Any Way the Wind Blows (Simon Snow, #3)(18)

“I can’t right now,” I say. “I’m covering the phones.”

“She’s covering the phones,” the receptionist agrees, as if she’s my new supervisor.

Niamh frowns at me. “Quickly, Miss Wellbelove. Now.”

I reluctantly get up to follow her. She’s three inches taller than me, and twice as broad, and she wears her hair in a large, dark knot at the back of her head. She’s headed for an exam room. The light over the door means a patient is inside.

“I don’t have any medical training,” I say.

“I’m well aware.” She opens the door.

Simon Snow is standing there. Shirtless. Shaking. His devil wings clenched against his back. He’s holding a scalpel.

“Simon?”

“Agatha? ” There are more knives on the floor. And broken glass. Cotton swabs. The exam room looks like it’s been ransacked. Simon’s eyes are wild. “I’m sorry!”

“It’s no trouble,” Niamh says. “We’ll just try again. Wash your hands, Miss Wellbelove.”

“I—”

She gives me a pointed look, so I close my mouth and go to wash my hands in the sink.

Simon hands Niamh the scalpel and crouches to pick something else up from the floor—a large saw.

“I’ve got this,” she says, taking it from him. “Sit down, Mr. Snow.” She mumbles a spell, and the room rights itself, all the sharp tools flying up onto a tray.

Simon sits at the end of the exam table, looking numb and exhausted. It’s the look that used to mean he’d just blown all his magic at once—the look he’d get right after he came to, a burned-out husk. I can practically smell the ozone. (Merlin, Simon used to stink of magic. It turned my stomach.) Niamh joins me at the sink, pulling another face at me and nodding her head towards Simon. I still have no idea what my role is here, but when she nods his way again, I walk over to him.

Simon glances up at me, then folds his arms over his chest—as if I haven’t seen him like this before. I mean, I suppose I haven’t. Not with the wings.

And Simon’s thicker now than he used to be. I can’t see his ribs.

But I know all this golden skin … I’ve counted these moles.

It’s a strange feeling to look at someone’s chest and know it’s nothing to do with you anymore, but still to remember kissing every inch.

“I didn’t expect to see you here,” he says.

“Sorry,” I say. “I can go.”

“No,” he says. “Please.”

Just as Niamh says, “No. I need your help.”

“Sorry,” Simon says again, to Niamh. He swallows, and his Adam’s apple bobs miserably in his neck.

“Nonsense,” she says. “I startled you. We’re going to start fresh…”

He nods. I stand there uselessly—I don’t know what we’re starting.

“Now I’m going to extend just the left side,” Niamh says, gingerly touching Simon’s wing.

Simon flinches—and nearly stabs her in the throat with one of the stony spikes that poke out at the peak of each wing. Niamh frowns at me. She has a fantastic face for frowning: long and wide, with a nose that looks like a prosthetic an actress would wear to win an Oscar. “Miss Wellbelove, ” she says.

Simon’s face is pale. His jaw muscles are popping out of his cheeks, and his hands are knotted in fists on his thighs. Niamh tugs at his wing again, and he squeezes his eyes shut.

I touch his hand. “Can I—”

His eyes jerk up to mine, and he nods, clamping my hand in his. I take his other hand, too, and he squeezes it.

“Does it hurt?” I ask.

He shakes his head. “No. It just”—he shakes his head again—“feels wrong to be touched there.”

Niamh has his left wing spread out. It takes up most of the small exam room. She’s got a bottle of iodine and a cloth. Has Simon been injured? I mean, recently? Penelope and Baz healed all his bullet holes in the desert.

Simon and I haven’t really talked since …

Well, ever. We didn’t talk after the Mage died. And we didn’t talk much in San Diego. And we haven’t talked at all since we got home. I didn’t even ask him what my father wanted the other night.

Niamh swabs the back of his wing with her cloth, and his whole body clenches. “All right?” she asks.

“I’m fine,” Simon says, white-knuckling my hands. “Niamh’s a vet student,” he tells me.

I nod. “I know.”

“Lucky for me.” He’s trying to smile. His face is so pale that his skin looks yellow, and there are purple circles under his eyes.

“Lucky for me,” Niamh says flatly. “I’d never get a chance to dissect an actual dragon’s wings.”

Dissect?

Simon’s still trying to smile at me. “Don’t worry. She’s going to take them off first.”

Oh. He’s having the wings removed. Finally. That makes sense. If I woke up with dragon wings—and a bloody tail—I’d have them taken off before breakfast. Simon’s had wings for more than a year, and he doesn’t even have magic to hide them. Still …

I remember him flying towards me, over the sand. That look on his face, like he wouldn’t leave without me. The way he lifted Baz up and away from the fire. Even with no magic.