Wild (The Ivy Chronicles #3)(68)

Harris didn’t even open the menu. When the waiter brought our water he ordered his usual, chicken picatta, and my usual, baked ziti. It was my old life again. Harris in the driver’s seat. Ordering for me. Shit, how did this happen? I hate this life.

“Wait,” I said, stopping the waiter and quickly glancing over the menu. “I’ll have the small Hawaiian pizza.”

Nodding, the waiter took our menus and left.

“Pineapple on your pizza?” He wrinkled his nose. “Since when?”

“I do a lot of things now I didn’t use to do.”

He stared hard at me for a long moment. “Yeah. So I’ve heard.”

Ah. Facebook. Suddenly, I was thankful for my life being plastered all over social media. I was glad he knew that I was different now and not the girl he broke up with all those months ago. I smiled thinly and took a sip of my water.

“So let’s talk.” He flattened his hands on top of the table like he was about to discuss some important business negotiation.

I shrugged. “Let’s.”

He frowned. “You sound bitter, Georgia.”

“Oh, why would you think that? I’m on a date with you against my will. My mother is doing everything in her power to keep me here instead of going back to Dartford.”

“Maybe it’s for the best. Those friends of yours . . . I never liked them.”

I laughed harshly. “Pepper and Em? Oh, they’re bad influences, are they?”

“Yeah.” He looked me up and down, and then leaned across the table to hiss, “You went to a sex party.”

I laughed even harder, indifferent to the stares swinging our way from other tables.

“Who would have ever thunk it, right?” I took a savoring sip of water. “Boring Georgia getting kinky. An old dog can learn new tricks.”

That succeeded in pissing him off. His face flushed. He always got splotchy when he got mad. But behind his anger there was something else in his eyes. A light of interest as he looked me over. Like the things I might have learned without him intrigued him. Pig. Suddenly I had no appetite.

When he reached for my hand across the table, I tried to slide it away, but he tightened his grip and squeezed my fingers. “I missed you.”

“Did you?” I angled my head, the end of my ponytail sliding over my shoulder.

“Did you miss me?” he asked, sticking out his bottom lip. I knew he thought he looked adorable when he did that because he had told me so.

I studied him, thinking, trying to feel inside whether even a small part of me had missed him. That first month after the breakup I had been crushed. Hurt. Angry. But had I really missed him?

The last couple years of our relationship had felt like a lot of work. It had been a long time since I’d felt relaxed and enjoyed myself around him.

Kind of like how I felt here with Mom. Tense and unhappy. I didn’t enjoy myself. I never felt relaxed or at ease in my skin. I felt like an imposter, trying to be someone else—the person who made them happy and not me.

I only felt like myself at Dartford. After Harris and I broke up, I’d finally uncovered myself. And then I met Logan.

I thought about the way he made me feel . . . the things we did and shared. Being with him . . . it felt like freedom. I never knew it could be like that with a guy.

I remembered how easy it was to be with him—when I wasn’t pushing him away.

I met Harris’s gaze. “No.”

“Huh.” The sound escaped more like a grunt than a word, and his expression revealed every bit of his disgust with me for confessing that bit of truth to him.

“Look, Harris, I know our mothers have this grand plan for us. But I’m not going to marry you. I’m going back to Dartford.”

It was his turn to laugh harshly. “Really? Without Mommy and Daddy supporting you?” He snorted his skepticism.

“Yeah. I like it there. No”—I stopped to correct myself and shook my head—“I love it there. I love my friends. I love . . .”

Logan. I love Logan.

Something ugly flickered in his eyes as he stared at me. “You’re kidding me, right?” He stared at me for a long moment. “There’s someone else. Was it that guy you were arrested with? The one with you in the pictures?” So he had seen the photos. He inhaled. “I forgive you, Georgia. Whatever you did, we weren’t together then. I can forgive you.”

I laughed lightly then. “You’re really incredible.”

He grinned, mistakenly complimented. “I know. I can be generous and admit that we both made mistakes.”

“No, Harris, I don’t want to get back together with you. Even if there wasn’t someone else . . . but yeah. There is.”

His nostrils flared. “You little . . .” He stopped himself short, showing some restraint. He glanced around to make sure no one was watching us. “We’re going to finish this dinner, Georgia, and then I’m going to take you home and give you some time to reconsider.”

I stood. “We don’t really need to finish this dinner.”

He looked up at me, his mouth gaping like a fish. “We ordered already—”

“You can eat. I’m going home. I’ll get my sister to come and get me.” I dropped my napkin on the table then and marched across the restaurant. In the lobby, I stopped and pulled my phone out. I’d had it on vibrate, but I immediately saw there were several texts from Amber and even a missed call. Hoping everything was all right, I clicked on the voicemail first. Her breathless voice filled my ear.