Spoiler Alert (Spoiler Alert #1)(34)
He almost said it. Almost shrugged and answered, Why not? The director says I’d look fantastic in the costumes.
His water glass was going to break if he kept gripping it so tightly.
He put it down very gently, removing his fingers from the fragile glass shell one by one.
The truth. This time, he would tell them the unvarnished truth, with no affectations adopted for self-protection.
“No, Dad.” His voice was even. Toneless, verging on bored. It was as much grace as he could muster in that moment. “No, I’m not considering the role. I had my agent turn it down immediately. Not because it violated Roman history, but because I deserve better as an actor, and I demand better in my directors and my scripts.”
His parents glanced at each other again, lost for words. Stunned, perhaps, that he considered himself someone who had standards.
“I’m glad you’re considering your choices more carefully this time,” his mother finally said, offering a cautious smile. “That Julius Caesar remake excluded, almost anything would be an improvement over your last project.”
No wonder they considered him the stupidest member of their family. He still hadn’t learned.
The chair screeched beneath him when he rose to his feet.
“I’d better go,” he told them. “Thank you again for lunch.”
They didn’t protest as he left the dining room, gathered his jacket and keys, and dispensed generic good wishes with a rictus smile. His father gave him a polite dip of the chin in the postage-stamp entry hall, which Marcus returned.
He was at the door, almost gone, when his mom reached out for . . . something. Some sort of contact. A half hug, a kiss on the cheek, he didn’t know.
It didn’t matter, honestly.
If she touched him right now, if either of them did, he thought he might shatter like that water glass.
He stepped back from her.
Her hand fell to her side, her green eyes stricken behind those familiar glasses.
Late one winter night, when he’d sneaked out of bed to eavesdrop at the cracked door to their tiny bedroom, he’d heard her weeping. In a tear-choked voice, she’d haltingly explained to her husband how much she missed teaching the kids in her prep school, missed working alongside him. She’d admitted that she found it nearly unbearable to sit across a table from their son day after day, trying in vain to reach him in ways his kindergarten and first-grade teachers hadn’t, couldn’t, while Lawrence shone in the brightness of the outside world.
She’d never make the same amount of money as her husband. Never have his seniority in their department, even if she got her position back.
“I’m feel like I’m l-losing essential p-pieces of myself hour by hour, Lawrence,” she’d sobbed. “And I love Marcus, but I’m not getting through to him, and sometimes I want to shake him, but instead I just have to keep trying to get him to learn—”
The words had tumbled over one another, near hysterical, and Marcus couldn’t doubt the truth in them. He’d carried that truth with him back to bed that night and every night.
Even as he suffered, she did too. Because of him.
So despite the bile in his throat now, he gathered her in his arms. Kissed the top of her head, and let her kiss his cheek. Offered her a wave from inside his car window.
Then he got the fuck out of there, with no idea when or if he’d ever return.
JULIUS CAESAR: REDUX
INT. CLEOPATRA’S BEDROOM – MIDNIGHT
CLEOPATRA stretches out naked on a round, velvet-covered bed, pale in the candlelight. She is everything a man wants. Beautiful and insatiable and a sultry mystery, her ample breasts perky and firm and promising all the world to any hapless man who falls under their sway. MARK ANTONY lies beside her, insensate from pleasure. She literally has him by the short hairs.
CLEOPATRA
Caesar must die. Again.
MARK ANTONY
No! Such treason would besmirch my honor!
CLEOPATRA
You must stake him!
She leans over him, her breasts speaking of sexual frenzy, and he cannot look away from their pendulous swing. No man could, in the face of Eve’s temptation.
MARK ANTONY
If you insist, my treacherous flower.
CLEOPATRA
Fear not that he might rise from the dead once more. No twice-murdered, unnatural creatures have taken blood-soaked revenge on their enemies since the last Ides of March, exactly a year ago today.
MARK ANTONY
Woman is the most unnatural creature of all.
10
THEY WERE DOING THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF POSING AND preening at an indoor water park. Still, Marcus hadn’t objected. Hadn’t asked if their plans were meant to serve as a test of some sort, although he suspected they were.
Let’s meet at 11 at the Cal Academy, April had texted last night, while he stood beneath the too-hot spray of his hotel shower and let it scald him. I’ve been meaning to check out the natural history exhibits, and I thought you might enjoy the planetarium. (Resisted making a star joke there. Yay me.) We can grab lunch at the café. Sound good?
After emerging from the shower, he’d read her text, toweled his hair, and considered the logistics. Sounds good. Why don’t we meet at the café for lots of coffee before we look at rocks and recline in a dark theater? j/k