The Law of Moses(93)

“I don’t need that, Moses. I don’t need someone to run my baths or carry me up the stairs, although I’m not complaining.” I wasn’t complaining at all. His hands in my hair and the steam rising up around us made me want to pull him into the brand new tub, fully clothed—or not—and fall fast asleep, warm and safe and more contented than I’d ever been.

“I don’t want your house, Moses,” I said softly.

His hands stilled in my hair.

“I thought you did.”

I shook my head, and his hands tightened against my scalp. He was quiet for several seconds, but he didn’t move away, and his fingers continued to sift through my hair, smoothing it down my back.

“There’s nothing wrong with the house, Georgia,” he said at last. “Is that it? It’s not haunted. Places aren’t haunted. People are. I am.” His tone was resigned, and I looked up at him with the same acceptance.

“Nah. That’s not it, Moses. I don’t want your house. I just want you.”





Moses




I LEFT HER IN THE BATHROOM, heat and scent seeping beneath the closed door. I could hear the soft swish and lap of the water moving as she moved, and I found myself with a paint brush in my hand, staring out into the dark from the window in my old upstairs room, taking note of the light still shining from the windows at Georgia’s house, hoping her parents weren’t in a mild state of panic that she was here with me. A truck idled on the corner between our houses, a big diesel truck like the one Georgia had described Terrence Anderson driving. The thought sent the same sick dread curling in my stomach that I’d felt as she’d told me about crawling along the dirty floor so he wouldn’t see her.

As I watched, the truck pulled away and ambled down the road, turning at the next block where my eyes couldn’t follow. Even with the intrusion of Terrence Anderson, my mind continually tiptoed to Georgia on the other side of my wall. I could imagine upswept hair and long limbs spilling over the white porcelain of the tub, dark lashes on a smooth cheek, full lips softly parted, and I resisted the urge to start painting all the little details my mind readily supplied. If Vermeer could find beauty in cracks and stains, then I could only imagine what I could create from the pores of her skin.

If I only knew how to paint Georgia into my life, or how to paint myself into hers without overwhelming her, then maybe the trepidation I felt would melt away. I would never be easy to love. There were some colors that overpowered all the others, some colors that didn’t blend.

But I wanted to try. I wanted to try so badly it made my hands shake and the brush fall from my fingers. I snatched it up and walked to the easel set up in the corner, the canvas calling to me, and I began to mix a little of this, a little of that. What had I told Georgia so long ago? What colors would I use to paint her? Peach, gold, pink, white . . . . there were fancy names written on the little tubes I bought in bulk, but I kept it simple in my head.

A sweeping brush stroke brought the line of her neck to life on the canvas in front of me. Then the little ridges along her slim spine, the pale curl on golden skin. But I gave her color too, a dapple here and there, pink and blue and coral, as if there were petals in her hair.

I felt her come up behind me, and I paused, breathing her in before I turned my head and looked down at her. She had donned her running shorts again, but had abandoned the dusty sweatshirt and wore a slim white tank top and nothing on her feet.

“I wanted to paint you,” I said, by way of explanation.

“Why?”

“Because . . . because,” I scrambled for a reason that didn’t include her holding still and letting me stare at her for long periods of time. “Eli wants me to paint you.” It wasn’t exactly a lie.

“He does?” her voice was faint and she peeked at me almost shyly. It was strange to see her that way. Self-conscious in a way she’d never been.

“I seem to remember you wanting me to paint you. Before.”

“I wanted a lot of things, Moses.”

“I know.” And I was determined to give them to her. Anything and everything within my power.

“Did Eli like to paint?” I’d never asked her if he was anything like me. I hoped not.

She began to shake her head and then she stopped and laughed. And just like that, I could see the memory of a forgotten moment, just a glimpse as if I had looked inside her head. But it wasn’t coming from her. Eli sat cross-legged in the window seat and smiled like he had missed me. Missed us. And Georgia’s eyes grew soft as she narrated the scene, without even realizing I could already see it in living color behind my eyes.

“It was late. I’d been up since dawn and hadn’t stopped all day. Eli was crying, Mom and Dad were out, and it was way past bedtime. Eli still needed his dinner and a bath, and I was ready to cry with him. I warmed up some leftover spaghetti and opened a can of peaches, trying to soothe Eli who wanted chicken noodle soup for dinner.

“He wanted homemade soup with the fat noodles. But I told him we didn’t have any more and that I’d make homemade soup on the weekend. Or Grandma would. Hers was better than mine. And I tried to make him happy with leftover spaghetti.

“But he didn’t want it, and I wasn’t very patient. I settled him at the table and made him a plate, trying to convince him it was exactly what he wanted every step of the way. I set a glass of milk in front of him and filled his favorite tractor plate with noodles and sauce on one side and sliced peaches on the other.”