The Leaving(48)

He presented the book to Daniel, who took it, curiously.

This all felt very wrong—him so interested, them so deceitful—but there wasn’t much to be done about it.

“What’s this?” Daniel asked.


She was shouting into that abyss now.


Hands cupped to her mouth:


“Noooooooooooooooooo!”


The sound of it echoing back to her.

“It’s a novel,” she said, hearing an edge of annoyance. “You wrote it.”

“I did?” Now he reached into his front shirt pocket for glasses, put them on, and looked at the book with new interest.

“You did.” Hands turned to fists in her lap.

His lips moved as he read the description. “Sounds hinky,” he said. “Is it any good?”

“It is!” Lucas said.

“Did it make me rich?” Daniel smiled.

“I don’t think so.” Lucas laughed and gave her a pleading look.

His condition:

Alzheimer’s.

Of course.

Scarlett softened her voice when she said, “We were hoping you’d be able to tell us about the book. You know, where you got the idea from, that kind of thing.”

Daniel looked out toward the water, like he was trying very hard to spot an answer—a memory—on the horizon.

Then after a long moment, during which Scarlett followed his gaze, maybe hoping she could find it for him— or at least find a memory of her own—

he turned back to them, reset.

“Well, I like to read. Thanks very much for the recommendation.” He smiled. “Tell me how I know you again? You’re from the lab?”


It was hard to not be disappointed.

crushed.



“No,” Scarlett said. “What are the folks at the lab like?”

Maybe the lab was where they’d been.

Maybe the lab was a clue.

“Oh, they’re fine. They’re, you know, trying to help me remember.” Daniel looked sad then, like he had actually remembered something. Maybe just how much he’d forgotten.

Then he shrugged and said, “I figure if I forgot stuff it’s because I didn’t need to remember it. That’s what I think. I remember the important stuff.”

“What’s the important stuff ?” Scarlett asked.

“You mean you don’t know?” he asked in a whisper.



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Scarlett shook her head.

Really wanting to know.

Manatees.

I love you.

Not Lucas to her.

Luke.

Luke and Scar.

Needing to know.

Like, wanted to take him by the shoulders and shake him.

What is the important stuff ?

Daniel said only, “Well, you’re young. But when it happens, you’ll know it.” He turned to her, and the wind puffed his hair up, then let it fall again. “There will be stuff you can’t forget no matter if you tried.”

Still screaming into the abyss:




“Will you read that book?” Lucas asked. “And we’ll come back in a few days to talk about it. Maybe you can write down any thoughts you have about it?”

“You must mean this for the book club.” He went to give it back. “I’m not in the—”

“Please,” Scarlett said. “Read it? For me?”

He thumbed the pages. “I’ll give it a whirl.”

On the way out, she set out to find a restroom, peeking around doorways on a long hall.

A woman in one of the rooms saw her in the doorway and said “Oh, hello! Would you like to see my drawings?”

She wore a red blouse and pearls and ivory slacks and looked like maybe she was a visiting artist who did art therapy with patients.

Behind her hung a painting of a girl in a brown field, crawling up a hill toward an old house and a barn.

The girl’s positioning seemed . . . off.

Had she just been hobbled?

“Dear?” the woman said.

“I’d like to,” Scarlett said. “I just need to run to the restroom.”

There, she threw some water on her face.

Things you can’t forget no matter if you tried.

Things you can’t forget no matter if you tried.

Like how you should skip that last step.

And go back to Anchor Beach?


She returned to that doorway.

The woman looked up. “Oh, hello? Would you like to see my drawings?”

Scarlett was about to say “I just was here,” but . . .

. . . no.

Not a visiting artist.

A patient.

Regretting getting involved now, Scarlett felt she had no choice. “I’d love to.”

The drawings were swirls and color-blocks drawn in colored pencil.

They were happy and ordered.

Some like peacock’s feathers.

Others, like maps.

“I like them,” Scarlett said.

“Thanks.” The woman picked up an orange pencil, turned to a work in progress.

“I’m sorry, but I have to go,” Scarlett said. “My friend is waiting.”