Graceling (Graceling Realm #1)(90)
At night Bitterblue sank immediately into an exhausted sleep, whimpering sometimes, as if she were having bad dreams. Katsa watched over her, and kept the fire alive. She pieced together slats of wood, and tried not to think of Po.
Tried and usually failed.
Her wounds were healing well. The smallest ones barely showed anymore, and even the largest had stopped losing blood after a few hours. They were no more than an irritation, though the bags she carried pulled on the cuts and the half-constructed snowshoes banged against them. Her shoulder and her breast protested a bit every time her hand flew to the quiver on her back, the quiver she’d fashioned with a bit of saddle leather. She would have scars on her shoulder and her breast, possibly on her thighs. But they would be the only marks the cat left on her body.
She would make some sort of halter next, when she was done with the snowshoes. In anticipation of carrying the child. Some arrangement of straps and ties, made from the horse’s gear, so that if she must carry Bitterblue, her arms would be free to use the bow. And perhaps a coat for herself, now that Bitterblue was warmer. A coat, from the next wolf or mountain lion they encountered.
And every night, with the fire stoked and her work done, and thoughts of Po so close she couldn’t escape them, she curled up against Bitterblue and gave herself a few hours’ sleep.
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When Katsa found that she was shivering herself to sleep at night, wrapping her own head and neck with furs, and stamping the numbness out of her feet, she thought they must be nearing Grella’s Pass. It couldn’t be much farther.
Because Grella’s Pass would be even colder than this; and Katsa didn’t believe the world could get much colder.
She became frightened for the child’s fingers and toes, and the skin of her face. She stopped often to massage Bitterblue’s fingers and her feet. The child wasn’t talking, and climbed numbly, wearily; but her mind was present. She nodded and shook her head in response to Katsa’s questions. She wrapped her arms around Katsa whenever Katsa lifted her or carried her. She cried, with relief, when their nightly fire warmed her. She cried from pain when Katsa woke her to the cold mornings.
They had to be close to Grella’s Pass. They had to, because Katsa wasn’t sure how much more of this the child could endure.
An ice storm erupted one morning as they trudged upward through trees and scrub. For the better part of the morning they were blind, heads bent into the wind, bodies battered by snow and ice. Katsa kept her arm around the child, as she always did during the storms, and followed her strong sense of direction upward and westward. And noticed, after some time, that the path grew less steep, and that she was no longer tripping over tree roots or mountain scrub. Her feet felt heavy, as if the snow had deepened and she must push her way through it.
When the storm lifted, as abruptly as it had begun, the landscape had changed. They stood at the base of a long, even, snow-covered slope, clear of vegetation, the wind catching ice crystals on its surface and dancing them up into the sky. Some distance ahead, two black crags towered to the left and right. The slope rose to pass between them.
The whiteness was blinding, the sky so close and so searingly blue that Bitterblue held her hand up to block her eyes. Grella’s Pass: No animals to fend off, no boulders or scrub to navigate. Only a simple rising length of clean snow for them to walk across, right over the mountain range and down into Sunder.
It almost looked peaceful.
A warning began to buzz, and then clamor, in Katsa’s mind. She watched the swirls of snow that whipped along the pass’s surface. For one thing, it would be a greater distance than it looked. For another, there would be no shelter from the wind. Nor would it be as smooth as it seemed from here, with the sun shining on it directly. And if it stormed, or rather, when it stormed, it would be weather befitting these mountaintops, where no living thing survived, and all that had any hope of lasting was rock or ice.
Katsa wiped away the snow that clung to the girl’s furs. She broke pieces of ice from the wrapping around Bitterblue’s face. She unslung the snowshoes from her back and stepped into them, wrapped the straps around her feet and ankles, and bound them tightly. She untangled the halter she’d constructed, and helped the child into it, one weary leg at a time. Bitterblue didn’t protest or ask for an explanation. She moved sluggishly. Katsa bent down, grabbed her chin, and looked into her eyes.
“Bitterblue,” she said. “Bitterblue. You must stay alert. I’ll carry you, but only because we have to move fast. You’ve got to stay awake. If I think you’re falling asleep, I’ll put you down and make you walk. Do you understand? I’ll make you walk, Princess, no matter how hard it is for you.”
“I’m tired,” the child whispered, and Katsa grabbed her shoulders and shook them.
“I don’t care if you’re tired. You’ll do what I tell you. You’ll put every ounce of strength into staying awake. Do you understand?”
“I don’t want to die,” Bitterblue said, and a tear seeped from her eye and froze on her eyelash. Katsa knelt and held the cold little bundle of girl close.
“You won’t die,” Katsa said. “I won’t let you die.” But it would take more than her own will to keep Bitterblue alive, and so she reached into her cloak and pulled out the water flask. “Drink this,” she said, “all of it.”
“It’s cold,” Bitterblue said.