State of Sorrow (Sorrow #1)(45)
Some of the tension left the room.
“An excellent suggestion.” Harun’s voice sounded thick. “We’ll eat here… If you don’t mind?” he added.
“Not at all,” Mael said graciously. “I bow to your expertise.”
“Excellent,” Harun said. And then he smiled.
It was a terrible sight, his thin, chapped lips gaping wide, exposing the damage to his teeth from years of neglect. He looked like a madman, the smile a frightening leer, and yet something inside Sorrow yawned open, some black hole, some cave – a lonely, dark place that she would always occupy. Harun had smiled for Mael. She was outside of this. She had always been outside.
“Where is Rasmus?” Vespus called then, the name catching her attention. “I’ll break my fast with him.”
Sorrow kept her eyes down as Charon replied. “Rasmus has left Rhannon. He resigned his position last night.”
“Why?” Vespus’s voice was laced with suspicion.
“That’s for him to say,” Charon replied. “He offered to resign, and I accepted.”
“Come,” Irris whispered to Sorrow, urging her to move, as Vespus began to ask Charon exactly what his son had said, and where he’d gone. “We’ll eat in my rooms. Father can join us there.” She ushered Sorrow past the Jedenvat, and her father. Mael gave her a small smile as she passed, but she couldn’t return the gesture. Instead she turned from him and strode away, as though it had been her decision to leave all along.
Harun and Mael were ensconced for hours. Breakfast, lunch, then finally supper came, and Mael remained locked away in the council room with Harun. To her surprise, Charon told Sorrow there was nothing they could do, so she might as well make the most of the palace. Hidden behind the high walls, Sorrow and Iris spent much of the afternoon wandering through the orchards and across vibrant green lawns, pointing out flowers to each other, avoiding any mention of Mael, Harun, Rasmus or what might be happening in the palace as they walked.
They sat on the edge of a fountain and kicked off their shoes, lowering their feet into the cool water, slapping gnats away when they tried to land on them. They pulled branches down towards them and plucked fruit from trees, wiping their sticky fingers on their skirts afterwards. When the sun reached its highest point, Shevela bought them sweet, tangy ices on sticks, and they sucked them as they lounged in the shade of the trees, staring up at an endlessly blue sky. The garden was home to a variety of bright-red-and-green bird with a wickedly curved beak, and they were awestruck when one landed a few feet away from them, regarding the girls curiously. When Sorrow whistled at it, it whistled the same tune back, to her and Irris’s delight.
It was idyllic, but it was an illusion; every time Sorrow glimpsed the palace through the foliage it cast a cloud on the day; she remembered everything that had happened, and might still happen inside it. Too soon the spell was broken, and they drifted back inside, to learn Harun and Mael had not yet emerged, and would not let anyone in.
Without planning to, everyone at the palace ended up dining together for their evening meal, Charon, Bayrum and Tuva sitting with Sorrow and Irris on one long banqueting table, and Balthasar, Kaspira and Samad opposite them on another. Sorrow had a mean stab of satisfaction on seeing Vespus’s irritation at being left out of whatever her father and the boy were doing. He sat with Aphora and Melakis at the far end of her table, and the three talked softly in Rhyllian. Sorrow didn’t miss the fact that every time the doors opened Vespus sat up straight, only to slump when it was a servant carrying more bread or water.
The hour grew late; servants walked the room, turning on the gas lamps on the walls, lighting citronella candles to keep away any insects that had snuck in. Everyone had lingered, again, that unspoken synergy that meant if one left, they’d be the last to know if – or when – anything changed. Charon was at a table alone, going through papers with a frown and scratching notes to himself. Bayrum and Tuva had dug out an old set of cards from somewhere and were trying to play a game, though neither seemed to remember the rules, bickering softly as they muddled through.
Aphora and Vespus stood in silence at the far end of the room, both holding back a curtain, seemingly staring out into the night, while Melakis remained seated alone.
Balthasar and his cohorts were clearly preparing to settle in for the night, summoning one of the servers to bring them a carafe of wine, and glasses. He kept glancing at Sorrow, sitting near the windows, not bothering to disguise his wrath, before turning back to the others and muttering, causing them to look at her too.
“Are your ears burning?” Irris asked her, cooling herself gently with a fan she’d fashioned out of a napkin. “Because mine are, and I’m sure I’m not who they’re speaking about.”
“I didn’t expect to see Balthasar here.”
“Neither did we. I would have thought after Alyssa’s death he’d have returned to their home to grieve.”
“Who told him?” Sorrow asked.
“I couldn’t say.” Irris shrugged.
“It should have been me, or at least your father. I should offer my condolences,” Sorrow said.
“I’m not sure that’s a good idea,” Irris warned. “He’ll take this out on you if he can.”
“It doesn’t matter. I was there. And I’m … I should have done it earlier.”