Circle of Shadows (Circle of Shadows, #1)(11)
Her father, a wiry man with a kind, downward tilt at the corners of his eyes, came out of the house and stood behind his wife. “It is the greatest privilege a Kichonan can ever hope for, to have a child blessed by Luna to serve the empress. Let us have the small pleasure of reminding ourselves of that and addressing you by your title.” Papa bowed to both her and Daemon.
Sora rolled her eyes but smiled. “You two are always so stubborn.”
“I know someone else who’s very stubborn,” Daemon said, looking at Sora.
“Where do you think she gets it from?” Mama said with a wink.
“Come,” Papa said. “Your mother has cooked up quite a feast. We’ll stuff our bellies, and then when we’re as round as rice balls, we’ll roll ourselves down to the base of the mountain to join in the village festivities.”
Sora laughed.
They dined outside beneath the full moon, on the small balcony behind the house, overlooking the sea. A salty breeze whispered through the pine needles, and waves hit the cliff below in a soothing, rhythmic rasp. Papa sat across the table from Sora and Daemon, smiling the entire meal despite his long mustache continually blowing into his food. Mama kept a steady supply of hot, spiced tea in their cups. And Sora had helping after helping of miso-glazed butterfish, fried shrimp, buckwheat noodles, and bamboo shoots braised in sticky soy sauce.
“Doesn’t the Society feed you?” Papa joked.
Sora responded by popping another fried shrimp in her mouth.
When she’d finally had her fill, Mama brought out an Autumn Festival cake, an extravagant, ten-layered confection made with an entire block of butter, eggs, lemony yuzu, and almond flour, and dusted with confectioners’ sugar. It resembled the full moon, in honor of Luna. Sora cut slices for her parents, despite their protests that she and Daemon serve themselves first.
Sora took a bite of the cake, and she sighed as it melted in her mouth. It tasted like happiness, and she warmed as if she’d drunk an entire carafe of Kichonan rice wine.
She managed to eat three more slices.
Papa shook his head in awe.
“She has two stomachs,” Daemon said. “One for regular food and one for dessert.”
“You’re just jealous,” Sora said.
Papa cleared away the plates when they were finished. Mama folded her hands on the table. But her smile at having her daughter home began to fade.
The wine-like warmth inside Sora turned to vinegar. She’d known this was coming. It always did. And yet whenever Sora came home, she tried to pretend she wouldn’t have to face it.
“Would you like to visit your sister’s shrine before we go down to the village?” Mama asked.
Sora nodded weakly. Not because she was disrespectful of Hana’s memory and didn’t want to go. But because every time she thought of her little sister, the mountain air suddenly felt too thin.
Daemon squeezed her shoulder. “Do you want me to come with you?”
She sighed. “No, I need to do this myself.”
“Then I’ll wait for you here.”
Papa came back out on the balcony, with a small slice of Autumn Festival cake on a plate. “Take this with you.”
The incense in the shrine would bring the spirit of the cake to the heavens, for Hana to enjoy.
Sora tried to stay composed. But despite all her taiga training, she couldn’t placate the quiver in her hands as she took the plate from her father.
Sora sat beneath the canopy of trees, in front of a small wooden shrine composed of red beams. There was a short dais, which held a vase of white chrysanthemums and a tiny brass cauldron full of uncooked rice, with sticks of white incense protruding from it. Sora had placed the slice of Autumn Festival cake next to the flowers. In front of the dais, a curved sword lay displayed on a white lacquered stand.
White was the color of mourning in Kichona.
She had been here for almost an hour, and the incense sticks had long ago burned out. But she just kept staring at the sword. It was supposed to honor who Hana had been—there were always ceremonial swords at the shrines of deceased taigas—but to Sora, it was also a symbol of everything that could have been. And everything that wasn’t. The tiny fingers that had never had a chance to grow big enough, strong enough, to hold a sword. The quick little legs that never got to experience a grasshopper or cheetah spell. The big, brown eyes that wanted nothing more than to be a taiga warrior, fighting side by side with her sister, but instead never saw beyond her sixth year.
Mama’s footsteps sounded on the gravel path leading down from the house to the shrine. Sora nodded but didn’t say anything when she sat down on the ground beside her. Mama carried a worn, leather-bound book with her, embossed on its cover with the Teira family crest of the sun rising out of a vase of flowers. Their family had always been renowned for their ceramics; Sora’s father was a tenth-generation pottery master.
“I know it makes you sad to be here,” Mama said. “But while we should always mourn your sister, we should also honor her memory by using our lives to do what she could not.” She opened her book to a page marked with a ribbon, its blue satin faded with years of age. “I wrote something a long time ago that I’ve never shared with you. Will you let me read it to you?”
Sora smiled a little, as much as one could when sitting before Hana’s shrine. Mama was a famous storyteller. While Papa told his tales on clay, shaping emotions and beauty into ceramic, Mama created in words. Her books were renowned throughout Kichona.