The Truth About Forever(53)

"Hey." A man's voice came from behind the wheel. After all the brightness, I couldn't make out his face. "You kids need a ride someplace? What you doing out here?"

"Ran out of gas," Wes told him. "Where's the nearest station?"

The man jerked his thumb in the opposite direction. "About three miles that way. Where'd you break down?"

"About two miles that way," Wes told him.

"Well, get in then," he said, reaching to unlock the back door. "I'll run you up there. You about scared me to death, though, walking out here in the dark. Thought you were deer or something."

Wes pulled open the door for me, holding it as I climbed in, then sliding in beside me. The car smelled like cigar smoke and motor oil, and as the man began to drive I could make out his profile: he had white hair and a crook nose, and drove slowly, almost as slowly as Bert. It was amazing we hadn't seen him coming. He'd just appeared, as if he'd dropped out of the sky or something.

As I leaned back against the seat, my heart felt like it was shaking: I couldn't believe what I'd just done. There was no way to take the story back, folding it neatly into the place I'd kept it all this time. No matter what else happened, from here on out, I would always remember Wes, because with this telling, he'd become part of that story, of my story, too.

"That you?" the man asked, glancing back at us in the rearview mirror as we passed the Wish van.

"Yes, sir," Wes replied.

"Well, you had no way to know, I guess," he said, and I wasn't sure what he meant until about a minute later, when we crested a hill, took a corner, and there was a gas station, all lit up. The neon sign in the window said, almost cheerfully, open. "Had no idea how close you were."

"No," Wes said. "I guess we didn't."

As we pulled up to the station I turned to look at him, to say something, but he was already pushing open the door and getting out of the car, walking around to the trunk, where the man had a gas can. I sat there, the fluorescent light flickering overhead, as the man went inside to buy cigarettes and Wes pumped gas, his back to me, eyes on the numbers as they clicked higher and higher.

I turned my head and saw he was looking at me. In this, my first true glimpse of his face in over an hour, I braced myself for what I might see. After all, with Jason, anytime I'd opened up, he'd pulled back. I was prepared, even expecting it to happen again.

But as I looked at Wes, I saw only those same familiar features, even more so now, that same half-smile. He motioned for me to roll down the window.

"Hey," he said.

"Hey."

I waited. What came next? I wondered. What words would he say to try and make this better? "I thought of one," he said.

For a second, I just blinked at him. "What?"

"Iceberg lettuce," he said. Then he added, quickly, "And don't say it's not a food, because it is. I'm willing to fight you on it."

I smiled. "No fight," I told him. "It's a keeper."

The pump stopped then, and he hung the hose back up, screwing the top on the gas can. "Need anything?" he asked, and when I shook my head, he started toward the store.

I heard a buzzing under my feet: my phone. I unzipped my purse and pulled it out, hitting the Talk button as I raised it to my ear. "Hel—"

"Where are you?" Kristy demanded. I could hear party noises behind her, music and loud voices. "Do you know how worried we are? Monica's about sick, she's almost inconsolable—"

"We ran out of gas," I told her, switching the phone to my other ear. "I left you a message. We were stuck out in the middle of nowhere."

"Message? I didn't get any—" A pause as, presumably, she actually checked for the first time. "Oh. Well. God! Where are you? Are you okay?"

"We're fine. We got a ride and we're getting gas for the van right now."

"Well, thank goodness." I heard her cover up the phone and relay this information to Monica, who, upset or not, I imagined would receive it with her same flat, bored expression. Then Kristy came back on. "Look, I gotta tell you, if I were you guys, I'd just go straight home. This party is a bust. And I was totally misled. There are nothing but ordinary boys here."

I turned and looked into the gas station, where Wes was now paying, as the man who'd driven us looked on. "That's too bad," I said.

"It's okay, though," she assured me. "Someday I'll show you an extraordinary boy, Macy. They do exist. You just have to believe me."

"Don't worry," I said. "I do."





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Chapter Ten





My mother was stressed.

Truthfully, my mother was always stressed. I couldn't remember the last time I'd seen her actually relax and sit still in a way that made it obvious she wasn't already thinking about the next six things she had to do, and maybe the six after that. Once, she'd been a pro at decompressing, loved to sit on the back deck of the beach house in one of our splintery Adirondack chairs for hours at a time, staring at the ocean. She never had a book or the paper or anything else to distract her. Just the horizon, but it kept her attention, her gaze unwavering. Maybe it was the absence of thought that she loved about being out there, the world narrowing to just the pounding of the waves as the water moved in and out.