Untamed (Thoughtless #4)(134)
Gazing at her as I held my daughters close, I said, “I love these girls with all my heart, but you’re the best thing in my life. I’d be lost without you.” Thinking of the weeks we were apart, I frowned. “I was lost without you. Let’s never do that again, okay? Sink or swim, we make our fate together.”
The smile Anna gave me was so warm, I felt the heat from it all the way in my toes. “I like that plan. Us being together, being a team, it’s all I’ve ever wanted.” Walking over to us, she sat down on the bed and put a hand on my chest. “You’re my best friend.”
Loving those words almost as much as the filthy phrases she’d groaned in my ear last night, I grinned. “You’re my best friend too.” My smile slipped as I remembered something important that I needed to talk to her about. I sat up on the bed and leaned my back against the wall. Gibson mimicked me while Onnika crawled into my lap. “There’s something we should probably talk about…”
Hearing the seriousness in my tone made Anna frown. “What?”
With a sigh, I let it all out. “I’m overdrawn, up to my eyeballs in debt, and now, I’m unemployed. Financially, I’m pretty much fuc…” Glancing at Gibson and Onnika, I changed what I was about to say. “I’m in a corner.”
My attempt to consciously not swear around my children made Anna smile. “You mean we’re in corner. Teammates, remember?” With a smile, I nodded, but Anna frowned. “What are we going to do?” she asked.
I shrugged. “I don’t know. I’m so far behind on payments…I don’t know how to catch up, even if I did get another good-paying job, but that seems unlikely, since Dad hooked me up with that last one. I’ll have to start at the bottom…”
Anna nodded; her face was a mixture of annoyance and resignation. There were long-term consequences to my actions that we were all going to have to deal with. When the moment of silence stretched long enough, Gibson filled up the quiet with tales about her dolls’ lives. After listening to her daughter for a while, Anna sighed. “Well, Griff, I only see one solution. You’re not going to like it, but I don’t see another way.”
Having a tiny idea what she was going to say made me cringe. I wanted to argue before she even said it, but instead I made myself ask, “What’s your idea?”
“We go to the guys and beg for a loan.” An inadvertent groan escaped me. Yep. There wasn’t one word in that sentence I liked, and there were several I hated—like “beg.” Maybe expecting an argument from me, Anna raised a finger in the air. When I didn’t say anything, she added, “And I think it’s only right if we pay them back double what we borrow.”
I knew she in part wanted to repay them that much to teach me a lesson, so I shut my mouth and nodded. She was right anyway. I’d feel a lot better borrowing from the band if they made a profit from it. Of course, it was going to take me six hundred years to pay them back. “Okay. I’ll ask them today. Liam asked me to come listen to their first real rehearsal. Moral support.” I shrugged and acted like it didn’t bother me, but it did. Watching Liam take over my spot was going to suck on so many levels, but he was my brother, and he’d asked me to be there, and I couldn’t say no to him.
Nodding, Anna cupped my face in sympathy. She knew I was hurting, but she also knew I’d get through this. Not being in a band anymore wasn’t going to kill me. Los Angeles had taught me that. I was tougher than I thought, and with Anna by my side, there wasn’t anything I couldn’t do.
The guys were meeting in the late afternoon. Anna had the day off, so she and the girls went with me. We drove Anna’s car, a clunky ancient Ford Escort hatchback that a coworker had sold to her for nine hundred dollars. We used to spend that much on coffee in a month, but now Anna had to make payments to her friend to swing it. I wasn’t sure which reality felt more surreal to me, the one I used to have or the one I had now.
Being back in Washington was so refreshing that I actually enjoyed the drive to Kellan’s place. The seasons were changing, and it was cold, wet, windy, and gloomy, but I loved it. Even though I’d spent most of my life in California, Washington felt like home. I supposed that was because of the people though. Anna and the guys…they made the place feel complete.
When we arrived at Kellan’s gate, I lowered the window and pressed the call button. Kellan had a camera on the gate, so he knew it was me when he answered. “Hey, Griff. How’s it going it, man? What brings you to my neck of the woods?”
It was only then that I realized I probably should have cleared my arrival with the rest of the guys before just showing up. “Oh, uh, Liam asked me to be here today. That okay?”
Kellan’s tinny voice laughed. Me asking permission for anything was not something he was used to. “Of course. You’re always welcome here, Griffin.”
Even as he said it, the gate started swinging open. I only told him, “Thank you,” but in my head I doubted his words. I was positive that there had been quite a bit of time right after I’d abandoned the guys where they wouldn’t have let me anywhere near them, let alone inside their houses.
When I got to the parking lot at the base of the hill Kellan’s house sat on, I started laughing. Kellan had done something about my many complaints about the number of steps that led up to his front door. There was a ski lift gondola resting on a track next to the countless steps. Eager to try it out, I grabbed Onnika while Anna let Gibson out of the car. The four of us easily fit inside the gondola. Gibson spotted the up button and pressed it before I could get to it. Something clicked on the machine, and it slowly started rising. “Now this is more like it,” I said to Anna, as I relaxed back on the railing and let the car do all the heavy lifting.