Sinful Desire (Sinful Nights, #2)(57)

“Just talk to her. Tell her why you didn’t say a word. Tell her what’s on your mind. What’s in your heart. Women often like that.”

But did they? He flashed back to Sanders’s wife and her weird glances at the mention of the speeding ticket. He hardly knew how to do what his grandma was prescribing. “Is it even worth it?”

“Is it?” she echoed. “Only you know the answer to that. But Ryan, you think you have to manage everything perfectly because your life spun out of control when you were younger. All our lives did. Here’s the thing you need to see—you can’t control everything, and you also don’t have to. The only things you can take charge of are the choices you make, and if Miss Peach Pie is a choice you want to make, then you should let her in.” She paused then added, “Besides, you’ve never shown up at my house at ten p.m. to talk about a woman. So think about that, my love.”

He wasn’t sure he agreed with her.

Hell, he wasn’t sure about anything. Except tonight seemed to prove it was a good thing he generally didn’t make it beyond a third date.

Just look at the mess he’d made of the fourth one.

*

Sophie scrubbed the island for a third time. She would likely go for a fourth, perhaps even a fifth. John finished loading the last plate in the dishwasher. “Look, men are pigs,” he said in a matter-of-fact tone.

She shot him a sharp-eyed stare. “That makes you a pig, too, then.”

He nodded vigorously. “Takes one to know one. Men are horrible.”

She grabbed a dishtowel and swatted him on the shoulder with it. “Stop. You’re being ridiculous. Men aren’t pigs. Not all of them at least,” she said softly. “You’re not. Dad wasn’t. I don’t really think Ryan is either.”

John said nothing, and Sophie returned to cleaning the marble countertop of the island, making sure she scoured each section to a spit shine. She wasn’t trying to erase the evening, or the man. She was merely trying to keep her mind busy, so she’d be less apt to rely on her heart.

Her heart was a puppy, happily trotting in a field of poppies.

That was the problem.

“Does your silence mean you think he’s bad news?” she asked John. She didn’t know anybody else who’d even met Ryan. At least her brother had spoken to him.

“I don’t know enough about him to say if he’s bad news or not,” John said carefully as he poured dishwasher soap into the machine.

“You don’t trust him, though.”

“It’s not that I don’t trust him. I don’t trust anyone.”

She shoved the sponge roughly back and forth, back and forth. The repetitive motion was strangely soothing. “But is your distrust of Ryan more or less than your baseline level of distrust?” she asked in a clinical manner.

“It’s higher, but that’s because we’re talking about you, now. And I don’t want you to get hurt.”

“You think I’m foolish.”

“No,” he corrected as he shut the dishwasher. “I think you love easily. Maybe too easily for your own good.”

“I’m not in love with him,” she said quickly, dropping the sponge and meeting his eyes.

He arched a brow, questioning her with his steely stare. “It sure looked like that. Or like it was heading in that direction.”

“When? When did it look like that?”

“When I walked back out and saw you holding him.”

She shut her eyes as she slipped back in time to those few seconds that felt like a slice of possibility. Her arms around him. His cheek on her shoulder. She opened her eyes and straightened the kitchen some more, placing the clean roasting pan in a cupboard.

“Also, you believe in love so strongly because of Mom and Dad, and you think you’re going to have that,” John continued. “But most of the world isn’t like that. Some of the world is like Ryan’s parents.”

“What happened with them? Beyond the news. Beyond what I could find on the Internet,” she asked as she put more pans away. She was dying to know. Curiosity had her in its grip.

“Soph,” he said in a chiding tone. “You know I can’t say.”

“But you think he knows something that will help you in the investigation? You said that. You said that the night I went to the gala. I know you had to have been talking about him then.”

He huffed. “You’re too smart for your own good.”

“I’m just a good listener. So what do you think he knows? You don’t think he’s a suspect, do you?”

He laughed and shook his head, leaning his hip against the counter. “No. Absolutely not. But everyone has an agenda, and I think Ryan Sloan has his own, which for some reason involves protecting his mother.”

“But she’s in prison. How can he be protecting her?”

“I think he’s protecting things she won’t tell us. But the good news is he told me something that I think will be helpful, if I can just connect all the dots.”

“Can you?”

He shrugged. “That’s the million-dollar question. And you know I can’t say anymore. If I do I’ll compromise the investigation, and all investigations matter, but this one is a big one, Sophie.”

She had a sneaking suspicion John wasn’t merely looking into an eighteen-year-old murder. She had a feeling he was hunting for something that went much wider and bigger.