Sinful Desire (Sinful Nights, #2)(49)

He snapped his fingers as he drove. “Yes. That.”

“Fine. Done. I’ll see what I can track down for your girl with the nice tits. How’s her personality?”

He smiled, a grin that seemed to come out of nowhere, one that he had no control over when he thought of Sophie. “Brilliant, clever, sweet, fun.”

“That makes me very happy to hear. Brent and I are coming by on Saturday for lunch, so you can tell me all about her when I see you in person and, hopefully, drop off the dress.” She paused before she added, “By the way, have a good visit with Mom.”

“Thanks, Shan.”

He hung up and, an hour later, pulled past the gates and into the visitor lot at his mother’s home.

*

Talking to his mom was like trying to capture a hummingbird with a thimble.

“Focus,” he told her, as frustration surged inside him. “You’re all over the place. I don’t want to hear about how the guys in New York State broke out through a manhole, or why Kelsey in the cell next to you can’t eat bread because now she’s a f*cking gluten-free inmate. I love you, Mom. But you gotta f*cking focus.”

“Watch your mouth,” his mother said, narrowing her eyes as she chided him. She wore orange, as she always did, and they talked in one of the stark concrete visiting rooms, outfitted with only a table and chairs.

“Sorry,” he muttered. Then he tapped his watch. “But time is running out, and I want some details. I’ve held onto your pattern; I’ve held onto your secrets. Can’t you tell me a damn thing? The cops won’t say a word about the evidence they have. You’ve got to know, Mom. I’m sure they’ve been here to see you about the case being reopened.”

She nodded and pursed her lips together.

He held his hands out wide, waiting for an answer. “So?”

She shook her head.

He closed his eyes and sighed. “Mom, c’mon. I’m trying to help, but you’ve got to give me something. Does it have to do with Stefano’s kid?”

She snapped her head up. “What?”

“He had a kid. His girlfriend was pregnant at the time of the murder. His friends were supposed to look out for the kid, but they apparently didn’t. I think that’s why the case was reopened. I don’t know for sure, but I’ve got a hunch she set it in motion. His girlfriend went to the cops because she’s pissed at his friends for messing up their end of the deal. That’s my take.”

His mom lowered her voice to a bare whisper, her eyes fixed on his. For the first time in a long time, he saw an intense need in her green gaze as she asked, “Who was supposed to look out for the kid?”

“I don’t know, mom. Who do you think is looking out for the kid?”

“Was it T.J. and K. who—?”

Then she smacked her hand over her mouth and dug her fingers into her cheekbones. Shit. She’d done this before. She’d done some variation of this nearly every time he’d seen her lately. She’d start to say something and then physically stop herself.

“Who are T.J. and K.?” he asked, reaching across the table to gently pry her hand from her face. She was a strong woman though, and she didn’t want to let go. He was stronger, and soon he’d peeled her hand away.

“Who? Who are they? Who are T.J. and K.? Are they Royal Sinners? Were they involved?”

She shook her head and the focused look vacated her eyes. “I’m tired. I’m so tired. I’m so incredibly tired.”

“Mom, c’mon,” he said, begging. “I’ve done everything you asked. I can’t help you unless you tell me. You begged me to never say a word about the drugs, and I never did. I never said a thing, just like you asked. I followed your word to the letter. For eighteen goddamn years. But, Jesus Christ, I miss my dad. Okay?” His voice rose as he pleaded with her. “I miss him every day. If you know something you’ve never told me, now would be a really good time to share it, since there’s a chance of getting justice served.”

Her lips curved down. She reached for his hand and clasped her bony fingers around it. “I have to protect you. I swore I’d protect you. I will ’til the day I die.”

His leaned back in his chair and shoved a hand through his hair. “I can protect myself. I’m not fourteen anymore. I’m not a kid. I’m a thirty-two-year-old man. So tell me. Who are T.J. and K.? Did they kill Dad?”

“I’m protecting you and your brothers and sister,” she said, sticking to her own party line.

He tried again, hoping to rattle her this time. Press her buttons. “Then did you do it? They all think you did. Everyone thinks you did. The state sure as hell does. Did you kill Dad?”

She narrowed her eyes. “No. I’ve told you I didn’t.”

“You better not have lied to me. For years I have believed in you.”

“Everything I’ve done is for all of you. I love you all so much.”

“You gave this to me—don’t you get it? You gave me this obsession over what really happened,” he said, grabbing the sides of his skull for emphasis. “It’s like a sickness now in me. You asked me to cover up when the cops were investigating my father’s murder, and the details and the secrets eat away at me. It makes it hard for me to have a normal f*cking life. Tell me, who are they?”