When August Ends(40)

“I don’t think saying that will go over real well.”

“Is he a big dude?”

“Not as big as you.”

“Perfect, then.” I chuckled. “I’m kidding. I won’t embarrass you in front of your little friend.”

This whole thing felt like a test. It was the first time she’d be going out on a date since the time she’d gone out with her ex. I didn’t remember feeling like this, like I wanted to kill someone. Anyway, this was my problem, not hers.

Then, I pulled something I had no right to pull. For completely selfish reasons, I asked, “You sure you should be getting involved with someone who’s gonna be leaving soon?”

You’re a dick, Noah.

“Well, actually, I was thinking it might be perfect—no strings—since I can’t do anything serious right now, either.” She shrugged. “I’m leaving, too, so…”

And that’s what you get, asshole—a nice visual of Heather spreading her legs for a no-strings-attached relationship with some guy who’s not you. That came back to bite you in the ass, didn’t it?

“I see,” I said.

“I’m sure you had lots of those after the divorce? Sex-with-no-strings relationships?”

Is she fucking with me? Or is she seriously considering boning this guy?

“A couple,” I answered. “But I don’t prefer them. In my experience, if a woman likes you and tells you she doesn’t want anything more than a hookup, she’s lying. Even those relationships eventually turn into something else. I’ve had so-called no-strings relationships that turned out to be hardly that. It’s a bit of a catch-22, though, because any woman I don’t want more than sex with is probably not worth my time anyway. Maybe it comes with age, but I need to feel something more than just physical attraction to truly enjoy being with someone.”

Her face turned red. “Have you been with anyone since you’ve been here?”

“I think you know the answer to that. You’ve seen me almost every night.”

“I guess that’s true. And I intercepted the one whore who wanted to change that.”

“There was nothing to intercept, because as I’ve told you before, she’s not my type.”

She cocked her head. “So, what is your type, then?”

I wanted to tell her the truth, that lately I only had one type, and that was Heather Chadwick—beautiful, young, wide-eyed, honest Heather Chadwick, whom I wanted to protect with every ounce of my soul as much as I wanted to taint her.

“I don’t have a type.”

“You just said Kira wasn’t your type. That means you have a type.”

Shit.

I did say that, didn’t I? I was losing my mind, and I knew exactly why.

“I don’t know what my type is…but I know what my type is not. Her.”

“Okay, fair enough.”

I’d thought she was done with her inquisition, but then she asked, “So, you haven’t been with anyone in a while?”

“That’s an interesting way of asking me the last time I had sex.”

Her cheeks pinked. “You don’t have to tell me.”

She’s fucking adorable. And nosy.

It felt like forever. I actually had to think about it. “May.”

“So the month before you came here...”

“Yes.”

“Who was she?”

“It wasn’t anything serious. Just someone—”

“Someone you fuck.”

Jesus Christ. Hearing her say that word made my dick go rigid. I hoped to God she didn’t say it again. At the same time, I wanted her to say it again.

“I haven’t had a serious relationship since the divorce. She was someone I thought I had an understanding with, but like I said, in my experience, that’s a slippery slope. She started to expect more from me. It’s hard to find someone who’s not interested in something more.”

“Because the women end up falling for you.”

“Or just wanting more, yeah.”

“They fall in love with you, Noah,” she said matter-of-factly.

She could see right through me.

I needed to change the subject, but I was curious about her, too. This might be my only opportunity to bring it up. Fuck it.

“Since you’ve given me the third degree, I think it’s only fair I return the favor. What about you?”

“I’ve only had sex with Eric.”

Wow. Given how sexually charged she was, that kind of surprised me. But I suspected she wasn’t the type of girl who gave it up to anyone if her heart wasn’t in it—which was why I wasn’t sure I believed her little sex-with-no-strings act at all.

“So it’s been a long time.”

She smiled. “Are you thinking the drought explains some of my behavior earlier this summer? Because that wouldn’t be entirely true. I’ve never acted like that before, never asserted myself like that with anyone.”

That made me happy inside, which was messed-up. Whatever I was feeling, I had to get over it. I couldn’t be anything more than a friend and mentor to this girl, especially now that she was finally on the right path. She looked up to me, believed in me. She didn’t need a grown man who couldn’t control his feelings or his dick messing with her emotions right now. I’d be leaving at the end of the month, and regardless of how strong my feelings had grown toward her, I had to stick it out, not get carried away, and stand my ground, even if I felt that ground crumbling beneath me.