The Law of Moses (The Law of Moses, #1)(80)

I had temporarily stopped painting, though Eli hadn’t stopped sharing pictures with me. But he had started showing me new things. Flowers. Clouds. Cupcakes. Hearts. Drawings pinned to the fridge with chunky magnet letters. They were still things he loved, as far as I could tell. The images were fleeting and focused. Fat red hearts, cupcakes piled with white fluffy icing, and flowers that I wasn’t sure even existed beyond a little boy’s imagination. They were riotous and multi-colored, a garden of Dr. Seuss blooms. I didn’t think these were his greats. This time I was pretty sure he really was trying to tell me something. I found myself talking to him, to the boy who danced in and out of my vision, never staying long, never making a whole lot of sense, but I talked to him anyway, hoping my limitations were not his.

I spent a Saturday removing the tub, toilet and sink in Gigi’s old bathroom telling Eli about the first time I’d seen Georgia. I was little. Not as little as Eli. But young. Maybe nine or ten the first time I really remembered her. She had stared at me, just like the other kids at church. But her gaze had been different. She had watched me like she was dying to talk to me. Like she was wishing she could make me talk to her. And she smiled. I hadn’t smiled back. But I had remembered that smile.

Eli answered with an image of Georgia, smiling, holding him in her arms, swinging him around and around until they both collapsed onto the grass and let the world spin above their heads. I took his memory to mean he hadn’t forgotten her smile either.

So then I’d told Eli about the first time Georgia actually did talk to me. How Sackett had reared up in the barn and knocked her to the ground. How it had been all my fault. I told Eli I knew then that Georgia wasn’t safe with me.

Eli’s response baffled me. He showed me Georgia, crying his name, her face distorted with horror as she looked beneath the truck the day he died. It was the very last memory Eli had of his mother’s face before he left the world.

“Eli? Don’t do that!” I shoved my fists over my eyes and cried out, banging my head against the newly installed sink. I physically and mentally pushed back, not understanding why Eli would want me to see that again.

He stopped immediately, but I was shaken. I swore and paced for a minute rubbing my head, trying to ease the throb and clear the horrible image. And then my words came back to me.

I’d told him Georgia wasn’t safe with me.

And Eli hadn’t been safe. Even with the person who would have gladly died in his place. And she would have. Gladly. I knew that. And I think Eli knew that. I rubbed the back of my head, looking at the little boy in black and blue pajamas, standing so close I should be able to touch him, but couldn’t. And he stared back, keeping his pictures to himself as I pondered the fact that maybe none of us are safe. Not truly. Not even from the people we love. Not even from the people who love us.

“So cupcakes . . . hearts . . . flowers. What’s the deal, Eli?”

I saw Eli, his grubby hands gripping some ugly, half-bald dandelions, handing them to his mother, and Georgia, exclaiming over them like his arms were filled with roses. Then I saw a little, silver pie tin filled with mud, being presented with a happy giggle. And again, Georgia oohing and ahhing over the offering, even pretending to take a giant, muddy bite.

The pie tin dissolved into a new thought, and Eli was drawing hearts. Misshapen wobbly ones that looked more like upside down triangles with boobs than actual hearts. He was drawing them in every color on a white sheet of paper, signing his name in crooked letters, and handing it to Georgia, a declaration of his devotion.

The images switched off abruptly, and I was left staring at Eli, holding the wrench in my hand, still rubbing the back of my head. A huge goose egg was forming.

“Oh, I see.” I grimaced, chuckling. “Flowers, cake, hearts. You’re giving me advice. Very nice.” I laughed again. “I gave her some pictures, but I’m guessing you think I should do more.”



I saw myself, arms around Georgia, kissing her. My breath caught and I watched as if someone had caught us on film. Her hands clutched my arms as I took her mouth. I watched as my hands traveled up her back and framed her face. She didn’t pull away, and for several long seconds, she didn’t let go. In fact she kissed me back, her eyes closed, her head bent under mine.



“Eli . . .” I breathed, wondering how in the world I was ever going to kiss Georgia again if Eli had soaked it all up, every detail, without me even knowing he was there. When I’d kissed Georgia, I’d been afraid Eli would never return. But he had definitely seen me kiss Georgia.

And he’d seen Georgia run away from that kiss as I stood staring after her, dazed.

“Okay, buddy. That’s enough.”

I called down the waters on Eli’s little demonstration, not especially wanting his romantic input, and as my mental walls went up, I lost him, finding myself alone in the old house, muttering to myself, considering how I was going to implement Eli’s ideas . . . without him watching.





Moses




THERE WASN’T MUCH TO DO IN LEVAN unless you rode horses. Or four wheelers. Or enjoyed the great outdoors. Or had friends. Since I didn’t, on all accounts, I ended up watching Georgia more often than not. Sometimes I watched from an upstairs window, hoping she couldn’t see me. Sometimes I watched from Gi’s old deck as I sanded it down, giving me an excuse to surreptitiously track her as she worked with horses and people, day in and day out, usually in the big round corral. It seemed she’d picked up where her parents left off, doing the work they’d once done. And it suited her.