d call me in the middle of the day and bark, “What?” making me think I’d called her. It takes every ounce of restraint not to see where she went.