Where Shadows Meet(29)

“You saw my child?” Hannah tried to keep her emotions in check. This was no time to push her aunt.

“Later,” Aunt Nora whispered. “Oh, why didn’t I listen?” She wiped her cheeks with her apron.

Rebellion stirred in Hannah’s heart. Why had God allowed this? He could have kept Moe and her own family safe, but he didn’t. If this was his will, it wasn’t fair. She didn’t understand how her cousin and now her aunt had been able to just shrug and accept it. She was never going to forgive the man who had done this.

Who had warned her aunt to stay quiet? And about what? It seemed impossible that Aunt Nora knew something, but maybe Hannah’s mother had confided something in her sister-in-law. Mamm had no close family of her own, and Datt’s family had taken her under their wing.

Nora tugged on Hannah’s hand. “Come say hello to Bishop Kirchhofer.”

Hannah hung back. “I—I don’t think I’m ready.” She knew what was waiting for her, and the thought of a lecture at a terrible time like this made her want to run. But her aunt pulled harder and led Hannah to the living room.

More than ten years had slipped away since she’d been in this room she used to love. She and her mother had come over every week for tea and quilting, fellowship and belonging. The same hand-crocheted runners topped the end tables. The overstuffed sofa was looking a little threadbare. Everything was spotless, just like always.

The last time Hannah had been here, her mother and father were still alive. Her mother sat in the rocker by the window so she could see to stitch the quilt block she worked on. The light gilded her blond hair and made her look angelic.

It had been two days before she went to join the heavenly choir.

Hannah tore her gaze from the scarred wooden rocker to face the bishop. The last time she’d seen him, he’d ordered her to repent of her unforgiveness toward Cyrus Long.

He was looking at her again with the same loving sternness. Her entire life had trained her to submit to authority, and the need to do it was like an itch she couldn’t reach. Her knees weakened with the desire to fall to them and confess her sins. She reminded herself it was a trained response. He didn’t know her any longer. She was a different person from the pliable, easily deceived girl who had left here at twenty-two.

“Hannah, you’re well?” he asked in his deep voice.

When Hannah was a child, the tones and cadence of his voice always made her think she was hearing God’s voice. The bishop had always looked as old as the limestone along the creek, and his flowing white beard and weathered face under the broad brim of the hat brought to mind Old Testament prophets.

“Yes,” she said.

“We’ve missed you. Your family needs you.”

She stepped back a pace. “Please. Now isn’t the time to bring pressure. We need to help Aunt Nora get through this.”

“It’s never the wrong time to do right,” he said in a gentle voice.

Hannah didn’t answer. She turned to her aunt. “Have you heard any more from the sheriff’s office?”

“They’ve managed to get the autopsy scheduled for tomorrow, even though it usually takes much longer. Matt is a sweet boy who seems to care.” Aunt Nora wiped her eyes again. “The Lord’s will be done.”

“Indeed,” the bishop said. He turned his gaze on Hannah again, and an uncomfortable silence followed.

“I guess we’d better go,” Hannah said. She couldn’t stand much more silent pressure from him.

Sarah had been standing silently by the table with her children. “Do you have a place to stay?” she asked. “Or are you going back home?”

“I’ll find a motel room somewhere,” Hannah said.

“You’ll stay here,” her aunt said. “You understand I can’t eat with you or accept any favors from you. But I won’t turn you out on the street.”

“I know the requirements,” Hannah said. “Thank you. I’ll bring in our suitcases.” With Angie in tow, she fled the presence of the bishop and Sarah.

“What was that all about?” Angie asked. “Gosh, the tension just vibrated in the air. Did he expect you to say you wanted to come back to the Amish faith?”

“That’s exactly what he wants. And it’s even tempting,” Hannah said. “It will be hard to be here as an outcast.”

“Could you ever go back and give up your life?” Angie shuddered as if it was the worst thing she’d ever heard.

“Family is important,” Hannah said. “We try to preserve that as much as possible and lock out the world. When I didn’t have the conveniences, I didn’t miss them. Even now, there’s not that much to miss. I don’t watch much TV, and we always had gaslights and propane-powered appliances.”

“So why not go back?” Angie smiled. “You said ‘we.’ Like you are still Amish.”

“It’s too late. Divorce is never accepted—not for any reason. But I’ll always be Amish at heart. Even if I reconciled with Reece, I’d have to forgive the murderer, too, and I’ll never do that. Never.” She thought about her aunt’s words. Who could have warned her? And about what?



THURSDAY MORNING, TWO days after the murder, and he was already getting an autopsy. It paid to have friends in the right places. The cold in the coroner’s lab penetrated Matt’s bones. The rank smell nearly made him gag, but he stood his ground near the door. Ajax whined and pawed at his nose. Matt rubbed his dog’s ears. “It’s okay.”