The White Order (The Saga of Recluce #8)(99)

“You may come in, Cerryl,” called Myral.

As normal for cold mornings, the older mage was sipping hot spiced cider from an earthenware mug. The shutters were closed, but wispy glimmers of bright sunlight flickered through hairline openings in the frame, glimmers that seemed to move with the breeze that brushed the tower. Myral had a white woolen lap robe across his knees, although Cerryl felt the days were getting warmer.

Myral followed Cerryl's eyes to the lap robe. “The days might seem warmer, but I'm colder. I'm tempted to ask Sterol to send me to Ruzor, except...” He shook his head and forced a smile. “It's warm there all year.”

“Some would say it is hot there.” What had Myral almost said?

“These bones could use some heat. At times I would not mind the heat of the Stone Hills.” Myral took another sip of cider.

Cerryl glanced at the small hearth, where a handful of coals still glowed.

“The coals provide more lasting heat than a fire.” Myral cleared his throat. “Your progress?”

“Another thirty cubits yesterday, ser, more or less.” Cerryl stopped, then added, “I had a problem the other day.”

“With the lancers or you? Be precise, Cerryl.” Myral frowned. “What kind of problem?”

“With me. I was trying to be more exact. I was trying to direct the chaos-fire, and the harder I tried, the less force I had.” Cerryl swallowed. “Ah ... then I tried to think more about light... the way you said, and I got three flashes of light at the same time-red and yellow and blue. They barely scorched the slime. But whatever it was I did, I couldn't do it again.”

“Mmmm.” Myral sipped his cider, glanced at the door behind Cerryl, then coughed. “What happened to your chaos-fire?”

“I lowered my shields and didn't think much, and there was plenty But the colored shafts bothered me. Chaos-fire arcs and falls eventually but these didn't, and...” Cerryl stopped. Had he heard footsteps on the stairs? Leyladin?

Despite what Lyasa had said, he still wondered about the healer Why couldn't blacks and whites be lovers-without danger? And was Leyladin really a black? Was she Myral's lover?

The faintest scraping penetrated the room, and Cerryl could sense someone standing outside on the landing.

“Ah ...” Myral glanced toward the heavy white oak door. “That is something you will have to work out yourself, young Cerryl. Each mage must, you know. Chaos handling is not like mathematicks, where each number always has the same value.”

The younger mage suppressed a frown. Force was force ... Somehow Myral's words seemed wrong, but Cerryl could not say why.

“Think about the light. You might reread Colors of White-even more carefully.”

Cerryl nodded, suppressing his immediate need to protest that he had already done so, many more times than anyone suspected.

“You may go,” Myral said, with another glance at the door.

“Yes, ser.” Cerryl stood.

“Tomorrow.”

After a nod of acknowledgment, the younger man turned and walked to the door, opening it and stepping outside onto the landing, a landing occupied by another.

“Good day, Leyladin.” Cerryl offered a smile, broader than he'd intended as his eyes took in the oval face, the blonde hair that was faintly red and tumbled not quite to her shoulders, the green eyes that sparkled even in the dimness of the landing, and the lips that were full, but not too full.

“Good day, Cerryl.” She returned his smile with one that was friendly but not inviting. “Be careful in the depths.”

“Thank you.” Now what? He wondered, but got no further, as she opened Myral's door and stepped inside, closing it, and leaving him standing on the landing.

With a shrug he really didn't feel, Cerryl started down the stone steps to the foyer, passing the guards at the lowest level and then hurrying down the steps to the foyer. He had managed a few more words, a very few, but he still felt tongue-tied around her. She was truly beautiful.

He crossed the foyer, pausing when he turn,ed toward the rear of the hall as a redheaded figure approached. He bowed. “Greetings, honored Anya.”

“I'm not that much your elder, Cerryl.” A warm and white-toothed smile flashed across Anya's face, a smile Cerryl distrusted even as he admired its effectiveness. “If you keep working, you'll be up before the Council within the next few years ... and then we'll be working together for a long time.”

The scent of sandalwood, mixed with roses or another heavy floral essence, enfolded him, almost cloying.

“I am yet in the sewers,” he pointed out, “but you are kind.”

“You are cautious, an admirable attribute.” Her smile turned even more perfunctory. “Do your best in the sewers.”

As Anya gave a parting nod and walked across the high-ceilinged foyer toward the steps to the tower, Cerryl turned toward the courtyard and the lancers' barracks beyond, where he would again meet Jyantyl and the other lancers assigned to his charge, although he was certain Jyantyl was reporting on him as well as supervising the disciplinary detail.

The sun seemed slightly warmer on his face as he entered the courtyard. Was winter really coming to an end? Had he been in the Halls of the Mages nearly a year? By spring, it would be a year.

So much had happened ... and so little. So many hidden tests-and pitfalls. After nearly a year, he still had no idea whether the poisoned cider had been a test or an attempt to kill him, though he suspected more and more it had been a crude attempt at murder by Kesrik or Bealtur. But that was something he couldn't prove and dared not mention ... because ... if it had been a test... He shook his head. His logic was weak, but his feelings were strong. Mentioning the cider would do no good, especially since Myral was the only one who drank cider all the time, and he doubted strongly that Myral would stoop to poison. And Kesrik didn't seem smart enough to think or try something like that on his own.