Shattered Ties(54)

I leaned down and scooped up her clothes off the floor. “Here, put these back on.”

She took them from me and did something I hadn’t expected. She threw them as hard as she could against the far wall. She sat up on her knees, so she was mere inches away from me. “I trust you.”

I had no idea what she’d meant by that. Maybe she’d meant that she trusted me to control myself, but I didn’t. “I don’t.”

She smiled as she wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled our bodies tight against each other. We were both on our knees, and her heat was tight against the crotch of my shorts. I was in the best possible hell right now.

“You don’t have to trust yourself because I trust you not to hurt me. I want you, Jesse. I want my first time to be with you.”

“Are you sure?” I asked, still unsure of what to do. I didn’t want her to regret this later.

“I’m sure. You just have to be patient with me.” “I can do that.” I smiled at her.

She leaned back and pulled me with her as her back hit the bed.

“You trust me completely?” I asked one more time. I didn’t want her to stop me once I started.

“Completely.”

That was all I needed to hear. I held her hands above her head as I kissed her, working my way down her body. I ran my tongue down her stomach, heading to the place I wanted most. I pushed her legs apart and ran my tongue across her clit. The sound she made had me repeat the action. I did it over and over, tasting her as I went. Fuck, she’s sweet. Innocence poured out of her, and I savored every bit of it.

I sat up and replaced my tongue with my fingers. They slipped farther back until they were probing her entrance. I slipped one finger inside, feeling just how tight she was. This is going to hurt like hell for both of us.

I slowly pushed another finger in, trying to loosen up her body a bit more. I looked up to watch her as I did so to make sure that I wasn’t hurting her, but she didn’t seem to be in pain. Instead, her head was thrown back in ecstasy. I wanted to make her come before we actually had sex. That way, she wouldn’t be as tight. I continued to push two fingers in and out as my other hand reached up and tweaked one of her nipples.

“Oh my god, Jesse. I can’t take anymore.”

“Shh, just let go.”

I ran my hand down her stomach to play with her clit again. As soon as I touched it, her body exploded. She cried out as she fisted the covers. Her internal muscles tightened around my fingers, and I damn near lost it again. I had no idea how I was going to be able to go slow when I pushed inside her.

I was barely hanging on by a thread now.

I stood as she quieted down, and I slipped off my shorts. I grabbed my wallet and pulled out a condom from inside. I turned back to her to see her staring at me with her mouth agape. The heat in her eyes was mixed with fear.

“Hey, we don’t have to do this, Emma. I mean it.”

“No, I want to. I’m just afraid that it’s going to hurt.”

“It will. I won’t lie to you. But I promise to be gentle.”

She nodded. “I trust you.”

I ripped open the package and put on the condom before walking back to the bed. I lay on top of her and started kissing her. I wanted her to relax, or this would never work. The kiss worked as I felt her body relax beneath me.

“Are you ready?” I whispered.

“Yes.”

She wrapped her arms around my neck, and I positioned myself at her entrance.

“I’m going to go slow and give you time to adjust. If it starts to hurt, tell me, and I’ll stop.”

“Okay.”

I pushed in only an inch or two and stopped, giving her time to adjust. I started thrusting my hips slowly, barely moving, as I slipped in just a bit farther. God, she feels good. I had to stop when I’d made it a little farther in.

Between her heat and the tightness, I was ready to blow.

“You still doing okay?” I asked.

“Yeah. It hurts a little bit.”

“It will. I’m going as slow as I can.”

“I know.”

I started thrusting again, still barely moving, as I wedged myself deeper in.

I knew I couldn’t go any farther like this.

“Baby, I’m going to finish going in. This is the part where it hurts. You just have to relax for me, okay?”

“I’m ready.”

I was impressed at how relaxed she was keeping her body. I took a deep breath before thrusting fully into her. She cried out, and I felt like a bastard as tears sprung to her eyes.

“I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay. Just give me a minute.” She whimpered.

I held completely still as we waited together for the pain to pass. I didn’t want to cause her any more pain than I’d already had.

“I think I’m okay now. Just go slow for a minute, please,” she said.

“Okay.”

I leaned down and kissed her as I started moving my hips slowly. She was still tight, almost tight enough to cause me pain. I worked slowly, stretching her so that both of us were comfortable.

I worked her that way until I couldn’t handle it anymore. I needed to go faster. Instincts took over as I started thrusting harder and deeper, fighting my own body for control. She moaned as she wrapped her legs around my waist, allowing me to go deeper. I still held back, afraid that I would hurt her.